i'm so over the nonSense!
i'm happy with the way my life is going right now, and if it involves not having you around. then SO BE iT!
if you didn't wanna talk to me, you could have just said so. it's not that hard to say, "katrina, i would not like to speak to you for awhile." and my reply would have been, "okay, i completely understand." but you didn't do that.. you decided to handle things the WUSSY ASS WAY! so good job! i applaud your efforts to get me out of your life, when in reality you didn't even need to try. all you needed to do was say so.. and i could've been out..

-- and if you think i'm talking about YOU i'm not..

I don't know if I'm getting better or just used to the pain.
-- unknown

HAPPY BiRTHDAY CHARLES!

wow well, today was a fun-filled day.. so my day began with the BF calling me early in the morning for my wake up call, and also for him to call me to remind me to watch some Sesame Street, cuz i miss that show... so yeah what a nice BF i have huh? hehe well anyways after that ofcourse, which was 7:30 in the am.. i drifted back to sleep.. and then i woke up.. got ready and ofcourse it was time for the BEACH! yess.. so i pick up sinqie and yelena and we go to my house.. we have some trouble with certain people's bathing suits! gosh *ahem* "it's too lose." "it's too tight." you just can't satisfy some people.. haha =D jk mayn! so after that we ask robert if he wants to come with us and he does.. so we talk to him for a bit.. and we were in a rush to get going cuz me, sinqie, and yelena had to be back before a certain time.. cuz we had to cheer for the CV game.. so after waiting for nestor&angie we get going.. drive to santa monica beach.. so it's me, sinqie, and yelena in my car, robert & joyce in robert's car, and nestory&angie in nestor's car.. yeah i know pretty useless to be bringing 3 cars when there is obviously a lot of room.. yeah we're geniuses sometimes.. go figure.. and then after driving for qutie awhile.. and people leaving me behind.. we're the first ones to find the beach! HAH! in your face! that's what you guys get for leaving me, and not following me as planned! haha JK! so we're at the beach..

so finally we're at the beach.. and we pay the little toll thing and it cost a whopping 5bucks! crazy folks these guys! but yeah after we started walking to the beach.. got our stuff ready.. and after standing there with joyce, sinqie, and yelena trying to decide.. "who's gonna take off their shirt first?" haha.. we just decided aww EFF it we all ran into the water.. and boy the water was cold as heck! it started to get my feet all numb feeling.. haha and then robert straight tackled me into the water! NOT COOL AT ALL! hehe.. but it's all good.. and then after awhile i was brave enough to go into the water, and ride some waves! and robert was trying to do the whole boogey board thing! haha.. oh gosh the funniest part was when robert was looking into the water, and says, "oh look there's lilo! HAHAHAHAHA! omgosh! that was so freakin' hilarious! and dude i was starting to get brave and stuff with the waves, and then i wussed out on this really big one.. so i started running thinking that i can out run the freakin' wave! STUPiD ME! and then ofcourse i am dragged under.. and yeah.. dang yelena was crazy miss swimmer all up in that wave.. hehe.. and then after everyone started just lying around tired from all the wrestling with the waves.. and then we decided to bury half of sinqie's body to make her into a mermaid! crazy hips! and then afterwards we had a little mud fight! yelena has a mud fetish! hahaha! after that we all decided to go eat.. cuz we were all REALLY hungry! so we go look for some food.. but we're like aww dude EFF it we need to go home cuz it was like 4, and we should be back by 5:30-6ish.. so we head back home.. omgoodness! SOOOO MUCH TRAFFiC! i was stuck in traffic for like 2 freakin' hours! that was not cool! omgosh.. driving and being stuck in traffic for 2 freakin' hours is not freakin' cool at all! but wow when i saw "405 north" i was soooo happy! =D it was like a light! but then it was traffic getting on that freeway too! EVERYWHERE iS FREAKiN' TRAFFiC! gracious! i wanted someone to shoot me! and so finally we get going.. hahaha did you guys know.. yelena's a rapper! hahahaha.. omgosh! that was so hilarious! dude! hahaha.. so after we finally get home! FiNALLY! omgracious.. it felt so gooood to get up from that car.. we hurry up.. take some showers... yelena taking one at joyce's house, and sinqie in my bathroom, and me in my parent's bathroom.. put on the uniforms.. put on our faces.. eat some food.. then we zoom off to the CV game...

