you're pointing one finger to one thing, trying to put the blame on someone, when you don't realize, you're pointing 4 fingers right at yourself.
-- LSS talk

i'm gonna have a short summary of the day, and the next stuff will be all VENTiNG! my day started off being very frustrated.. i was trying to decide whether or not i should go to the field trip, but i decided i had my responsiblities, and i didn't wanna let anybody down.. so i went.. the freakin' field trip form said 8:00, so i go to the park, and NOBODY WAS THERE! drove around wasting gas, trying to figure something out.. i already missed my freakin' 1st period.. so i was like EFF it mayn.. and then when i go back to school in time for 2nd period, and i see everyone walking up to the front.. so i was like oh alrite cool. and so we drive to fremont park. it was really bad cuz there were no set activities.. so it was like hanging out, and you can only hang out for so long before it got BORiNG! so we left for lunch, cuz we had a pep rally to go to. but first we take a trip to jamba juice. i'm freakin' late, and i didn't get to do the performance with them. DUMB HUH? yeah very. so afterwards me sinqie, rouhi, yelena, and corey all go to eat some in-n-out.. and that was done we go back for 6th period.. and then after me and yelena just hang out at my house until we had to leave for the game.. we get ready, and we get some mcDonalds cuz sinqie wanted some.. the pig.. oh yeah some old lady cussed me out, but that's another story.. oh well... so we go to the game, we watch it, we get excited, we are disappointed. yeah we lost. darn. and then DRAMA... so here goes the other paragraph

i'm not gonna get into detail about the exact events, cuz for one thing i was not there, and i am not one to say what happened even if i did know what happened. all i gotta say is, we gotta see and try and understand what others are feeling through this. we need to stop pointing fingers, becuase no one will really figure out, who did what.. becuase everyone has a different story. we just gotta accept the role we played in it, because we did play a role. and from accepting we can move on to reforming it into something better. this situation isn't easy on anyone, and it gets even wrose when people start pointing the blame on one another... they instigated it, but it didn't mean we had to respond, but we did. therefor we played a significant role in it. it's hard to put the blame on one specific person, becuase we can't, and also those people are sitting there probably putting the blame on us. it's better to accept that we both did wrong, and move on from it. as for the coach.. we all know that at times he sucks, and at times he doesn't seem like he knows what he's doing, or he knows how we're feeling.. but it's his first year. how many of us can say we did something for the first time, and were satisfied with it? how many times can you really say that. yes the guy was a moron, yes he's already been given so many chances, and yes he's made some real stupid decisions. i'm not condoning his actions.. i'm just simply trying to understand his perspective, as i am with the other team's perspectives. i honestly don't know what to do anymore. there's too much drama in this thing right now, and i don't need it. i have so much more on my plate.. and you know this is the first time i've ever considered quitting it just hurts so much to see everything happening, and i mean i have a lot on my plate.. i need to get rid of something, and this seems the most unnecessary to deal with... but you know what.. i'm not going to. i'm not leaving this team without having left my mark, and i haven't left my mark in it yet. i'm here to stay, and i've put up with all the drama for almost 2 years... who's to say i can't do it again?

As painful as this thing has been
I just can't be with no one else
-- Lauryn Hill - "Ex-Factor"

