okay so i am currently reading a book about this news anchor woman who suddenly decided to quit her high paying job to pursue a life of ministry.. hehe pretty cool huh ?! well as i was reading during "sustained silent reading" during my 3rd period i came across some really beautiful words.. it's about GOD'S LOVE and i decided to share it with you guys..

Exerpt from the book, GO OUT IN JOY by Nina Herrman Donnelley


"Most of you likely have heard God defined as 'love.' It's on bumper-stickers and buttons -- and that alone should prove its validity! And it's also in the Bible: 'He that loveth not knoweth not God; for God is love.' [I John 4:8 KJV] And, as the verse says in the beginning, by loving we can know God -- know his personality: 'He that loveth not knoweth God.' Or, conversely, using preacher's license: He that loveth knoweth God; 'for God is love.'


"Now, let's test that, let's see what comparisons we can draw, between God and love as we know it. And I'm not talking about people who use the word 'love' to get what they want. I'm talking about the most genuine forms of love that you and I have ever felt. And even these cannot come close to God's love." ....


"I assume most of us have experienced love in our lives: love for parents, brothers, sisters, friends, man, woman, wife, husband, grandparents, grandchildren .. There are many kinds of love. But let's ask some questions about love. Can we see love? Can we touch love, literally? Can we buy love? Can we earn love by racking up points? Can we bargain love? Can we turn love on and off like a lightswitch? Can we have control over love? Does love know the boundaries of race, creed, age, sex, nationality, wealth, and social position?" ....


"Can we reject love? Yes. Yes, we can reject love. But by rejecting love does taht always stop the other pereson from loving us? Is love better when it is given with no demands, no strings attached? Is love better when it is there on our bad days as well as our good days? Is love better when it supports us, when it affirms us as persons, when it makes us feel totally safe and totally free at the same time? Some 'yesses' now?"


"And, finally, is this love best of all when it is ALL OF THESE THINGS -- all of these 'yeses' -- and when we RESPOND to it? When we feel the same way? When we try to love the other peron the same way back? Another yes?"


"Have you figured out my ploy yet?"


"Let's look at God now, as we see him -- or as i see him, anyway -- and ask the same quesitons."


"Can we see God? Can we touch God? Can we manufacture God? Can we buy God? Can we earn God by racking up points? Can we bargain for God? Can we turn God on and off like a lightswitch? Can we exert control over God? Does God know the boundaries of race, creed, age, sex, nationality, wealth, or social position?"


" 'No' so far? Are you seeing the parallels between love and God as we know them?" ...


"Can we reject God? Yes. But by our rejecting God does he cease to exist? And does his love for us stop?" ...


"Does God come to us with no demands, no strings? Maybe we're not too sure about that one, if if we've ansewred 'yes.' Does God come to us with no demands, no stirngs? Is he there on our bad days as well as on our good days? Does God support us, affirm us, as persons? Does he make us feel totally safe and totally free at the same time? 'Yes' so far now?" ...


"And finally, is God 'best of all' - do we feel him closest of all -- when we RESPOND to his love? When we try to love him back? 'He that loveth not knoweth not God; for God is love.'"


"Now, if you think there are some variables in some of these last questions ... then your pride is getting in the way. Yes, your pride ... and my pride!"


"What do I mean? Well, were you wondering whether God really amkes no demands on us? Whether he really puts no performance stings on his love fo rus ? Whether he really makes us feel totally free?"


"Yes. The answer still is 'yes.' God loves us --each one of us -- no matter what we have done, what we are doing, or what we will do. He may not approve of some of the things we do, but God loves each one of us equally, and totally without condition. Nothing, nothing you or I can do wil make God stop loving us. Nothing."


"That is 'unconditional love.' And that is what makes God's love for us perfect and our love for each other, and for God, imperfect."


"For we, you and I can't love without condition. We can try to love without condition. But sooner or later, from time to time, our pride gets in the way."


"Someone we love will hurt us and we'll say, 'You can't do that to me!' Someone we love will ignore us, will do something of which we don't approve, not live up to our expectations, hurt pride or snobbish pride -- we'll be too proud to go on loving them. Our love will have been based on a condition."


"And we do it to God, too. When all goes well, that's fine. But let us ask for something we don't receive, ask fervently and for a long, long time .. And finally, then we don't get whaever it is we're asking for, our pride is hurt. 'I've lost my faith,' we sigh."


