Sorrow is better than laughter: for by the sadness of the countenance the heart is made better.
- ecclesiastes 7:3

i love that Bible quote.. and it's so true.. hMm.. i just got home from karla's dad's funeral, and i might say it was a very nice processeion. father paul presided the mass... let me ask you guys this.. so like you go to a funeral right, and a friend asks, "so how was it?" how exactly do you reply to that? cuz i mean you can't say, "oh it was good." but in the total outlook of everything it wasn't all that great, but at the same time you can't say it was "bad", cuz then that just wouldn't sound right.. hMm... so i said.. "it was a very nice ceremony." well yes, karla's dad's funeral was a very nice ceremony.. and it was very heart felt.. and karla i just wanna let you know that i'm here to support you and love you, although at times we might lose touch, it's okay cuz we're here for each other in times that we need each other. sometimes friends were brought into each others lives only for certain reasons, and i'm thankful for having you in my life on those times i need someone to be there for me. karla, i'm here for you, and you know that, i'm here to smile with you, laugh with you, and yes, even cry with you. stay strong, and keep the faith.. i love you.

you know as i was watching everyone give their euglogies and stuff.. like karla and her brother, i tried for a minute to place myself in their shoes.. and picture me losing my father.. and i thought about what i was going to say, and you know what i drew a blank. i drew a blank for a long while, but later i realized no matter what my dad has put me through, through the good and the bad i am what i am partly because of him..i can't say we only had bad times.. cuz i mean there were those good times.. he took care of me the first four years of my life.. i mean i gotta give him credit for that right? i mean right now sure my relationship with my dad is pretty non-existant but that doens't mean that i can forget everything that he did do for me.. right now the only thing i have of my dad are memories, i should atleast allow myself to cherish those.. cuz i mean he is the only dad i will ever have. i'm not saying i'm ready to go and be all happy peppy with him, cuz i know that that is not happening between me and him anytime soon, but atleast i grew a new appreciation for him.. i guess in times like these when a friend loses a parent you have the tendancy to look at your relationship with your parents and analyse are you doing your best to let your parents know you love them, because they can go any minute, or you can go any minute. sometimes people think that life is forever, but it's not. life is GOD's temporary gift to us, we should cherish it instead of letting it waste away. like one of my old quotes said, "GOD gave us the gift of life, and what we do with it is our gift to GOD." so you guys have an awesome possom day, and enjoy your life! cuz i know i'm going to =)

( none of that highlight, NOT highlight.. blabla yet.. the day isn't over.. i'll blog more later )

okay well for starters i just wanna give my love to freda

girl i'm here for you. i know you already know that, and i dont' need to remind you. although i don't know if i can offer you any words that would help console you, i am here to listen if it helps you any. keep the faith, and i know times like this it's so easy to lose sight of things in your life, and maybe right now you've steered off course a bit, but i know you're strength will bring you back. keep in mind, it's okay to cry, like you've said to me so many times, sometimes being weak is showing your strength. your family will be strong for each other.. and in no matter what i will be here along with a lot of other people... not just as a listener, but also as a shoulder to lean on... i love you and i will be praying for your family. your grandpa is in a better place now.. he's with the big man in the sky, you couldn't ask for anything better than that...

well i'm here blogging again.. you know what was really sad.. i couldn't publish my blog earlier.. and apparently i wasn't the only one that it happened to.. so thank goodness.. i was freakin out.. i don't know what i would do if i wasn't able to blog.. =/ gosh.. that would be earth shattering.. well i dunno.. so many things have been happening lately and it's like i'm pretty mellow about everything really.. and i mean sometimes i wanna be that offer of comfort, but sometimes there are just no real words to offer any comfort for any situation... and none of that "i know how you feel." or that cliche.. "time will heal all wounds." cuz i mean to me if i'm going through rough patches in my life that is definitely last thing i want to hear.. all i can offer is myself, and my support, and my love.. and just hope and pray that that will help well hMm.. i don't know how to try and make light of this blog so, sorry if this blog will kinda be an unusually mellow one.. and one that is not as spunky or as weird as my usual stuff.. hMm.. oh my mom is letting me get a job! we made a deal.. i get a job.. and if in my next report card i don't get any C's at all. maintain an A and B average at school.. i can keep the job, if not then i have to quit.. the thing is i don't know where to work yet.. hMm i don't think i want to work in foods.. hMm i'd get too fat, and i'd want to eat too much and stuff.. hMm so i'm looking more into clothes or wahtever.. hMm i wanted to work at like abercrombie but they hire hot chicks tehre.. and hmm.. i don't think i fit the criteria they are looking for.. and american eagle isn't open yet at the galleria.. so hmm.. looking somepalce else.. alrite.. well oh yeah i'm not going to texas anymore.. since cheer camp falls in the same dates.. and i MUST go to cheer camp.. can't not go to that.. so hMm.. alrite that's it for this.. i just had to blog again.. although from the time on i blogged last time i was just sitting my bOo-Ooh-tEe at home.. oh yeah.. i just wanna say a special thanks to duy again, cuz he's just too sweet for me! =) thanks for making me feel so special and being so sweet to me, and giving me nice compliments.. heehe talking to you is always a highlight of my day.. ; )