well wehat a day what a day! so i wake up do the usual stuff.. and yay! i haven't been late! so darn proud of myself. =D well yeah so i went to 1st period, then 2nd period.. wrote a poem.. i had to write a poem about losing friends.. hMm i can sure write about that subject... so yeah hmm it should be interesting.. well yeah end then it was snack time.. and then iT happened.. i was catching nicole up on the events that happened yesterday since she wasn't able to witness the wonderful event. yeah so coincidentally enough after telling her there was a fight near the SAC.. i'm thinking in my head, "please oh please, don't let it be who i think it is." so i kind of panic, i walk/run over to jackie and melissa ask if it is who i'm afraid it could be.. talked to the sister, and YES iT WAS! gRr.. how the heck did it get this far?! that's not cool! so i was really disappointed and worried.. so i go to my history class, and ofcourse everyone is talking about the fight that occurred.. gosh people be talkin' like they know stuff, when really THEY DON'T EVEN KNOW 0000823498734 of it. but yeah i didn't go to my 4rth period today, instead i went with sinqie and yelena to get some lunch, and i dropped off nashie who was feeling a bit sick. aww.. hopefully you feel better nash. but yeah so we came back for 5th period and stuff, and we did our notebook check.. dang! my french teacher is crazy stuff! but i think i got an A on my portfolio so it's all good, and i have like 80 extra credit points for that class.. so it's all good.. but i have to ace that final! i'm not walking away from that class with less than an A! well after that it was cheer practice.. and boy was there a lot of things in need of discussion!

so cheer practice started, and BUb that is what i call my coach, told cheer and song not to change into our practice clothes.. HELLO Hi! i mean we have to perform tomorrow, and we need all the practice we can get, and here you are telling us we can't freakin' practice! what the freak?! and so we sit there and we talk about the situation, and what i didn't understand was that, WHY DO THE TEAMS GET PUNiSHED FOR SOMETHiNG THAT iNDiViDUALS DiD?! this isn't even about song and cheer anymore.. this is about two people... just TWO people! i know it's a team thing, but the team did not tell these two people to fight each other... we tried our best to prevent what we could prevent.. i mean when things happened, cheer sat there and ignored any type of abuse that we were being put through.. it's like we've been pushed into a corner.. we do SOMETHiNG we get punished, and when we do NOTHiNG we get punished. WHAT iS THAT ABOUT?! so yeah there was a little issue about performing tomorrow at the pep rally, and at the game.. but that issue was resolved.. and i'm glad that song and cheer got to talk today. =D cuz it relieved a lot of the tension that was being felt. so good stuff. alrite well i'm gonna get going.. oh and i just wanna add.. to my LESBO! i'm REAL proud of you! you did your thang, and no matter what anybody else says.. YOU'RE THE BiGGEST WiNNER iN MY EYES! it takes a lot of guts to walk away from a situation like that, so thank you for having the courage, and being so brave! you handled that situation like a true lady. i love you meng!

BEST BUDDiES NiGHT @ California Pizza Kitchen! BE THERE! you know why you should be there, cuz i will be there! haha JK! naw we just come and support a really good organization. =D ooh NCA cheer nationals on TV right now gonna go watch that now! LATERS GUYS!

Bottom line is, even if you see them coming, you're not ready for the big moments. No one asks for their life to change, not really. But it does. So, what are we, helpless? Puppets? Nah. The big moments are gonna come, you can't help that. It's what you do afterwards that counts. That's when you find out who you are.
-- Buffy the Vampire Slayer

i'm not sure if the qutoe above has been posted up before, but i felt like putting it up again for some reason.. well well, what a day. so i went to school the usual goings ons, and then cheer practice.. oh my cheer practice.. you can cut the tension with a knife! omgracious.. seriously..grr.. i'm not gonna get into the details of what happened but gosh dang seriously this crap is getting so tiresome. and people just need to shut up, i'm not even saying it was just one team, cuz you know what it takes two to tango. dude, the stuff that's going on around the team right now is not cool.. i don't need to be dealing with drama.. i mean before cheer was the place that drove me away from the dramatic scene, and now it just seems like there's drama there too. i'm not even talking about drama of pressure from competition or performing but literally it's STUPiD DRAMA! dumb ish dude! there's so much hostility going on right now, it's not cute! first that "patrick" character.. the note in m locker, and now this cheer stuff.. ehh dumb! i'm gona go now.. i got finals to study for. atleast that's not very hostile..

