i'm unsettle letting go of your,
and sleeping hte night in silence

-- The Starting Line; "decisions, decisions"

yOOoOooo!!!! well i'm lagging on my whole fixing up for cathedral's winterformal.. i'm sitting here in front of the computer just thinking i'm cute.. i tell myself i'll get ready in 15 minutes.. but ehh how come i'm gonna get ready at like 6:45 and henri's gonna call downstairs and my ass is not gonna be ready.. gosh haven't i learned?! apparently not.. the whole being prepared for these events still hasn't really sunk in yet.. maybe it will when i'm about umm 1829719237 years old. yeah i think so.. well a lot of stuff have been happening lately.. i'm still freakin' grounded.. it really is starting to be a pain in the boo-ooh-tee.. seriously! ehh whatevers.. i've lived without driving for 16 years.. i can live without driving for another week or so.. =/ although i'm not happy with it.. well anyways.. things are pretty cool for me.. a lot of things have been let go, and i've said the necessary things i needed to say.. and yeah i feel good that it's been said, but wow i didn't realize that it would sting like that when i did say it. =/ hMm.. but yeah all in all.. it was good. wasn't it ?? =) no matter what YOU will ALWAYS make me smile like no one else can. keep in mind what i said to you, and keep in mind what you will always mean to me. and that's a lot! okay yeah to you oblivious people in this world, you don't know what i'm talking about huh? yeah that's pretty much everyone in this blog, except for one person that's not so oblivious about it. hahaha that one person that i am talking about.. but no seroiusly i should take a shower! SERiOUSLY! any minute now i swear.. ehh give me half an hour.. but yeah anyways today i went to virgil's to do some volunteering for the animal shelter! i went with sinqie and yell-ena it was fun times.. mayn some people can be rude! but aww.. it got me all in the christmasy spirit! aww and i got to be with a doggie! her name was sandy she's a rotweiler mix! she's so pretty and so playful! she like hopped on me and drooled all over MY cathedral sweater! hehe thanks to my henrison for getting me the sweater! he's so neat-O! hehe.. but yeah anyways.. after that me sinqie and yelena went to the market place for a little bit to say a hi and hello to mr. duy man! i haven't seen him since me and him were first introduced online! hahaha this was the first time!! wowie, it was nice seeing you my froggie turning into my prince! hehe.. yeah sorry couldn't stay long, my ass is pretty much on lockdown! hehehe.. but yeah after that me, sinqie, and yell-ena took pictures with santa claus at the market place! you know why at the marketplace?! CUZ iT WAS FREE! and there was like no line.. we went righ tin and took some pictures! too bad my hair was like all up in my face! but yeah we looked cool! and then i came home to find i had my family from SD over and stuff cuz they're gonna check out our house in valencia.. and then i just picked up the boutinier from the flowershop in the corner.. ahh okay now i'm gonna go.. ooh formal! fun times! ooh awesum2sum! i'll be thinking of you while i'm dancing! i hope you're thinking of me too! hahaha =D harlem shake! hahaha laters guys and GOD bless, and ooh since i'm in a jolly spirit! MERRY CHRiSTMAS!

all i need in this life of sin is me and my boyfriend.
-- beyonce

THAT'S CRAP! haha sorry, but my quote above is crap.. i mean what about food?! water?! and all those things?! do you honestly think that ALL you need in life is your boyfriend?! a boyfriend that will inevitably leave you, although his love is "unconditional" that is UNTiL your love change daym that musiq soulchild and his nonsense don't change of a song! haha sorry about expressing my deep disbelief in the male species.. i'm sure there are a few exceptions.. but as for that quote.. gosh ARE YOU KiDDiNG ME?! but no really go ahead and try to live your life with JUST your boyfriend.. while a single girl sits and eats her food, breathes the air, and drinks her water... and LiVES! omgracious! hahah but on to more pressing matters..

hMm today was a dandy of a day.. i WALKED TO SCHOOL! not freakin' cool at all! ugh.. and i was like almost late.. but thank goodness i wasn't.. i'm on a roll with this! mayn and i was so lazy to get up this morning that i didn't even shower anymore! shoot SCREW THAT! who the heck do i need to smell good for at school? haha jk! but yeah i was just lazy and i looked all bummish styles going to school.. and i went to my classes.. the lab practical wasn't that bad.. and now that i know how that thing works.. i'll be WAYYY more prepared for the following one.. aww me and my nashie are gonna go on a date on valentine's day.. you guys wanna know where?! to a freakin' morgue! haha.. yeah we're gonna go see cadavers for valentine's day! how sweet huh?! my kind of valentine's day huh? hehe yeah it should be interesting.. haha and to you people with some knowledge nash is curious.. what do you call it when people have a thing for having sex with dead people? haha if you know what it is.. be sure and tell him he's dying to know! ooh dying to know.. that's a pun! haha sorry but yeah today during practice we had a discussion afterschool and we discussed competition squad.. yeah it's been discussed we don't have one. we decided to just work up to next year.. yeah MY SENiOR YEAR! gosh how weird.. i'm a freakin' senior next year! what a freakin' concept! but yeah so we decided we would just have a really good bball season, and there's no point on trying for competition because it would just land us nowhere.. which in a way is kinda frustrating.. cuz we had such a good start from camp! aww.. camp.. FUN TiMES! but anyways.. so practice we ran, situps, pushups.. the usual stuff.. conditioning time! and then afterwards my henrison and came and picked me up from practice.. aww how nice huh? hehe.. one of the exceptional boys in this world.. haha.. but yeah so he picks me up.. aww the mistletoe hahaha what a chuntie this boy is! haha jk "honey" hahahaha.. yeah right, YOU SWEAR! thats gross! but yeah so we dropp off yell-ena gosh i told you we could drop you off! haha.. and then we went off on our merry way home.. me, joyce, and henrison in the car.. and henri hung out at my house for awhile.. and then i took a nap.. and now i'm about to do my homework.. mayn now the excitement begins on my day huh?! haha okay guys.. hopefully you were well entertained with this reading...probably not though huh? hehe byee!!

