joyeux noel!

this christmas has to be one of the BEST Christmas' i've had! =) i honestly don't know what made it so good.. i think it's just i sat back and REALLY enjoyed the time spent with family and the laughs being shared with each other... i had a GREAT time!=)

my day started with me watching my usual dawson's creek... and then my mom and aunt came home from work and that's when everything got started.. we were all cooking. i was in charge of baking the cheese cupcakes which were pretty good! =) first time i actually made something for our christmas party.. and it was nice to do. and i actually felt like i was contributing to the work.. hmm.. well i also had a monthly visitor come by that day! =/ grr on it. so i was in pain and i was feeling really weak and stuff.. and it was weird cuz my heart was racing and my hands were shaking so much.. so i would lie down from time to time to rest and then get back up to tend to my baking.. after about 4 hours in the kitchen i finally deided to get up and get ready.. dude, i got some random ass comments from family. it's actually quite disturbing..

so my uncle goes:
hey katrina you're getting a little chubby there. your face is getting
round. you better control yourself before you get out of hand.
i go:
thanks, merry christmas to you too! *walks away* there better
be a daym good present under that tree for me from you!

- an earlier event -

(( i come down the stairs after i just got ready ))
aunt: wow katrina you look burry fritty.
me: aww thanks. *smile*
aunt: u should look like dat all da time.
me: umm *smirk*

hmm it was very interesting and very entertaining.. i don't mind. haha you can always count on family.. hahaha! but anyways, so yeah after awhile of eating some yummy food and bonding with the family we all started opening our presents and i honestly didn't even care what i got thsi year, cuz it was just so nice taking in the family.. and just taking it in christmas for what it was.. i mean it's nice to see that even those members of my family who can't really give a lot still give even if it's not much.. it's the thought that through everythings it's like they do all they can to give something.. and it was just nice family time.. all the jokes being made and all the laughter.. and i mean i actually enjoyed taking pictures and stuff.. haha.. like with my cousins and stuff! it was good stuff! we had a brady bunch picture! and wow i mean i can say i really appreciated this christmas for all the little things.. i mean for example i have this one aunt.. and i mean she doesn't really spend christmas with us, but she always manages to get us our christmas presents.. and i mean her christmas presents are often pretty weird.. like one time i remember i think she gave me like shampoo and other stuff or something haha it was great.. but anyways.. she ALWAYS gives me pajamas for christmas.. like i have sooo many pajamas cuz of her.. she's so consistent with it.. and i mean so few things in life are consistent.. and it's nice that she is.. and also the thought process that she puts into it.. i mean i know it's like okay she gets it every year what's the big deal.. what's the thought in that? well she ALWAYS gets me purple pajamas.. cuz she remembers that purple is my favorite color. i mean i actually took the time this Christmas to sit there and appreciate her consistency and her thoughfulness. i loved everything about this Christmas! and ooh what's great was.. my next door neighbors they had snow! haha yeah! they had like ice makers come early in the morning and put snow on their front lawn! so technically that part of my christmas wish list is crossed out! and i figure i have till the end of this month to fulfill that list.. well i'm going to go now.. but umm yeah GREAT Christmas for me this year.. it's actually been awhile since i felt like i had a really great time during Christmas... =D i'm all smiles.

like a saturday night
i'll be gone before you knew that i was there.
-- yellowcard; "rough draft"

hello folks! wow, i haven't blogged back-to-back in quite awhile.. well i figured it's vacation time and i don't really have that much to do.. so let's blog.. hmm another day spent at home.. but i don't know for some reason i'm not mind my sudden stand still at home. cuz i mean i've been constantly having to get from here to there lately that i haven't had a time where i can just sit there and not do anything.. i mean i'm always getting up getting ready for something.. that it felt nice to just move around not have to worry about "ooh i need to get there at this time.. " and so on.. hmm christmas eve tomorrow... it's back to being busy tomorrow.. we have a party at the house christmas eve.. all our family will be over at the house and stuff.. hmm.. it should be fun. first christmas at the new house.. so it'll be fun. a lot of cooking tomorrow.. and i still have to shop for my christmas clothes tomorrow.. i don't even have that yet.. ahhh the mall on christmas eve! =/ gosh that's not good at all.. but ehh we'll see. last minute, what can i say?! i think i shop too much. ehh that's okay. but anyways, this christmas is gonna feel weird for some reason. i think since my dad is going to be off at a different place.. it's going to be my first christmas with my mom and dad separated since their divorce.. so the question is how is katrina going to split herself up between parents? hmm.. that's the tricky part.. hmm we'll see this will be an experience..