* A H E M *

now "patrick" didn't i tell you next time you tag something on my tagboard write something a bit more intelligent. please write something that requires more thought.. i mean if you're gonna try and pick a fight with someone or try and insult someone you're not doing a very good job of it by saying it online.. yeah that really shows how tough you are. but hey, you wanna do it that way.. it's all good.. and also.. iF YOU DiDN'T LiKE ME OR HENRi , WHY THE HECK ARE YOU ViSiTiNG MY SiTE?! i find that quite peculiar... whatever is bugging you about me and henri, GET OVER iT! cuz honestly, i don't think it's worth you sitting there and saying anything about it, cuz like i said before, YOU DON'T AFFECT US. and i'm still praying for you.

well in other news.. we cheered for our bball today.. we were playing south pasadena highschool.. and WE WON!! now how many times do you guys get to see me write that on here? saying that HOOVER actually won in something. hey, maybe i have a different praise report for this weekend at HOJ huh? ;D. but yeah we won by a lot.. i don't remember the exact score but all i know is.. WE KiLLED THEM! and for my spirit buddy's present, i gave him an in-n-out gift certificate.. yeah good stuff. no creativity this time around.. just something very straightforward.. and i bought a burger for myself.. and i ate it during half time, and then the buzzer rang, and i had to stuff the burger in my mouth really fast, and i didn't even get to finish the rest of my fries.. and so, being the nice person that i am, i gave my fries to rohin! hope you enjoyed them rohin. well after the game ended we greeted the bball players, and congratulated them.. and i gave junior his gift certificate, along with a little shove and saying, "i bettter get something from you!" haha JK! but in a way i'm not.. shoot their asses better get us something, cuz we're shelling out bucks for their asses every week! *ahem* i think we need something in return. yes i really think we do. and then after that i just came home.. i think i developed a phobia for the left hand turn from pacific onto dryden.. cuz i didn't go on that turn today.. =/ and i'm not really looking forward to going on that turn. sometimes when people drive and make left hand turns, i flinch, cuz i get kinda scared. =/ that's kinda bad huh? yeah well, i guess i'm a bit traumatized.. but i'll get over it. alrite this is it for me. off to play some ANiMAL CROSSiNG!

DUDE, where's my car?

ahh so i'm sitting here, when i'm supposed to be at school.. why exactly.. cuz the cousin took the car, and i had no idea he did.. kinda needed it. i mean sure i can walk to school.. that's what all you guys are thinking, but today i needed to do something with the car.. =/ DAMMiT! not cool.. gRr.. seriously annoyance.. but i'm not really that annoyed.. dude, i could have slept longer! haha JK! but seriously ahh.. i wanna get to school.. i NEED MY CAR! ehh.. but anyways.. hMm well yesterday was a good break day.. i drove my sissy's car to in-n-out.. daym that audi is sooo nice! i'm jealous. but yeah let's see what did i do yesterday.. i woke up.. went to get some in-n-out.. pigged out with the mom.. sat in my room and played gamecube all day.. i'm seriously obsessed with playing animal crossing on my gamecube.. i just can't stop! =/ i have a problem.. i wonder if they have some AA thing for this kinda stuff... but yeah so i played that forever in a day, i didn't fall asleep till like 3:30am, you know why?! cuz i was playing that freakin' game! gosh.. someone help me! haha, but i guess i don't really wanna be helped huh? hehe.. but yeah hMm.. we have a bball game today.. so i'm all up in my cheer gear today.. and i have to get my buddy JUNiOR! something.. i'm gonna be picking him up some in-n-out.. yeah i figure.. he's a big eater might as well get that for him.. i'm too lazy to try and be creative with the stupid thing.. GAYness! i really wanna get out of here already.. =/ seriously.. =/ well yeah what else ooh i called someone back yesterday! yeah you know who you are! hopefully you know you're the one i'm talking about. but someone was sleeping, and i did not just call ONCE, but i called TWiCE! yep.. shoot. YOU BETTER FEEL SPECiAL DAWG! well hopefully you had a good day today. =D hMm.. what else what else.. jumping from subject to subject at the moment.. argh! i can't stand typing with my keyboard, it's doing some funky ish.. and yeah.. ooh now it's working.. sorry is this a random entry or what?! gracious.. hmm i notice that looking at past blog entries is a very exhilrating experience.. and you start to remember things.. the good stuff, and the bad stuff.. and a surge of emotions suddenly run through you.. bringing you back to that time of your life.. is that just me? dude NiCK jr. is the ish! but PLAYHOUSE disney isn't so bad either.. okay seriously now i'm just rambling.. am i boring you guys? should i stop now? yeah i think i will.. i'm gonna go play some more animal crossing.. =/ COUSiN COME HOME!