people are not using the "comments" thing to their advantage, someone comment! hehe

Before God we are all equally wise - and equally foolish.
Albert Einstein (1879-1955)

well i got back half an hour ago from going out.. wow dude i ddin't realize how long i haven't gone to the mall.. i still dont' understand how people can stand being tehre everyday or just "hanging out' i'm more of a walk in and walk out person when it comes to the mall.. or atleast be at the mall for a reason... i dunno the mall is just not my place to be.. well anyways so i went to chevy's to meet up some people cuz it was my friend anna banana's birthday.. well technically it was yesterday.. and we were gonna do this thing for her.. so yeah i had to bring my godson, eric, with me cuz i was babysitting.. it was an interesting experience.. i felt like such a mother! mayn! and let me just quote my friend singie POOP : "Katrina i can imagine you being a mom, but one of those like divorced moms." umm.. awwright nice one! gracious.. am i that bad?! do i really bring out that bad of a vibe that i have to be looked at as a "divorced mom" sucks to be me huh?! hehe nice one xuan! and then after anna bananas little bday celebration.. by the way.. the freaks at chevy's sang super loudly to her happy birthday.. and they gave her a mondo cool mexican hat! mayn i'm jealous! but yeah she refused to wear her mondo cool hat.. so boooo to that.. and oh yeah anna got an awesomely cute haircut! yay to that, didn't even recognize her.. but yeah.. so after our lunch we went to the mall.. i wanted anna to play DDR, but too bad we couldn't cuz there were some hardcore people playing.. and they were all sweating bullets and shoot.. so grr.. they were in the "zone" so umm.. we didn't wanna disturb them.. they looked to hardcore for us.. too bad anna, maybe next time k, when there are less hardcore people playing.. hehe.. well anyways afterwards we just walked to pet love so my little godson could be entertained.. gosh dude my godson wants a chihuahua darn it! evil doggies! and he wants one! grr.. =/ aww wells.. and then we went to kaybee toys, so i went and bought my godson a little power ranger toy.. gosh don't i sound like such a mom?! yes i know! dude forreals.. i felt like people were looking at me and shaking their heads like.."gosh she's too young." or something.. =/ well anyways after our trip to kaybee joyce, me, and my godson went home and we took the beeline! hehehe.. but soon enough i won't need to cuz you know why?! *vroom*vroom*! yup.. hehehe.. but yeah so we were in the beeline.. and my godson had a little balloon from chevys and some nasty little boy was trying to steal it from him! gosh, nasty little boy better step back dude! hehe..but no forreals this little boy wasn't even TRYING to be slick.. he just straight tried to grab the balloon from my godson, so i was like no little boy, and i put the balloon behind me! yup.. slickness huh?! hehehe.. NOBODY MESSES WITH MY GODSON!! hehe.. then we just got home.. and now i'm sitting here home alone blogging.. tonight.. hMm.. it's the wake of my friend's dad, and tomorrow is the funeral... i'm gonna be going.. to offer my love and support ofcourse.. so i'll chat with you guys in a bit.. it's time for me to run off.. laters guys.. and GOD bless!

highlight of the day:
- HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANNA BANANAS! feelin' the mexican hat buddy!

NOT so highlight of the day:
- "divorced mom" hmm..

person who made me smile:
- singie poop with her comment on me being a "divorced mom." although it's in my NOT so highlight of the day category.. it still made me smile and laugh.. hehe

i was looking through some archives of freda's blog.. and came across this.. sigh

Hey you guys!
I went to a meeting last night at Incarnation and Fr. Paul pulled me aside and told me that he heard so many wonderful things about the retreat! He said the kids came back happy, the parents were happy, a couple of kids now want to join the Incarnation Youth Group, one mother told me that her daughter had told her a couple of weeks ago that she was angry with God and blamed God for a lot of things but after the retreat she wanted to know more about God. PRAISE THE LORD! GLORY TO GOD! Now we know why there were so many difficulties going on those weeks before the retreat...because God was going to do something awesome.