why are you looking at me like that?
stop looking at me like that.
you're giving me the heeby-jeebies
-- topanga lawrence

aww.. topango&corey are the cutest don't you guys think? well i just got back from the BEST BUDDiES fundraiser.. it was a lot of fun! and a lot of good eating! it was nice seeing so many people come and support the organization! =D cooL! and now i'm just lagging to the time i have to go and study for my lab practical tomorrow in physiology class.. i have to put on the thinking cap for this one.. and i have to PRE-study for my physiology test.. taking school stuff seriousy! mayn i'm ground dead from the car! =/ grr.. not cool not being able to drive once you get used to it.. not cool at all.. =/ oh well it was worth getting ground dead for though! =D i was ground dead cuz of saturday.. but yeah anyways.. hMm i'm going to my henrison's winter formal this weekend.. back to the whole formal katrina gig... hmm a thing that i am personally not very fond of.. i'm wearing the same black dress i wore to homecoming.. atleast i have that settled.. well let me see what's on my mind.. a lot of things actually.. but i'm not feelin like writing them on here for the whole nation and their mom to see.. so SCREW THAT! i think i'll just write them in my private journal.. yes i do keep one. it's so fun looking back at your journals and what not! it's an exhilirating experience! hahaha sorry now i'm rambling.. hmm well let's see how was the day for me today?? went to class.. was a bit late.. but atleast they didn't do the tardy sweet on me! so wOo hOo! then classes some more.. the usual stuff.. ooh guys watch out for me in the GLENDALE NEWS PRESS you might just see my picture in it! cuz for french we're doing this african refugee benefit concert and some dudes from the news press came into our class and started taking pictures of us working on this big picture.. hMm i hope they got my good side! hahaha yeah right jk! WHAT GOOD SiDE?! haha but yeah anyways.. today cheer practice as semi-productive.. wll for me anyway.. i went up to the track and started running.. mayn i'm getting out of shape.. but it feels good to do some stuff for once and run.. and situps and stretch.. that's a lot of fun! eew, speaking of stretching there's this one dude in my history class, who's a nice guy but just a gross one, and he was all "we were watching you guys practice [we meaning, him, some dude, and the security gaurd at our school], and you guys are pretty good," me,"aww thanks! ((smiles))" him, "we especially like it when you guys are stretching." me, (( gross face )) hehe.. but other than that he's a real nice guy! =D.. everytime i come in he'salways like.. "aww yay, you're here!" what a janna huh? hehe yeah i think so.. alrite i'm done procrastinating on my studying so i'm gonna go do that now.. laters guys! and have a good one!!

i added more HOMECOMiNG pics..i posted up our formal pics! so enjoy guys! i'll blog later maybe.. yeah umm sure.. hehe

You’re nothing at all
I know there’s a million reasons why I shouldn't call
With nothing to say
Could easily make this conversation last all day
-- Simple Plan - "When i'm with you"

alritee.. well what adventures this past weekend has been.. i have a lot on my mind, but i don't know if this is just a post-rag thing or what.. but i don't know.. i think i'm feeling very emotionl at the moment.. and the whole thinking moment.. dammit freda, it was tha daym romeo&juliet song that you kept plaing in my car!! haha well let's see what should i discuss on this blog.. well let me talk about my past days huh? yeah that's it.. that's what i'll d..

FRiDAY
well wOo hOo the last day of school.. and i went to ALL of my clases. haha, haven't done that in awhile. heh.. but yeah i think now that i drive to school it gets me to school earlier.. not that i had to walk to school thouh cuz my dad would take me to school and what not.. but yeah.. hmm well yeah i went to class. and then i went to in n out with sinqie&yelena yeah we stayed there for forever in a day cuz we were waiting for my henrison's ass to get there! gosh what a lagger galore this boy! gracious.. gosh you're not supposed to keep girlfriends waiting! haha.. this guy.. hehe but yeah anyway.. so i was there for awhile.. then i droppd of sinqie&yelena.. and then i was home.. justin called cuz i was supposed to go to his show [ sorry justin ] my mommy had me run some errands.. and then it didn't take as long as i expected so i could have gone to the concert! but yeah.. and then charles called and we rolled out along with ceej.. we watched harry potter 2! aww.. it was so cute! i liked it! ceej and charles however did not like it very much... sorry bout that.. and then i dropped them off.. and went on my merry way home..hahaha fun times with these two boys though! aww.. um charles and his "rava" you mean rav 4! hahaha oh gracious.. and ceej and his. "set ups" oh yea "sit ups?" haaha oh gracious! hee-lar-eeh-uss! and then the night ended.. and i went off to bed..