she slipped on a kiss, and stumbled on to love.
-- someone

wow yesterday janice's debut was some FUUN STUFF! yes! it was a whole lot of fun! i'm so happy my mommy decided not to go to lake tahoe.. =D gosh daym there were a whole lot of people! it was so stuffy in that place.. but yeah wowie! i saw a lot of new faces i have not seen in a very long time! everyone and their mom's were there! haha yeah saw an ex-boyfriend of mine! hahaha good stuff mayn! hahaha xerxes! it was nice seeing you again, and it was nce dancing with you again.. when was the last time.. HOOVER STREET SCNENE! haha oh mee oh my... oh and i might say the cotillion looked mighty sexy up there! yesire bob! my awesum2sum did a fantabulus of dancing up there! yess sexified girl in the red dress.. girl you didn't look too black up in that dress.. hehe ooh and i even got to dance with mr. rsxguy! good stuff! he's a good dancer! hahaha.. and aww JR was real nice too.. =D good stuff.. met new people and stuff.. yeah fun times! =D a when i had to go up there to say something to janice i was like uhhh.. hehe.. nobody really heard what i said.. but yeah as long as she heard it it's all good. =D aww but it was a really good dancing night! =D good stuff! i had a really good time, and i got into a little spat with the BF afterwars... gRr. must you always pick fights with me? haha JK. these things only make us stronger right? RiGHT! aww but my janice/cameron D of charlie's angels looked so pretty up there! she was simply gorgeous! that is the perfect word to describe her! aww i love her so much. she's 18 now! wowzers.. who's next? juicy, awesum2um, then ME! ahhh! what a concept.. i'm not ready to turn 18! not this year!

"Swing, Swing"
by: All American Rejects

Days swiftly come and go.
I'm dreaming of her
She's seeing other guys
Emotions they stir
The sun is gone.
The nights are long
And I am left while the tears fall.

Did you think that I would cry,
on the phone?
Do you know what it feels like,
being alone?
I'll find someone new

Swing, Swing, Swing from the tangles of
My heart is crushed by a former love
Can you help me find a way
To carry on again.

Wish cast into the sky
I'm moving on
Sweet beginnings do arise
She knows I was wrong
The notes are old,
They bend, they fold
and so do I to a new love.

Bury me
(you thought your problems were gone)
Carry me
(away. away, away...)

HAHAHA! that picture down there is good stuff! i found it entertaining. is it entertaining you?

i'm gonna be going to janice's debut tonight, i don't know what to wear really.. all i have is black skirt. yeah that's all i got so far. i'm lagging with this thing again, and this event is going to take place in about an hour and a half.. and yeah what am i doing blogging? hMm.. i dont' even know what to say for her 18 candles thing.. hmm.. i'm just gonna wing it, speak from the heart type stuff.. wow people are gonna look like such hotties over there mayn! wowzers! HOLLAH! hehe..

i just came from my cousin's baptism.. aww she was so cute! she has such chubby cheeks.. it's so cute! she's so adorable! aww.. i wanted to just pop her right then and there.. we were at st. genz. first time i've ever been to that church.. and then after the baptism we went to my aunt's house and ate some YUMMAY food! dang dude, i ate so much mayn! gosh i'm such a pig! =D all that lobster! wowzers! and i accidentally ate the "extra" lobster when i got there.. i had no idea that it was the "extra" lobster, and i just kept eating and eating.. oopsy. gosh don't let me sit around food and not expect me to eat it! what kind of crazy idea is that! alrite well i'm gonna go now.. i seriously have to get read for janice's debut and stuff.. cuz yeah this is just not cute anymore.. so LATERS! and hope you guys have a good day.

i was bored...