yes phil i was a "smart girl" huh? good thing we were saved. haha.. ; O) but yeah the CV game was so awesome! so we get there by half time.. bOo we missed the first half.. and then we see the score is tied! DAMMiT THAT SCHOOL iS TOO NiCE! i hate them! haha well not really.. well yeah after a very intense game.. H0OVER WON! yes you better believe it! Hoover beat CV! yep.. so CV isn't so unbeatable after all.. i don't recall the score.. i think we won by like 6 points or something.. =D yay GO H0OVER! so umm obviously with 3 cheerleaders in my car we all wanted to celebrate, and basically rub it in CV's face that we won! so we started "cruising" around and yelling "GO H0OVER!" hahaha! that was so fun.. gosh they probably wanted to slap us! aww.. corey and i were hand signaling to each other at the game! aww =D he's such a cutie! hehe.. and my spirit buddy junior got some playing time in today... aww and he thew his body over that CV guy! hahaha YOU SHOW THEM! hehe.. after the game some of the cheerleaders headed off to the good ol' marketplace..

so we get to the marketplace and me, sinqie, yelena, and joyce decide to get some coldstone ice cream! we get to coldstone.. trying to decide what we want.. then we decide to have some cheesecake ice cream thingy.. gosh dang that was really good! =D and i tried to order it in a fobby way.. and oh yeah on the drive to the marketplace we were talking about grapes and lucas.. and how i ate those two together.. and we were talking about something blue, and yelena here doesnt' even know what we're talking about anymore.. cuz she's so engulfed with the thought of "lucas" she got a freakin' orgasm over it.. okay so that's mud and lucas that yelena has a fetish for! haha and here sinqie thinks, "there are blue grapes?!" hahaha omgracious.. so when we're at coldstone i decided to order the cheesecake but "cancel the order of the blue grapes..." cuz there were blueberries in it.. and i wanted to order it in a fobbish way.. but dude it wasn't working.. cuz i couldn't keep a straight face! oh my.. so yeah after that we were all just sitting at a table.. me, sinqie, yelena [the asian] haha, neha, melissa, lesbo, jackie, and joyce.. and then there were these two boys just sitting there and neha kept talking about them.. so i decided dude enough talk.. i'm gonna go get them! so me and sinqie go get them.. and they so kindly sit with us.. their names being JR and uMm kevin.. yeah i think so.. that's right.. hehe.. so yeah we sat there.. and teased neha and JR aww they're such a cute couple! hahaha sorry about that neha.. didn't mean to instigate anything.. hehe.. (( evil laugh )) well anyways.. hmm yeah so here are the boys thinking that i'm 19 years old.. my legal age.. and melissa is a 13 year old senior.. from this we can tell.. they aren't very bright are they?! hahaha JK! hahaha oh gracious.. boys nowadays.. haha and then after we all just head home.. and now i'm sitting here blogging about the crazy events of this stuff.. alritee well i'm gonna get going now.. sleep and wait to talk to the hubby of mine.. on to more pressing matters

dude, i'm so tired of the same ish over and over! gosh i'm tired of the same thing being said to me, and the same drama the next day because of it.. ugh! i'm sick of it! honestly.. don't ever say it anymore if you're just gonna turn it around and create more crap to deal with then necessary.. omgosh! honestly.. i don't wanna deal with it anymore! it's like a routine.. say it the night before, the next day talk about it and wonder whether or not you did or did not say it.. does it matter?!.. dude i'm done. whether or not you said it or not.. whatever.. nevermind.. deal with it.. cuz i don't want to anymore. i dont' even think it's real anymore, and i'm not sure if i ever did think it was. ugh.. i don't need this crap.