The retreat would not have been successful without the Lord and without all of you saying YES to God's call to serve. Thanks so much for all your hard work...and I know you ALL worked very hard. You guys are such a great team.

Thanks again and God Bless!


Sis. Jackie _____________________________________________


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"you guys are such a great team." hMm.. my oh my.. things change huh? well we'll always have memories.. and cuz of those i smile a great big smile! =D

hola! well just got back from my cousin's birthday... HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOHN! okay but anywho.. yeah it was pretty cool.. dang dude time flies like a mother! i didn't even realize how old my cousin was.. i mean i've known this dude for awhile.. haha duh.. but uMm i straight thought he was only like 13 or 14.. but he's freakin' 15 years old! AAHHHH! dude.. time flies! i feel like an old folk now.. i'm turning freakin' 17 this year! but oh wait.. ANNA bananas is turning *ahem* looks around *ahem* 18! whoa buddy.. sorry girl.. had to spill it.. hehe but yeah anyways.. dang still feel old though.. oOoh guess what.. GOOD NEWS! katrina will be on the road driving soon enough! yep you heard this right! my mom is FINALLY letting me go and make a freakin' appointment to the DMV to take my driver's test.. hehehe.. yay! gracious.. since the "incident" i haven't been allowed to freakin' touch my mom's car.. hehehe.. but yay watch TRUST, i'm gonna be driving around soon enough! WATCH OUT EVERYBODY! hehe.. no rude comments please about me driving! I WILL BE AN AWESOME POSSOM DRIVER! okay but anyways.. so yeah at my cousin's little bash thing there was a lot of good food! yup.. yummy in the tummy action! mayn.. shoot.. and omg.. my uncle who hasn't seen me for awhile says to me.."you're looking kinda fat." right then and there i started crying.. and no he said this while i was eating one plate of some BBQ chicken, and another plate of pancit and stuff.. gosh could i have felt anymore of a pig?! gracious.. so i started crying then and there! haha.. mayn! and no the sad thing also is that i tried on my mom's diamond ring.. and how come it wouldn't fir my fat freakin' fingers! could i have felt any fatter today?! darn it darn it darn it! gosh.. =/ i'm so sad.. but anyways moving on.. and people were all singing karaoke up in that house dude.. gracious.. ijust didn't know what to do with myself.. old filipino dads + beer + karaoke = a very bad combination! but yeah i got a kick out of watching them though.. and my little godson eric and my niece lanelle were singing.. hehehe cutie patootie! hehe.. alrite but hMm.. gosh dang how come everyone in my family has like a boyfriend/girlfriend except me?! hahaha.. gracious.. i can see it.. this is what the future holds.. everyone will have a husband/wife.. and i'm sitting there hMm.. all by my lonesome.. in my NUN outfit hehe.. alrite.. but seriously... gosh.. everybody has a boyfriend/girlfriend.. maybe i should go get me one...HAH yah right! why am i kidding myself.. but anyways.. so yeah.. dang i'm digressing from the subject huh?! but wait.. i'm not even talking about anythikng specific.. oh yeah.. the booo for the day.. i didn't get to go to vicento's little bash thing.. i couldn't get a ride there.. and icouldn't leave my cousin's bday.. boooo to that.. so hmm.. nothign else to write about.. oh yeah... my aunt is having a baby! heheehe.. well she's due in september.. so yeah that's pretty near.. yay for that! another baby! and it's cool cuz she produces really adorable babies! hahaha.. taht sounds so weird.. but yeah.. so hMm.. tomorrow my buddy's bday lunch thing.. should be some fun stuff.. friends, laughs, and ofcourse FOOD! yay to that! alrite.. well i'm gonna go now.. have a good one.. oh and check out freda's blog [ << you can click on that by the way] i dolled it up for her.. alrite.. that's all for the blogination today.. see ya guys.. oh yeah.. before i go.. i saw some cool fireworks from my bedroom window.. that was pretty fantastic.. alrite.. that's it.. bye!

highlight of the day:
- FOOD!
- fireworks
- my mommy letting me make that appointment! oh yeah! watch out *vroom*

NOT so highlight of the day:
- not being able to go to vince's thing... bOooo!
- my sister went to disneyland! i'm jealous! I WANNA GO TO DISNEYLAND *hint hint* people! hehe

person who made me smile:
- eric and lanelle! the two most precious babies in my life! hehehe.. cutie patooties!