B A S I C Q U E S T I O N S
[my name is]: KATRiNA chicote
[in the morning i am]: quite tired and irritated.
[all i need is]: GOD . family . &friends
[love is]: worth all the trouble to get
[if i could see one person right now]: my cousin isabelle from the philippines.
[im afraid of]: clowns `nd heights
[i dream about]: a lot of different things, lately i`ve had those cool flying dreams.

H A V E Y O U E V E R . . .
[pictured your crush naked?]: HAHA.. gosh no!
[actually seen ur crush naked]: GROSS`ie
[been in love]: that is my current situation. =D
[cried when someone died]: yeah... =(
[drank alcohol]: i have, but i'm not a big fan of it. it doesn`t really satisfy my taste buds.
[lied]: who hasn`t?! and if you say you haven`t then you`re lying!

T H I S O R T H A T . . .
[coke or pepsi]: coke
[flowers or candy]: candy
[scruff or clean shaven]: clean shaven
[tall or short]: tall, sometimes.. it depends

W I T H T H E O P P O S I T E S E X . . .
[what do u notice first?]: smile `nd eyes.
[last person u slow danced with]: my riso. =D
[worst thing to say]: there's someone else.

W H O . . .
[makes u laugh the most?]: mattchoo & my awesum2sum..
[makes you smile]: my RiSO! =D `nd other people too! you guys should know who you are. i smile when i`m around you.
[gives u a funny feeling when u see them]: ahh my RiSO again!
[has a crush on u?]: NOone ever has a crush on me!
[easier to talk to: boys or girls?]: depends.. at some things girls, and at others boys.

D O Y O U E V E R . . .
[sit on the internet all day waiting for someone special to I.M. u?]: no.. i don`t have the word pathetic written on my forehead do i?
[save aol/aim conversations]: i have. when it`s with someone special, `nd something special was said.
[cried because of someone saying something to u]: yeah! words are powerful.

H A V E Y O U E V E R . . .
[fallen for ur best friend]: HAHAHAHA! i just laugh at that one. HAHAHAHA! =D
[been rejected]: uMm.. at one point or another.
[rejected someone]: nicely.
[used someone]: nope. that would suck.
[been cheated on]: i hope not. unless i don't know about it.
[done something u regret]: ofcourse. but things happen for a reason, so i can`t argue with that.

D O Y O U . . .
[color ur hair]: nope, but i might soon.
[ever get off the damn computer]: yeah ofcourse. there are other people in the house that use it too.
[habla espanol]: je parle francais. je ne parle pas espanol.

H A V E Y O U / / D O Y O U / / A R E Y O U
[smoke]: don't touch that stuff.
[obsessive]: at times, `nd it depends on what.
[could u live without the computer?]: NOPE! that`s crazy talk!
[how many peeps are on ur buddylist?]: 199!
[what's your favorite food?]: everything `nd anything that`s edible! `cept for fear factor stuff..
[whats ur favorite fruit?]: cherries `nd watermelons `nd mango
[drink alcohol?]: not really.
[like watching sunrises or sunset]: sunset.
[what hurts the most? physical pain or emotional pain?]: emotional. they always seem to last longer, `nd have a large effect on you.
[trust others way too easily?]: no. trust became an issue for me.

F I N A L Q U E S T I O N S . . .
[i want]: to be satisfied with the person that i am.
[i wish]: i got a new car.
[i love]: GOD! `nd family, friends, and my RiSO.
[i miss]: someone.
[i fear]: losing people.
[i hear]: my heart beat in my head.
[i wonder]: if i should cut my hair, and dye it.
[how do u know its love?]: you feel it, but you can`t seem to put it into words.
[i am]: katrina. nothing more, nothing less.