i can't figure out for the life of me how loving someone means leaving them behind.
-- joey potter

that quote is oh so very smart!! yes very! GO JOEY! YOU TELL iT HOW iT iS! yahOooOOo! FiNALS DAY iS OVER!! yes believe it! and my french final was easy today, and we had a great time with the dialogues today =D! yeah! it was fun, and full of laughs which was pretty great. cheveux R' nous! =D yay today was a really fun day! so i go to my french final, kinda ehh un-confident because i had not studied much, cuz i was big butterball and i procrastinated studying until i fell asleep.. and then we reviewed a little bit and stuff, and then when the test was handed out i did pretty well in it i think.. the only thing i had trouble on was comprehension when she was reading out sentences and we had to like label it if it was a certain thing.. yeah well that's the only thing i had a bit of trouble in.. well then afterwards it was snack and courtney and nicole were nice enough to go get me some lunch.. so yay to them! and then we just sat there, chit chatted for a bit, and then i walked off to cheer practice.. my last "final" oh hurrah! =D so we just practiced a routine we had, and then the rest of the time we had some fun on the field.. it feels good to have the field all to yourself.. aww and we started to play wheel barrow races, hahaha i was the one on the floor, but i wasn't really being all that successful with the idea.. hehe me and sinqie were partners.. i'm sorry i disappointed you! haha.. but yeah everyone else cheated and stuff and just ran the rest of the way! and stephanie and skarlet were at an advantage, cuz stephanie is one tall mother! so yeah obviously she'd be a bit ahead then everyone else! CHEATER! hehe.. and then after that we decided to have a three legged race! and aww that was fun.. me&sinqie WON! oh yes we did! "control, control, control!" and "inside, outside, inside, outside!" hehe good stuff.. we had a system working for us.. =D and then after that we had to join the rest of pep team, and boy was that a fun time.. we actually didn't want practice to end... =D let's practice some more guys! and then we had to have a meeting that totally killed the whole niceness of the practice.. we talked about the games that was happening.. one tomorrow against CV @ CV, and one on saturday at the staples center! and excuse me, i'm not trying to be cute and go to 2 games! uMm yeah NO! it's okay.. and although the staples center game seems really umm nice to go to, cuz it's at the staples center, but i mean i think th CV game is far more important than pasadena.. cuz i mean it is CV and what not, and also iT'S CLOSER! so yeah more logical i think.. so yeah we're going to the CV game tomorrow, but we don't even have a bus.. so yeah they're gonna make the drivers drive, and this is my cue NOT to let people know i drive.. but ofcourse people already know.. so i am volunteered for the job.. oh well it's all good i don't mind.. one of the things i have to do i guess.. well anyways ooh where are we going on february 8th?! ONE-SEVEN! haha.. yay! one-seven adventures again! =D fun times! for stephie's bday and sinqie's bday, =D aww it'll be fun witnessing the swaying motions that guys do on the dance floor, and running away from guys trying to rub their wangs on places they should not be! yess! fun! ooh and winter formal is just the day before! woO hOo two dancing days in a row! how exciting! yes, i am very much excited! ooh speaking of which i finally bought my winterformal tickets.. they lowered the prices thank goodness! gosh! it was $30 per person before, but they lowered it to $25 per person! shoot.. that's way better! so yeah i bought those today.. but yeah one-seven here we come! haha.. i gotta go buy a "slut shirt" hahaha.. "let's all take a trip to the mall and buy slut shirts!" -melissa.. hahaha that was a classic! haha.. shoot i don't need to be buying those cute torn up shirts.. i can just get one of my house shirts and cut that thing up, and i'm straight! haha.. alrite that's it for me.. i gotta take a shower cuz i stank from all the activity that was done today, and juicy is gonna go get a haircut and i will be going with her, and then we go to shakey's cuz we have a meeting for our senior class trip.. omgosh..... WE'RE SENiORS SOON! how gay is that! it feels like it was yesterday we were just little freshman.. hMm time flies.. alrite that's it for me.. speaking of time flying before you know it i have to go to this meeting and i haven't even showered yet.. so i'm gonna go shower now.. byEeeeeeeee!