so my car is at the mercedez-benz dealership.. omgosh i didn't blog about my car incident.. tsk tsk. for shame on me. well i got my car a couple of days ago! =D yay// sarcasm. but for about umm 3 hours! hahaha yeah so i got it back from that place.. and can i just say that place has a horrible work environment.. so i pick it up, and then i drive it around.. and something doesn't feel quite right.. the ride isn't as smooth as it usually does.. but i was just over excited to have my car, and i was just denying the fact that it wasn't the same as before.. so i take it to my uncle's house for a little bit and then there's like green liquid leaking out of the car.. it's the coolan apparently, sidenote: car liquid stuff is pretty colorful, but anyways... so yeah that's bad.. cuz apparently coolant is a pretty important part of the car.. so hmm.. i figure okay wahtever.. i'll take it to mercedes-benz dealership tomorrow for service and what not.. and then i drive to school to watch the Hoover basketball game.. and then i go and pick up fat ass martin at night school.. so i park and waited for his ass for a good half hour! bastard.. so i decide let's just drive around or something.. so i start my car and it doesn't start! =/ no good. so i'm sitting here in a parking lot, alone. and i didn't know what to do. i mean i was going to open the hood to my car and i didn't even know how to do that. =/ and i just realized while i was at the mechanics place that i didn't know how to turn on my fog lights.. =/ i always assumed fog lights and high beams were the same thing.. haha i know shame on me. but anyways so yeah i sit there and i didn't know what to do.. and i didn't want to ask for help from anyone cuz i mean what am i supposed to say??? so ofcourse i do the next best thing i call my wesley snipes so i call him my situation and then him and shaft come driving to my rescue. it took them awhile to figure out how to open the hood of my car... the handle was stuck under the grill.. but yeah so they pop the hood open, and ofcourse the boys just surround the car not really knowing what to do.. but they surround the thing and stared at it.. so i had martin, edgar, wesley snipes, shaft, and a white guy just looking at the car.. and i realized as i was looking at them that having a broken down car is a good way to pick up guys.. haha but anyways.. so yeah the white guy seemed to know what was going down.. he was the only one messing around with it and looking for things wrong with the car.. so he put water inside the coolant tank thingy and my car started running.. but it would only run a certain amount before it got gayy again and stopped working. so i drove my car to the mercedes-benz dealership to have it fixed. and now we find out that that the auto body shop place that i took it totally EFFed up on doing things.. they said that they messed with the sensors of the car and the car's computer program or whatever.. and umm they didn't replace things that they were supposed to replace... and they basically just did a HORRiBLE job with it. so hmm never going to that place again.. so now it's safe at mercedes-benz, and i have faith that it will be brought back to be soon and it will be brought back as good as new! i'm so sorry car of mine for hurting you as much as i did. i'm so sorry. i didn't mean it. i'll never do it again, promise!! =)

but anyways.. hmm.. my stomach really hurts right now.. i ate too many cherries =/ ughhh.. i've been eating a lot more than my usual self.. i think this is what i do when i'm at home all by myself.. i eat. =/ okay i'm going to go now. laters guys.

please don't wake me up
you're such a perfect dream
-- trapt; "perfect dream"

day 1 of vacation and i spent it at home. not too bad i guess. i woke up at around 10:30am just in time to catch some parts of dawson's creek and in time to watch one full episode.. the second episode was when joey lost her virginity to pacey.. it was really sweet how they did it, and the things she was saying to pacey..

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Joey: Do you still have your wallet?

Pacey: (kissing her hand softly) I thought we were done talking about that?

Joey: (taking the brush away from him) We are.

Pacey: Okay. (he pulls his wallet out of his pocket, wrapping his arms around the front of her. He opens the wallet and pulls the condom out) Gonna throw it away?

Joey: (taking the condom) I want to throw the wrapper away.

Pacey: (turning Joey around) If this was about

Joey: Pacey… this is about how you carried my bag off the bus yesterday. This is how when we go to the movies and you go and you buy popcorn, you always be sure you bring back a napkin so I don't wipe all the grease on my jeans. And this is about how just last week when we were at miniature golf you took all of the shots first so I would know the correct path.

Pacey: Well, that's just

Joey: (unbuttoning Pacey's shirt, Pacey sucks his breath in lightly) You taught me how to drive. And last year at prom, you knew that the bracelet I was wearing was my mom's. You kissed me first sweetheart. (she pushes the shirt off his shoulders) The second time you counted to 10 before doing it again, just in case I wanted to stop you. (she kisses his hand) You bought me a wall.

Pacey: I didn't buy it so much…

Joey: We were alone on a boat for three months and you understood without a word why I wasn't ready. (she takes his undershirt off) Do you have to ask me now why I am? (Pacey brushes her the hair out of her eyes. They hold each other's hands and caress with their finger tips.) Pace? I'm gonna count to 10… and then I'm going to start kissing you. If you don't want me to… you're just going to have to stop me. (they look at each other with such passion in their eyes. She runs her hand up his arm and places it on his chest.) 10, my love. (they kiss each other, and Pacey cradles her hand in his hand then running his fingers through her hair. Pacey moves the smoochies down her neck as Joey brings his hand to her face kissing his thumb. Pacey kisses Joey's shoulder, letting the strap of her shirt fall down her arm. Joey clings to Pacey as he continues to kiss half way down her arm and back up again, nuzzling his head into her neck. They walk towards the bed, Pacey constantly kissing her skin. Joey makes happy sighs as it fades to black.)
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i swear this show makes me such a hopeless romantic it's pathetic.. i don't know i thought that was done very sweetly.. i loved it. and the things she mentioned about pacey i just thought it was very sweet.. and notice how she mentions the simple things that pacey did that made the most difference to her? yeah i like that about it the most.. *sigh* hahaha okay i'M OVER iT! haha.. moving on... so i just spent my day lying down on the sofa watching christmas episodes of shows and watching christmas movies.. i got to watch miracle on 34th street! it was freakin' awesome! i loved it!!! got me all in the christmas spirit and what not.. i don't have a car this entire week i think. =( that makes me sad.. cuz that means i'm stuck here for awhile.. and that's no fun... and all my friends are at gdale, and i can't spend vacation with them.. sad trip. hmm i'll be working in my mom's office this friday.. being the receptionist.. not too bad.. gives me some sort of experience at something.. and i can work with that.. and plus i'm gonna get money, so i definitely can't complain about that!

i feel different. for some reason i feel different from the person i was just a week ago. i don't know what caused this sudden feeling.. but i do. i'm not saying it's a bad different, and i'm not even saying it's a good different. just something different from what i was though.. i'm not sure if it's good or bad, but what i do know is that i needed it. i'll leave it with that.. and umm anthony nice to meet you.