"So, strange as it may sound, if you --and i -- think God doesn't love us because we've done too many things wrong, or because we've ignored him too long, or becasue we've simply rejected him, or because your prayers haven't been answered the way we want -- it's jus tour pridge getting in the way.


"Just because you and i can't love without condition doesn't mean God can't love without condition. And that's OUR problem -- yours and mine, not God's. For God is totally prideless. That means he's totally humble. He'll love us always, without condition. He'll love us when we love him back and he'll love us when we ignore him --whether we ignore him becsue we think we've done too many wrong things, or because we don't ahve time, or because we've 'lost' our faith... or because we've never believed. It doens't make any difference. God will love us. Period."


"And when we feel both free in love and safe in love, what does that do to our lives? It makes them other people directed, doesn't it? Suddenly we're not so worried about me, me, me: 'Nobody loves me, nobody cares about me, nobody listens to me.' Suddenly, the 'me' is safe, and free -free to see the world aroundh im, free to see the world around her, and the people in it. Free to care for and love and listen to ... somebody else."


"And it's the same with God's love. When we RESPOND to God's love -- something that has been, is, and will be ours, freely, for all time no matter what --when we respond to God's love, suddenly we are safe, and we are free. We are safe in the knowledge that GOd loves us, GOd cares about us and GOd listens to us --unendingly; and therefore, we are free, free to see the world around us and the people in it. Free to care for and love and listen to .. somebody else."


"Simple isn't it? Almost too simple, too good to be true. And that's why we continue to try to build a self-righteous fortress aroudn God, to make him someone we have to 'find' through good deeds and righteous feelings, rather than someone who has ALREADY FOUND US, WHERE WE ARE, TODAY someone who loves us without condition and asks only that we accept that love and respond to that love.


GOD IS LOVE, UNCONDITIONAL LOVE. AND KNOWING THAT AND RESPONDING TO THAT CAN MAKE ALL THE DIFFERENCE....



oh my that was long huh ?! well i hope it was well worth the reading for you .. when i read this it just WOW! i was compelled to want to share it with who ever is willing to read it..

well i don't have much to write.. all i gotta say is today was a very pOopy day.. =/ for one thing i was very sleepy.. and the second thing practice SUCKED! all my stunts fell.. i was getting very frustrated and agitated! it just wasn't the best day for stunts and stuff.. well for me anyways.. ehh.. and now i got homework to do.. that's all for right now.. and i'm gonna take a nap righ tnow.. i am in much need of it..

hehe.. can you tell i was bored?! i took all those daym tests.. hehee.. those tests are soo interesting to do though.. hehe.. well have fun!

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What day are you?

I taste like Peanut Butter. I am one of the most blendable flavours; I go with sweet, I go with sour, I go with bland, I go with anything. I am practical and good company, but have something of a tendency to hang around when I'm not wanted, unaware that my presence is not welcome. What Flavour Are You?

I am sweet, like Sugar. I am all sweetness and light; fluffy bunnies and dancing fairies; happiness and joy. Too much of me will make you sick. What Flavour Are You?

So which letter of the alphabet matches YOUR personality, huh?

H O M E W O R K S U C K S ! !

more tests i did.. have fun jessica ! =)

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See what Care Bear you are.