Maybe there isn't such a thing as 'Love' but I do know that there is one person who makes me want to know what love is.
-- Brenda Radney

well today was a pretty good day.. FiNALS DAY TWO! my history final wasn't bad at all.. i know i didn't get less than a B on it, but i don't want a B darn it! but oh well.. and then i didn't have to go to my 4rth period final, cuz i am no longer takng that class next semester.. so yeah.. i came home at 10:00 in the am! yep! cool stuff huh? yep, came home, found some excellent parking right in the front of my house, and i slept until 2:30, when my mommy called me and said someone was coming to the house to look at it, so i had to clean my room up a bit, and clean my sissy's room cuz she had left, and her room was messy. right now i am currently craving some taco bell. and i am wanting to go to disneyland! i wanna go this friday! who's in? i either wanna go to the beach, or to disneyland. one of the two. but yeah.. and ooh i get to cheer atthe staples center this saturday! pretty cool huh? yeah Hoover is playing pasadena, and they're playing at the staples center.. i don't know why, but they are, and i think we're staying to watch the game too. it's lakers vs. JAZZ.. we might even get the chance to meet the players.. oh yay/sarcasm.. don't care to meet the laker players.. i despise the lakers. so yeah if i do get to meet the lakers, then they're gonna know how i feel.. yeah that is until security pulls me away.. haha but yeah anyways.. i just noticed fresh prince of bel-air is such a funny show! will smith's fat jokes are hilarious! oh and i also wanna say

HAPPY BiRTHDAY MY PRECiOUS
thanks for everything.. i know that things between you and me haven't exactly been the same, but no matter what you will always be someone special to me. you've affected my life in a great way, and you will never be forgotten. i hope you had a great day, and continue contributing great things to people's lives.. i apologize for how things turned out, and i wish you the best, not just today, but everyday. hope you're having a great life, and keep being great. happy birthday, and take care.

okay that's it for me on this blog.. i'm gonna go study for my french final.. MY LAST FiNAL! yess! and then it's cheer for 2 hours! =D oh joy laters!

on random note:

on the real world and/or the battle of the sexes, why do they feel the need to write "to be continued.." when the episode comes to an end.. it's a reality tv show.. it will always be to "to be continued..." it's not like a story line comes to an end.. it comes to an end when the show is over, and a new group of people are in the mix.. i was just finding that peculiar.. i mena DUH! it's to be continued..

random thought ends.

The world is too dangerous for anything but truth and too small for anything but love.
-- William Sloan Coffin

FiNALS DAY ONE!!
well it wasn't at all that bad.. my math final wasn't bad at all.. except for this one late reaction to a problem i couldn't get.. and it was too late for me to answer it! gRr! i hate that! that was really bad.. and then after it was snack.. dang dude, everyone looked really tired. their faces seemed so worn out and stuff, like they've already had enough.. but it's only been the first day! so after snack, and after drinking rouhi's coke.. cuz he's the only one not lazy enough to go get something to eat.. i go to my english final.. hMm.. that was pretty tough, cuz i didn't even know how it was gonna work.. but PRAiSE GOD the vocabulary was matching! or else i would have been doomed... and then there was a bunch of writing! my goodness was there so much writing! my hand was getting a cramp! =/ so after the english final was done i just started reading my book, i'm currently reading, Sophie and The Rising Sun, seems pretty good so far.. hMm.. well then after school was over, which thank goodness ended at 12:30, i went to pick up my contact lenses at my optomtetrist.. i park at one of those meters, thinking oh well i only need to put in like 20 cents.. hMm.. i didn't have ANY change! i was like the only person in America who didn't have freakin' 20 cents on them. i looked all over the car, and there was nothing, no sign of change.. i only had a nickel and a lot of pennies, and the machine thingy only took dimes and quarters! i was like, nooo! i can't leave my car without paying the parking meter, cuz i'm not trying to get a ticket here! all of a sudden light bulb i check the other meter behind me, and it had 27 minutes still on it! i was like jumping up and down happy! =D YAY! so i back up park, and i feel very smart at that time.. but in reality i wasn't that smart, cuz it took me about 10 minutes to figure out. hahaha.. so i went to get my contacts, being the responsible chick running my errands and what not, and then i came home.. i ate some adobo my dad cooked with some tomatoes and itlog na maalat.. haha to you filipinos that know what that stuff is.. it's soooo GOOD! and then after i took a bit of a nap.. this time it was a nap yesterday i slept, and freakin' woke up at 11:30 that was not cool at all.. well then now im' here blogging about my day.. and i'm waiting for my henrison to come bring me some McDonalds.. see BFs are good for something! hahaha JK! alrite.. i'm gonna go now.. have to study for my history and physiology final.. LATERS!!!