HAPPY 4th of JULY!

also

HAPPY BDAY ANNA!

i was born in november so hmm this is what it says about me.. you think there's any truth to it? hMm.. if you wanna go check yours out.. clickity click.. [ click this ! ]

NOVEMBER
Has a lot of ideas
Difficult to fathom
Thinks forward
Unique and brilliant
Extraordinary ideas
Sharp thinking
Fine and strong clairvoyance
Can become good doctors
Careful and cautious
Dynamic in personality
Secretive
Inquisitive
Knows how to dig secrets
Always thinking
Less talkative but amiable
Brave and generous
Patient
Stubborn and hard-hearted
If there is a will, there is a way
Determined
Never give up
Hardly becomes angry unless provoked
Loves to be alone
Thinks differently from others
Sharp-minded
Motivates oneself
Does not appreciates praises
High-spirited
Well-built and tough
Deep love and emotions
Romantic
Uncertain in relationships
Homely
Hardworking
High abilities
Trustworthy
Honest and keeps secrets
Not able to control emotions
Unpredictable

sometimes things in life get REALLY hard to deal with, but the beauty of life is that you never have to go it alone.
-- me

alrite well i woke up at 5 in the morning, hopping in the shower.. got out and got ready for practice.. i was feeling SOOOOO tired since i haven't slept in the longest time, and when i did sleep i only got like 4 hours of sleep in. so i go to cheer practice.. and mayn i dunno my mile was harder to run today.. =/ i was feeling a bit weak.. i still ran the whole thing, but it was weird cuz i usually don't tire until like the last lap.. but i was already getting weak in the knees in 3rd lap.. but i didnt' wanna walk any part of my mile.. so i just kept running.. and then afterewards we went up to the bleachers and we ran up and down the bleachers 3 freakin' times! dude i was so tired by half of he second one that i just started walking.. but i wasn't the only one cuz everyone else got really tired and just walking them.. then afterewards we did suicides and stuff.. shoot i've never sweat so much during practice before! seriously like usually i just umm sweat, but i don't have sweat like trickling down my face and stuff.. and i had that today.. grossy huh?! yeah i know.. but i felt like i was really working out! yeah! hehehe and then we started doing our jumps.. and i dunno i guess my jumps are getting better and stuff.. but i still have a lot to work on.. oh yeah CONGRATULATIONS TO MY MOMMY, JACKIE! she's cheer captain ya know! hehehe she deserves it! well anyways so we stunted and again i was basing for a bit.. i still need to practice to get the hang of it.. but hmm.. i'm doing alrite.. and then after that i went to cinematography class.. dude i was trippin all i could do was sleep in that class.. i was so tired not just form practice but also from my lack of sleep.. it was wearing me down. so i would close my eyes.. and then i would open them as i felt myself tipping over.. hehe.. yeah it was our last charlie chaplin flick.. those movies weren't that bad.. but i just don't think i can handle watching another charlie chaplin movie.. then snack and i just hung out with the usual people.. and then it was trigonometry class.. i've never felt tired in trig class, but today whew.. i was pooped out.. but i can't sleep during trig class, with the teacher talking about stuff.. oh by the way that uMm i was "hoping for the best" for.. i did pass.. i got a freakin' D! hah! a 63, but nobody else did greatly so she's allowing us to take another test on monday.. hehehe.. gosh.. still "hoping for the best" hehehe.. well after reviewing the contents of the test and how to do certain things of the test i have a better understanding of what's going on and stuff.. well anyways i was walking with carlos and stuff on my way home.. and mayn alli can say was that i was soo tired.. he was ever so kind enough to carry my bags for me, not just one of my bags but BOTH of my bags.. what a nice guy huh?! gosh when we were walking i just wanted to plop on the floor and sleep.. so i came home and then i went online for a bit. and then after that i left and i went to go "lie down" for awhile.. hmm.. after that i just drifted off to sleep.. i can't just lay down on my bed with my eyes closed without going to sleep.. that is impossible to do with my big, comfortable bed! so i slept for a whopping 4 and a half hour! and now i'm just here.. so i guess that ends what i gotta say.. bye.

highlight of the day:
- no more charlie chaplin! wOo hOo!