today.. hMm.. well today was a pretty mellow day.. let's see i watched a movie during my world history class about World War II, it was called europa it had subtitled and stuff.. and i mean it could have been a good movie, but my freakin' history teacher would not shut up.. after reading the subtitles he would like reread it and explain it! it was like uMm.. WE KNOW HOW TO READ gosh darn it ! aah! so annoying mayn.. ugh.. i wanted to just throw something at him and tell him to shut up.. hMm.. then comes 2nd period.. algebra 2.. haha gosh.. my teacher is sooo funny! he's this asian man named. Mr. Wong.. but i swear dude he talks like arnold schwarzenegger! haha.. it's so funny.. and like the calculus teacher came and talked to our class.. and he was a pretty funny and loud character.. and then 3rd period.. we had a substitute.. and i might add she was such a female dog! all she did was sit there and she stared at the class be rowdy.. and then 15 minutes into class she starts to tell people to be quiet.. and then like i sit in the back with my buddies.. and i mean they can get pretty loud and rowdy.. and i admit i was laughing/giggling.. but not loud along with them..but i was actually doing my work this time! and she says to the class.. "you guys are too loud.. especially the people at the back.." and as she's taking role i guess she wrote down the names of all the people sitting in the back.. AND I GOT ADDED IN IT! i so wasn't even freakin' loud! i was just giggling and shaking my head at the guys.. mayn! and i got in trouble! and i had to extra work! gRrR! =/ and let's see 4rth period we had a sub also.. and it was this little old lady hehe.. she was adorble to me.. her name was mrs. baldasella.. hehe isn't that the cutest name? yah she goes to my church.. i remember seeing her at midnight mass during christmas time.. it's weird seeing your teachers/substitutes at places outside of schOol.. it makes you feel so uncoOl to be around the same vicinity as them.. hehe.. and then let's see moving on to 5th period.. english.. (( yawn )) always boring.. so i basically fell asleep.. well not really.. but chose not to pay attention cuz i didn't feel the need to.. and then i'm off to cheer practice.. and we had a substitute for that too.. AND GUESS WHAT ?!?! it was the same freakin' substitute in my chemistry class! ARGH! what luck ?! but she didn't say anything she just again, sat there with her shades on and did nothing.. wow i had a lot of subs today.. how AWESOME!

something really weird happened to me last night.. so i fell asleep at around 12 ish or so.. and then i thought i had dreamt that i was braiding my hair and stuff.. i THOUGHT it was a dream.. but apparently it wasn't a dream.. cuz i woke up this morning and my hair was braided.. and i know for a fact that my hair wasn't braided when i fell asleep.. weird huh?! i dunno that just felt all weird.. and it made me feel like a complete freak! there are sleep walkers and people that talk in their sleep.. but how many people do you know that actually braid their hair while they're asleep? i swear it was just a dream that i did that! i don't even remember doing it in real life.. hMm (( pondering )) i had a couple epiphanies but i don't care to jot them down at the moment.. i can't really put them into words just yet.. alrite.. off to homework i go.. woO hOo.. school girl katrina is coming out!

okay so let's see how was my day ?? schOol was alrite.. i was a bit sleepy in almost all of my classes but i was doing pretty good trying to stay awake.. i'm starting to get into schOol girl mode.. which is really good Y A Y ! okay so bad news.. my cheer competition that is supposed to be taking place this saturday got pushed back to two weeks from now.. oh wells.. i guess it isn't that bad.. cuz i wasn't really lOoking forward to competing on holy saturday and stuff.. mayn my life has been tossed into so many weird turns and stuff.. it's weird.. but it's not like it's bad or anything.. it's a fact of life i guess.. and i mean all i'm faced with right now are "healthy problems" i'm handling it.. but it's really weird how life can be so constant and unchanging.. like it's heading a certain direction and all of a sudden W H A M life shifts gears and turns completely a new direction.. weird.. life is just weird i guess.. i guess in life nothing is certain.. =/ it kinda makes you sad.. but at the same time it's kinda relieving.. relieving to the point that you know that in life you are always given the chance to change direction.. and that you don't always gotta follow this same boring path.. ya get me ?! yah.. i dunno i was just thinkin.. and rambling on this blogging thing.. hehe.. everybody seems to be getting all into blogging.. hehe well on to other news..

this friday is good friday.. and i would like to not go to school.. but i know i have to.. i have no other choice.. cuz my teachers just happen to love giving tests on fridays.. and like i said i'm getting into schOol girl mode.. and i don't wanna have to make up and miss any tests anymore.. so i'm off to schOol on friday it isn't toO bad.. atleast i'm getting where i need to be...

okay first of all.. the most annoying thing happened today at schOol.. and i guess i don't know all these "terms" and stuff.. and the terminology of "tossing one's salad" came up.. i was like what the heck is that supposed to mean ? and i happened ot have said this out loud.. and everyone just started laughing at me.. nobody cared to tell me what it meant.. everyone just cracked up and i'm sitting there like uMm.. yah very funny.. mind telling me what it is.. so i came home with the mind set that I WILL FIND OUT WHAT THE MEANS! so i requested someone tell me on my profile.. and boy, did someone tell me! y e c k O! my gosh.. the things people come up with these days ?! i don't understand.. yeck.. (( gag )) i think i would have lived a happier life without knowing what "tossing your salad" means.. now when i watch coOking shows and they say.. "now toss the salad.." or something of that nature.. i will just be filled with a disgusted feeling and change the channel.. gosh.. i'm never gonna lOok at a salad the same again.. N E V E R ! i'm officially traumatized..