I have been through so much that I don't fear any more. Maybe it is the failures that have taught me to love to succeed or maybe it's the rejections that have toughened me.
-- unknown

well tomorrow finals officially start.. but before i get started on some studying and what not.. i felt the urge to blog.. get stuff off my mind and what not.. i wanna get a clear mind before i start my studying on my math and english finals.. hMm i'm not even sure how my english final is gonna work.. vocab, short essay response, and an essay. from what i hear.. hmm.. went to my classes.. didn't go to 4rth, left to eat at foster's freeze.. rouhi got butt scared when he saw a cop.. so did corey. boys are such chickens. speaking of chicken, i ate a really good chicken sandwich at foster's freeze.. then lunch.. went to my french class.. then cheer, then we just hung out there.. told some stories... then afterwards dropped off natali at her house, which is such a hassle, cuz she lives like one house away from mine.. and then afterwards juicy and i went to rite-aid to get her uMm "medicine" haha SKANK! jk buddy.. then afterwards we went to the library to study for a bit, and i wanted to borrow a book from the library.. i've been in need for some good reading to stuff in my head.. hMm.. so yeah studied at the library for a bit.. and then left cuz we couldn't really stay for that long.. and now i'm gonna continue my studying.. after a little nap. i can't really study without resting my head first right ?? hMm.. oh yeah waht did i do over the weekend? uMm on sunday i couldn't be home from 1-5:30 cuz there was an open house.. so me and awesum2sum went to starbucks that was "5 minutes" away haha, first time i had to take the freeway to get to a starbucks.. well after that we just talked for like ever in a day! and we were supposed to be studying for finals! hahaha omgracious.. we're so gay sometimes! then afterwards i drove all the way to valencia, just to check out how the house was doing and stuff.. dude they already have the framing up for the 1st and 2nd floor.. and the house next to us is already all cemented up and what not! crazy stuff! we might be moving sooner than we thought.. hMm maybe around apirl or may instead of june! WOW it seems so soon now! =/ crazy stuff, and after that we just went around the beautiful town of valencia.. just talking while driving, and then i was turning onto the freeway, and icouldn't see the EFFing light whether or not it was green or red becuase of the glare of the sun.. it was really bad, and then i caught a glimpse and it was green, so i was like woo hoo. that was a pretty scary experience though.. so yeah drove back away from my future home.. then i hang out freda's house for a bit.. have a brief convo with the grandma.. hehe.. and then left.. and came home.. and tada.. that was my sunday... now i'm hungry..so maybe i will rearrange my schedule from : sleep, eat, study, TO eat, sleep, and study.. or just eat and sleep.. hahaha JK! i have to study.. alrite laters.. bye!

it's that time of the year again..

please don't misinterpret what i have told you as me taking sides,or me believing one person over you.. it's not that at all.. i am not at all taking sides, the things i have told you is my perspective on the situation, and i am not saying one is right over the other.. i'm saying what i see.. i am not trying to point the blame on anyone.. cuz this is between you two. it has nothing to do with me, or anyone else.. i just gave you my opinion, and you know what i don't even understand why i gave it to you, cuz you know what my opinion does not even matter so throw it all out.. and i'm sorry if my opinions affected you in any negative way, they were strictly my observations that i made.. and i'm an open forum to your ideas and thoughts.. i never told you you couldn't tell me what you felt.. i hope you know me well enough to be the type of person to be understanding, but i have not yet heard your side, and your own opinions, and what makes you feel what you feel, because the things you have said have all been means of you trying to defend yourself.. so i'm not really sure what you're perspective was from the very beginning, before the other party's words were shed...clear it up for me.. tell me your view points if you wish to do so.. i'm not here to take sides.. i'm merely here to try and understand.. i understand the other person's points, but it doesn't mean that i won't be able to understand yours as well... there's more than enough room for understanding here.. this is not and never has been an issue between you and me, i just hope you're not thinking it has become an issue for me. cuz it has not been, cuz i know this is not about you and me. for once this time around..i'M NEUTRAL. and i'm sticking to it!