NOT so highlight of the day:
- being sooooooooo tired!

person who made me smile:
- carlos! cuz he carried my bags for me =)

to a special friend..
KARLA, i'm here for you no matter what. no matter how far by distance or by heart, i will FOREVER be here for you. at times it's hard to look on the bright side of things, especially at a time like this, but trust HIM, and know that HE is guiding you, and HE has special plans for everything. and you know sometimes GOD will give you things YOU may not be able to handle, but that's okay cuz HE won't let you deal with things HE can't handle. HE's right by your side, especially now. i love you.

you cannot unscramble eggs.
-- american proverb

holy crapola i was able to finish my trigonometry homework by 5:30 today! what kinda freak of nature has taken over my body?! hehe.. but hmm.. i'm working on having no sleep today right now.. yep.. hello my last blog was freakin' 4 in the morning, so i just stayed up and i wanted to watch the sunrise cuz i figured it should be about time.. so thiw as around 4:30ish in the morning.. i went outside my patio and i saw a bit of it coming up already.. but how come i got all cold and lazy that just ran back inside after 5 minutes and took my shower.. so i get ready.. and after my shower i open the door and all of a sudden my freakin' mom is standing there right in front of the door! it scared the freakin' crap out of me! okay my mom was is wearing her little pajama thing, and there was no light outside yet cuz i hadn't turned it on... so i open the door and *WHAM* my mom is just like chillen there and i scream.. and my mom starts laughing at me.. and i start hitting her with my fuzzy monsters inc. slippers! gracious.. that surely woke me up this morning, although i was already awake.. hehehe.. well yeah after that i go to practice.. and i run my mile again, not bad not bad.. i'm getting used to this whole idea of running my miles again.. but anyways.. so after that we start practice and stuff.. and Ooh guess who's a big buff base now ?! hehehe.. yup.. ME, that's who! yup.. and people thought i wouldn't be able to carry anyone! IN YOUR FACE!! hehe.. yep.. i'm doing pretty good (( flexing )) watch tomorrow i'm gonna be superchick.. i can fly and base now! next thing on my list BACK! hehehe.. that's so do able! i can do it all! hahaha like mother like daughter huh jackie? hehe so after the usual practice and stuff i go to my cinematography class and we watched more charlie chaplin flicks.. hmm.. that guy is a bit ego-centric.. he directs, writes, composes, and stars in almost all of his films.. hmm.. awwright.. then snack rolls along and i just chat with my buddy carlos for awhile.. talked about random things.. gosh i didn't even change after practice.. i just bummed around school still in my practice uniform.. gosh i am not trying to be cute.. but anyways. so trig comes.. *dun*dun*dun* hehe.. but yeah i went to class and there was a trig test.. gracious.. and i wasn't in summer school yesterday so i didn't get the chance to review but i mean it wasn't that hard.. so it was all good.. i did pretty alrite.. not great.. but i know i passed.. hopefully.. dude if i didn't.. sucks to be me.. you notice that when you think you do alrite in tests you do badly, and when you think you do badly you do pretty gosh darn good.. so you know what screw it.. i'm not gonan say.. "i know i passed it." i'm afraid to jinx it.. so i'm gonna say.."i'm hoping for the best." after all that i waited for carlos at the quad so we can walk home together.. our usual route.. and i happen to chat with my hottie baller junior for awhile.. hottie *drool* hahaha.. he's such a sweetie pie.. grr.. our bball team isn't doing as well as i hoped it would be doing.. =/ aww crapola.. but anyways.. so afterwards carlos and i just start walking and talking, the usual stuff.. and then i come home and i was home alone for awhile.. and i was going to go to a cheer meeting at 7.. where i should be right now.. but my mommy wasn't feeling well enough to go cuz she just came back from hospital.. and we had lanelle and eric over, the two 5 year olds.. and i wasn't about to leave her all by herself with two 5 year old kids and her not feeling well.. ehh.. i'll just catch up on the info of the meeting with my team tomorrow morning.. so i hung out with the babies and i watched harry potter with them.. omg.. can i please say I AM INLOVE!! hahaha.. didn't think the day would come that you guys would hear me say that huh?! no but okay to you people who have watched this movie.. remember that guy on the "quidditch" team.. the captain guy that was teaching harry potter how to play the game! can you say.. "hamanhamanahamana!" oh, sorry am i drooling.. excuse me.. hehehe and the accent.. gosh *sigh* hehehe yeah.. if you guys disagree with me.. hMm i dunno... all i know is.. he's hot sauce in my eyes! hahaha he was really hot in the movie.. alrite enough about the hot boy.. i think i'm going to go now.. oh yeah happy thought.. woO hOo tomorrow is the last day of the week of summer school! independance day weekend! wOO hOo.. alrite.. well that's it for this blog.. i've blogged enough for the day..

highlight of the day:
- BASING! oh yeah.. mighty mouse right here! i refuse to be "pinky" from pinky and the brain! it should be the other way around!