SATURDAYokay so today there was a open house at my house so i had to roll out of my house pretty early.. i went to my dentist at like 10:30! and she wasn't even freakin' there! gosh stupid oopid dentist! made me wake up at like 10am on a saturday! i'm supposed to be sleeping till like 3! HELLO?! so i came home.. showered, and then i get a call from my awesum2sum so i pick her up at Hoover after her SATs and then we roll over to nicole's bday shindig. oh yeah.. HAPPY BiRTHDAY NiCOLE! well yeah we at bucca di peppo at Old Town.. we had a bit of trouble finding the parking facility.. and then we finally found it..and we parked.. and we met up with everyone... we saw nash, scott [aww,haven't seen you in awhile!], katrina caberte, adrian, nicolas, and ofcourse edison! haha. yah aww fun times there! edison stop elbowing me darn it!.. omgosh.. just cuz i knocked over the pizza with my ass doesn't mean you guys still can't eat it! haha after that me and freda went off.. and we didn't expect people to not be around anymore.. but the next thing you know they all left.. me and freda decided to go and follow to nicole's house, cuz i had to drop off her present, and say hello.. thanks.. and goodbye! we watched AMERiCAN HiSTORY X for awhile.. aw that's such an intense movie.. and then we left cuz me and my awesum2sum had to go pick up charles and vanessa and then we all went to the mall to meet up nikko&danielle.. and so we met them up.. saw nikki in action at GAP.. and then we went to jewel city for a little bowling action.. i got a strike the first time i went! but yeah that was that.. aww. CHARLES is gonna go get me some flowers and bring them to me!! how nice of you!! hahaha shut up, even though i'm the one that lost to you, you know your ass is the one gonna get me the flowers!! i like gerber daises okay! and i want them fixed up nicely! haha.. yeah and after bowling we went to Old Town for some eating action! aww.. fun times! gosh the person straight told us to be quiet, cuz people were complaining! what the heck dude! shoot! TRiPPiN'! oh yeah did i tell you we waited for max's "sexy" ass to come to jewel city cuz he really thought he was some sexy stuff! gracious! but yeah we ate.. had fun.. laughed.. spilled drinks.. and then we dropped of danielle and nikko and their son gerald.. haha and then we went to santa monica beach.. =D aww.. fun times! that was sooo very pretty! the blanket laid out on the sand.. looking up at the stars and listening to the waves.. aww.. gosh pretty! =D that was perfect.. and ooh i saw not 1 but TWO shooting stars! aww mayn! =D that was so pretty.. and it was nice seeing them with a group of friends! =D and just hanging out with good friends.. you swear we'd all be in serious mode with the ambiance around us and everything but NOOO!! we still had to make jokes and not be serious! hahaha.. oh mayn.. here are some serious convos!

ME: you know stars aren't as pretty as we make them seem to be.. they're just big balls of gas, so technically they're like big balls of fart.
[ CHARLES: shut up katrina, don't ruin the moment! ]
FREDA: i have a filipino joke.. [ tells joke ] and she laughs hysterically at her own joke.. while everyone is no longer laughig.
VANESSA: i need to fart. [ freda farts. ]
MAX: mayn i wish [ insert name here ] was here! [[ VANESSA: drop her dawg! ]]
CHRiS: i need to pee. [ runs towards near by trash can and pees! ] HAHAHA!
CHARLES: [ makes a dry joke, this is then followed by SiLENCE!, then everyone laughs! ] HAHAHA! fun times!

those were our "serious" convos!

aww it was so funn! too bad got in trouble coming home! hahaha yeah i know i shouldn't have come home so late.. like 4am late.. but mayn i couldn't leave that place.. and i didn't wanna leave that place.. it was soo pretty! =D but yeah it was so much fun! aww.. and we were having a very difficut time trying to find a comfy spot for everyone to lie down in! hahaha.. everyone ket moving! and our genius method of.."let's form a pillow from the sand!" (( starts gathering sand! )) and the cops coming by.. with the bright ass lights! they didn't do anything though.. cuz it's not like any of us were like having sex or drinking.. so we were free to stay there! hehe yeah but wowie.. i was falling asleep on the way home.. but after we dropped off freda we went to krispy kreme! DAYM chris.. you have your license?!?! WHY, HOW?!?! hahaha.. this guy! shoot.. doesn't even know how to drive! umm in America, we don't like driving in the middle of road! hahaha.. PEEL OUT! hahha.. oh gracious... yeah max you only get to eat half a donut cuz you only had a dollar! CHEAP ASS! haha.. alrite i think i'm done blogging.. have to shower and get ready for church! so laters guys!!! had fun reading about my weekend ??