in all likelihood the only man who will ever like me just as i am will probably need to believe i'm somebody else at first.
-- Elizabeth Wurtzel; Bitch

i'm sick! ;akjdfa;ldfja;ldfja;ldfj! not freakin' cool! tomorrow is my cousin's debut.. and i'm sitting here with a fever (i don't even know why i'm on the computer since i am feeling very dizzy), stuffy nose, itchy throat feeling, and coughing. all this and tomorrow is my cousin's debut! what a freakin' sad trip is this?! and i HAD to go to school today cuz of that stupid in class essay! and i'm mad cuz my essay could have been better, but since we were limited on time i couldn't put more quotes from the book in my essay.. so my essay is not what i want it to be. =/ DAMN iT! well anyways, today was a HOT ASS day, and i drove the hondee.. and it has no AC. ooh that rhymed. wasn't so bad driving with the windows down.. it plugged up my ears though. well anyways.. so now i'm sitting here at home on the computer when i should be lying down. i have to clean my room cuz it's a mess.. why do i always feel compelled to do things at the worse times? well anyways, things have been pretty chill. nothing too interesting going on.. as if there ever really is a time when interesting things are going on. my hands are sweaty and they feel very dirty. i should wash my hands. okay this post is random.. but oh well.. i'm just letting myself type. hmm.. i didn't get to write about the beach day friday. it was fun.. good times spent with the girls! =) i gotta say though i am FULLY enjoying my time right now. friday was the first time i ever went on the santa monica pier. it was cool.. and i got to ride the ferrish wheel! that was the first time i ever rode on a ferris wheel! how lame of me huh? but yes.. that is the truth. the three of us were trippin' out for awhile.. but after awhile we got the hang of it. hmm got my name written by some chinese guy in cool lettering. it was $1 per letter.. and so i was a cheap ass and told himi to write my name as, "KAT" yep a whole $3 right there BiG SPENDER i am! that has got to be one my favorite days so far.. i should be writing about my day today rather than my friday.. dude friday was freakin' 6 days ago and i'm barely writing about it. oh well.. like you guys care when i write my entries or even what i write about anyways..

currently reading a book titled, BITCH. people see the book i'm reading and they look at me and they know it suits me. a friend of mine actually wrote on the inside cover, "co-author: katrina chicote". haha go figure. it's a really intersting book though filled with a bunch of quotes and stuff that i could very much relate to. like the quote that at the top.. good reading. such good reading that i think i will do that right now.. i shall read and i shall rest.. and i shall knock the hell out cuz this fever is getting the best of me. laters.

I need you now be my light
tomorrow is much too late
I need you now
-- saves the day; "tomorrow is too late"

school today was interesting. had to do that willie willie thing for english class.. it was funny cuz walking around the hallways you can hear people reciting that poem that our english teacher told us to memorize.. so down the hall you can hear kids saying, "willie, willie, harry, ste./ harry, dick, john, harry three." well anyways.. today i was dropped off at school.. car is in the shop. breaks are getting fixed and the computer system in the car is getting fixed. i don't know how i messed that up. =/ leave it to me to EFF up a computer system in a car. hmm.. well anyways.. felt odd to be carless.. but luckily i have a very cool friend named karl who picked me up from school and dropped me off to where my mommy was. thank goodness for moy cool friends! well anyways school was the usual. it was so freakin' hot today!!! gahhh! today would have been a great beach day.. hmm well anyways.. this post is jumping from thought to thought.. oh yeah well after school.. i just chilled with karl for a bit.. and then i went to go meet up with my mommy at my aunt's house.. then we went to eat at el tapatio! holy wowza i ate a butt load of food. it was so much! but whatever.. i'm tired and this post was random. and i'm leaving now. bye.

If I could tell you one thing
Then I'd tell you everything
I'd probably say that you've been on my mind
Since we held hands out in the rain
Smoking cigarettes to play
Off all the BUTTERFLiES I had inside

And now I think that you should know
That you've got everything
That I've wanted for so damn long
And that I wouldn't hesitate to trade away everything
If you tell me that I'm not wrong
So know I think that you should know
That I've been waiting for you

Since we sat underneath the stars
as I held you in my arms
Killing just another summer night

It's funny how the best things happen sometimes
And how I'll always remember those endless nights
But don't forget I regret the fact that I have to leave you
Right as the best part starts
So I thought I'd take the time to say

allister; "waiting for you"

Don't let me let you go
-- eve 6; "here's to the night"

i was near where YOU are last night.
passed by where YOU lived.
it felt good to be sorta close to YOU again.