OUCH!! man i haven't fallen during stunting in cheer for the longest time.. and today i fell.. bad. the person that was in front of me that i was leaning on slipped and so i leaned forward.. fell off the person carrying me.. and the stunt next to me which basically leans on me fell toward my direction.. and my left knee hits straight on the floor.. and then the flyer person from the stunt next to me fell on top of my foot.. and her tail bone got hurt.. ugh.. =/ it was not a good practice day today.. but anyways now my knee is all banged up.. and there are a bunch of scratches on it cuz i happen to have fallen on a patch of dry ass grass! yup.. just my luck huh ?! and it's bruised.. and i got scratched on all the places where your knee bends.. so it stings as i bend and unbend my knee.. yeppO.. great for me.. so today practice was bleh and an ouch!

E V E N T S : March 3 : My FIRST Cheer competition.. place and time TBA !

omg.. it's almost 4 in the morning and i'm up blogging.. well i have nothing better to do at the moment.. and i can't get to sleep so i figure i might as well kill time during my boredom by blogging.. well i am currently just lOoking at stuff online and watching tv.. i meant to do some homework but it's not working.. so anyways.. AAH my competition is NEXT saturday! my gosh.. so soon already.. but i'm pretty excited about it i just don't know how i'll perform under pressure.. =/ let's see how was my day today/ yesterday.. i had a pretty good day.. i went to watch ice age at unviersal city walk.. mayn that place has changed.. the last time i was there was when i was in like elementary school.. i'm so out of date.. but the movie ice age wasn't that great.. i expected it to be much cuter and funnier.. but it just wasn't.. the story line was so bland.. there was nothing much to the story.. the characters could have been better presented but they weren't.. monsters inc. is so much better! but anyways afterwards i went to my usual church activties saturday night.. which is always fun stuff for me.. and mayn we had some GOOOOD food.. pasta! yuMmm.. good eating! i needed that too.. i haven't been eating very well the past 2 days and stuff.. i'm watching carrie 2 right now, the rage.. i dunno this isn't that great of a movie.. it's all just gore and stuff.. but anyways.. i dunno.. i'm so rambling right now it's ridiculous.. my hair has grown excessively long right now.. i dunno i'm thinking of cutting it down to my shoulders or something.. but i'm too scared.. i'm so used to the hair i have now that i'm scared to do anything tOo drastic to it.. afraid of loOking worse than i already do.. =/ hehe.. alrite i've been meaning to update my webpage cuz it's lOoking extremely crappy.. and i have such old material on it.. and so uninteresting.. but everytime i try the program i won't use will not allow me to open it.. okay i just figured out right now that i think the worse possible way of dying is drowning.. cuz it's so slow and painful.. and you're in such a panic for air.. it's like every system in your body just slowly begins to die.. and it's a death that allows you to suffer each and every moment of it.. yeck.. i just thought of that righ tnow cuz i'm watching carrie 2 and that's how one of the guy dies.. okay anyways.. i dunno.. i guess that's just what's going on in my little brain at the current moment.. hMm.. i dunno.. weird happenings.. okay that's all for this weirdO blog.. omg.. this movie carrie 2 just made me laugh.. they're in the middle of her going completely ballistic and then all of a sudden the guys busts with .. "i love you!" and then everything is all well.. and they're doing a getting close together and then all of a sudden the roof caves in.. and the girl throws herself in front of it instead of the guy and umm.. happy ending? i dunno.. weirdo.. and then like he's sitting next to her and she's like just leave me.. and she says a final.. "i love you" to him.. (( getting scared )) [sorry that was out of nowhere but i was feeling very scared cuz it was a suspenseful part of the movie and stuff.. and that's what i was currently feeling at the time..] and then like she like pushes the guy far away from her with her telekenatic powers.. it's like why don't you just push the freakin' roof thing that fell on you?! gosh.. ugh.. i hate movies that try to get all dramatic when there's like a better way of ending the situation.. i dunno maybe i was lOoking at the movie into toO much of an indepth view.. okay that's it.. i'm gonna go try and get some bOoty rest.. i'm in much need of it..