NOT so highlight of the day:
- the fact taht sean biggerstaff does not even know i exist! hehe i'm getting a new obsession..

person who made me smile:
- losta.. i forget..

h0ttie 0f the day:
yowza! ( currently trying to find picture of him.. i have one.. but it's way too large )
- SEAN BIGGERSTAFF!

wOo hOo.. look at this cool chick i have a comment thing now! lookie! hMm.. it's almost 4 in the morning?! what the hell am i doing up?! i dunno can't sleep.. i had to re-blog to umm.. get the "comments" thing working.. so you guys take advantage of the opportunity to comment on my blogs.. be mean be nice.. i don't really care.. bye now!

quizzes.. cuz i'm bored.. so what's the best thing to do to occupy my time? but QUIZZES!



hMm.. mike and ashley.. alrite..




Make an Ass of Yourself.
quiz by Sol

OH YEAH! this has got to be the most accurate quiz i have taken! FATASS! wOo hOo.. that's meeeeee!!!




wOo hOo! i'm a SWEET girlfriend! i rock! there's hope for me yet!! the quiz says so!

Take the Which Spider-Man Character Are You? quiz by ZyberGoat

INTERRRRREESTING.. (( rolling R action ))




Which Willy Wonka character are you?

made by

what the heck?! i think i should be the fat guy, but ehh i don't think they gave it to me cuz i'm a chick..

The Vague But Nice Quiz by blusteryvirgin

i've seen this test in so many people's website, but i never really understood the concept of the quiz cuz it looked too complicated.. hmm i'm "poetic" strange.. maybe i can be? hMm..

You're kind of shy and not that outgoing, but you're a great pal to your true friends. You're scared of trying new things, but with a little support, you'll easily overcome you're fears.

What San-X Character Are You?

i'm "scared" well i guess you never know..


What's Your Style? Find out @ She's Crafty
You're a true nature chick who loves the outdoors. Because you're always running from activity to activity, you have zero time for a full, fussy face of makeup. Instead, you want to be able to hop out of the shower, pull your hair into a ponytail, slap on some sunscreen, and go. Just make sure that your laid-back, all-things-natural attitude doesn't lead to you become lazy -even on-the-go girls need to glam themselves up sometimes!

aww.. natural beauty.. hehe hMm.. i dunno but okay.. hehe



daym dude, a food one again.. what are these quizzes tryign to tell me ?!?!

Take the "Which Flower are you?"quiz by Hazel


ofcoures i wouldn't forget my family and friends..


Which Buff Girl Are You? Find out @ She's Crafty

i don't remember if i took this quiz or not.. i have taken so many i lost track of which ones i have taken.. =/ hmm.. that sounds like i have completely no life! hehe.. oh well.. hehe



which member of the babysitter's club are you? find
out here

aww i used to love reading "babysitter's club" books all the time! aww.. maryanne was such a sweetie.. hehe.. i loved the movie too!



find out what you are here

aww.. i love her.. she's a hottie..


Just stuffed full of surprises. No one ever knows what you're going to do next. The greatest mystery to you is, naturally, "how do they get the caramel in the Caramilk bars?"

heYyyYY!!! how DO they?! hmm.. gosh life is such a mystery sometimes.. hehehe..

okay dude im' all quizzed out.. hope you guys enjoy taking these.. you guys are lucky i was bored.. so my blog isn't so quiz-lacking anymore..

believe in half of what you see, believe in NONE of what you hear, but believe in everything you are.
-- bruce lee

alrite.. well i'm here blogging and the pain has subsided.. gosh i hate it when "TOM" visits Time.Of.Month.. gracious.. =/ ugh.. so i wake up early for my practice.. hop in the shower.. get all ready then i go to practice.. and then i start on my usual mile run.. so i'm running and i'm running faster than i usually am.. but i wanted to really try and push myself in my running.. so i'm running and then half of my fourth lap i start getting REALLY bad pains in my tummy.. and i thought it was just like you know runnign cramps and stuff.. so i thought nothing.. so on the last curve of my mile i start sprinting it.. but i noticed that my stomach was just hurting way too much.. and it wasn't like a muscle pain.. so i was running and then i helf on to the railing and i just started breathing heavily.. and then things got REALLY dizzy around me.. =/ dude, and i was blacking out, but thankfully i was aware of what was going on and i kinda snapped myself out of it.. but i was still very dizzy.. but i figured i would just walk over to the water fountain and get a drink of water to kind of pick me up.. as i'm walking there i couldn't even get a drink of water cuz i was just so distraught.. and my stomach was just not getting any better.. i didnt' really want my coach to notice me.. so i just kinda crouched down.. behind something.. and so i try getting up cuz we were running the bleachers.. but i couldn't even stand up straight.. so obviously my coach noticed something was up.. =/ i go inside the gym and i just fall to the floor.. and the pain was so extreme that i started bawling cuz it just hurt sooo bad! i don't know what it was.. but it was just such an extreme pain.. and so victoria dropped me off home and from there i was just lying down and sleeping and i woke up at like 1:30ish cuz i got a call from the best buddies coordinator person talking to me about the whole best buddies trip to texas thing.. WOWIE i'm going to texas! see, the pain goes off and on.. it's like teasing me.. cuz i was fine when i was writing this blog.. and now it's like coming back.. =/ gracious.. WHAT THE FREAK IS WRONG WITH ME?! hehe.. oh something really cool happened today.. so i was sleepng and then i get a call from none other than my buddy carlos he called to see how i was doing, and why i was not at summer school. ( oh yeah i forgot to mention i couldn't make it to summer school, obviously.) well anyways so he asked and i told him the whole story.. and then during our conversation he said he was going to go to foster's freeze and get some stuff, and he said he was going to drop me off something! so yay! he did! aww.. that was so nice of him.. even through all my pain i managed to crack a smile cuz of carlos! yay to him! that's it for this blog i'm gonna go lie down in my comfortable bed..

highlight of the day:
- carlos bringing me some yummy foster's freeze shake!

NOT so highlight of the day:
- read above blog.. DUH?! what do you think?

person who made me smile:
- carlos cuz, obvsiously.
- DUY! cuz he's such a sweetie pie. THANKS FOR CARING BUDDY!

this blog is dedicated to jessica she is the definition of a GOOD FRIEND.. this is what she did for me..

1. she reminds me of things that i am bound to forget ( i.e. scanning pictures.)
2. she remionds me of homework assignments i have to do
3. she reminds me to WAKE UP in the morning!

what else can a friend ask for?! gosh.. jessica feel special, shoot this whole blog dedicated to YOU and only YOU.

gosh i am so bored! mayn.. since i'm so bored.. i decided to blog.. =/ i was supposed to meet freda at 7.. but then i didn't have a ride there.. boo to that.. i could be out and about right now.. =/ gosh booo.. i'm bored outta my butthole! gosh tomorrow i gotta wake up at 4:30 am! gosh.. sucks to be me huh?! yes i know.. you know how i said i was on my rag.. well i'm not.. and it's weird cuz i should be.. that day i thought i was, didn't come.. it was just cramps.. that's why i thought i was gonna get it.. hmmm.. it's almost the end of the month.. and i still haven't gotten it this month.. and NO I DID NOT DO ANYTHING! i know what you guys are thinking! hmm.. hopefully this week will be an exciting week.. not that i had a bad week or anything.. cuz i didn't, it's just right now I'M SO EXTREMELY BORED!!!!!!!!! mayn.. i haven't been this bored in the longest time.. what is a girl to do?! SOMEONE AMUSE ME! and see boredom is a bad thing cuz it leads me to food, i already eat a ton of food, but when im' bored i tend to stuff my face so much more since i have nothing better to do... well anyways.. i need to drive.. cuz if i was driving i would be hMm *thinking* eating some place else but home! gracious. well if anyone reading this wants to hang out... holler!! hahaha.. but i guess it's gonna depend on who you are.. cuz ya know.. and ofcourse i'm probably gonna get lazy.. so i don't even know why i'm complaining since it's my own bad i'm at home and bored, since i got all lazy and tired to stay out and about.. gracious.. i could be sleeping.. or eating.. or talking.. instead i'm sitting here watching some cheezy disney flick.. little girls trying to look all "G-ed up" oh gracious.. since when did junior high kids where make up, shades, leather jackets, furry jackets, and what not?! SINCE WHEN?! dude.. when i was in junior high i was NOT like that! dude i feel like such an old fogey.. i feel like i'm from the "old times" gracious.. dude i remember back in like elementary school i would be wearing this little purple skirt, with a purple shirt, and YES purple socks, and OFCOURSE purple LEATHER shoes! oh hot stuff?! yes i think so! i think i should bring that back *sniff*sniff* my mommy brought home some yummy food.. crispy pata! omg.. dude.. AAAH i'm a freakin' bottomless pit! i just ate like 3 minutes ago.. whatever, i'm running tomorrow anyways.. so hmm i'm gonna go eat.. you guys have a good one..

okay well so today i was up all night doing pretty much nothing with my time.. i just stayed up and i was reading through my journal, and it's pretty funny/weird the events taht take place in your life before, and looking back at how you used to look at things before.. hmm.. funny stuffs well today i didn't do much of anything.. just go to 12 o'clock mass at incarnation.. there i met robert with his new sexy hair cut! wOo hOo.. hottie robert but anyways.. after church we talked to some of the incarnation youth bball players.. and we zoomed on over to jamba juice.. i treated robert out to some jamba! how nice of me huh? i am reminded of someone who has yet to treat ME out to jamba juice..*ahem* *ahem* you know who you are.. hehe.. but anyways.. after that we went to glassell park to say hello to the incarnation youth basketball people cuz they were supposed to play holy family, but they forgot to inform holy family that they have a game, so holy family didn't show up.. so they wound up playing other people.. i got bored! haha.. so robert, joyce, and i just left.. i bid them goodluck and that was that.. then i came home fell on my bed.. and i am not currently eating some yummy red ribbon halo-halo.. alrite hmm.. i'm still working on the layout for this page.. cuz a lot of stuff are still pretty ehh right now.. alrite that's it blog ya later!

ohana means family, and family means never leaving anyone behind or forgetting..
- Lilo and stitch

mayn! SHE IS TOO FREAKIN' ADORABLE! come on now..and i'm not just saying that cuz i was said to look like her! hahaha.. cuz i don't even think i do, but it's also the way she talks! OOOH too cute! hehehe.. and that green thing is her little dolly that she made herself.. and her story is why she has a big head is cuz.. "bugs came and laid eggs in her head!" AHHHHHH! mayn i wanna put her inside a little bottle and keep her next to my bed..

aww.. so precious! hehehehe.. dude i think i'm obsessing over this movie now.. this is ranked as one of my top movies.. along with monsters inc. aww.. hehe i got image happy on this blog huh?! hehehe i know..

cutie! okay i swear that's the last picture.. cuz i bet some of you people are having hell with the loading time of all these pictures! heheeh.. but yeah i enjoyed the movie.. IT WAS TOO CUTE!!! gosh.. the concept of the movie.. and the whole "family" thing is just extra cute! mayn top notch movie! so yeah.. next phase of the day.. i have a different "quote" thing for the second half of the day.. since it just really needs it..

lord, i'm sorry, i didn't mean to hurt you. Lord forgive me. i know i really did ignore you. lord believe me, believe me i love you so. it pains me lord, it pains me lord, knowing i hurt you too..
- worship song

okay so i go to HOJ, and i was late since i watched the movie and what not.. and the best thing ever it was worship night for youth! i love worship nights! it's the bestest! it was like a release of a lot i was holding in inside.. i felt like i was slipping into this rut.. but i was drawn back out today.. and the first time in a long time i cried in prayer.. i mean i cry at times.. but i mean sometimes i felt so dry and even when i felt like crying.. i wouldn't.. but today everything was just a release.. a much neeeded release.. hmm.. and then afterwards me and hovsep prayed over some people.. and it's really weird praying over people sometimes cuz it's like words and feelings and thoughts just come over you and you start saying things that you never even thought of.. and it kinda consoles you about stuff.. =) and it's weird when after praying over someone and they come up to you and say like.. "wow, you knew exactly what to say.." cuz i mean they were unexpected words, and it wasn't really me talking i guess.. hMm.. good stuff today..

highlight of the day:
- HOJ!
- lilo and stitch!

NOT so highlight of the day:
- ehh.. gosh are people NOT over things yet?!
- dude, sometimes in life.. and no words can express!!! =/

person who made me smile:
- LILO! hehehe..