everytimei think i know my friends, they surprise me.
they are full of secrets i will never know."
-- Vivi Abbott Walker in The Divine Secrets of Ya-Ya Sisterhood

hmm today was a good day i think. haha yeah i think.. haha.. well went to school and that usual nonsense of school happened. they had a pie eating contest some crazy ass monster chick won it. i failed to mention that i joined the musical chairs competition yesterday and lost on the first try. =/ that's disturbing. i once kicked many little kids asses in that when i played. big boys don't play fair. and those chairs weren't meant for asses my size. but oh well... so anyways, i worked on the cheer tryout routine some more.. but got distracted after we finished some 8 counts due to the large amount of people rehearsing for the talent show auditions. so we decided to give it a rest and just sit and chill. i judged the talent show auditions today. i was simon while courtney was randy.. and nicole was paula. haha very nice. "umm that was your talent? sorry try again." hahaa nah i wasn't being mean like that.. well not to their face anyway. hahaha! but no seriously the talent wasn't half bad.. it was actually pretty interesting and umm chalk full of talent. hahah hence TALENT show.. and now i'm rambling. well anyways.. after that fiasco me, lucy, and yelena went to go eat at Boba world in Old town. it's been awhile since us chicks got to hang out so i figure it was about freakin' time. well anyways, after our delicious meal that i consumed we went to barnes & noble to roam around and stuff.. lucy and i fully enjoyed ourselves cuz we are the bookworms of KGH! while yelena was antsy to leave since she might be late for work.. but TRUST! i had that! don't worry mayn i wasn't going to make you late for work. well anyways, so after roaming around i bought 2 books... they are it's a chick thing and Bitch haha yeah.. they've proven to be very interesting reading.

i have come to conclude that my couch upstairs is deadly! yes DEADLY! the minute that i put that reclining chair up and lie down and read.. it's OVER! i knock out within minutes. just thought i would share that with the world AKA who ever reads this crap. that is all from me. i'll let you guys know how my books are turning out... cuz you know i'm going to sit here and pretend like you guys care how they turn out. ta-ta.

super size fries don't make fat people fat,
fat people make themselves fat.
-- me

okay i'm not just saying that just cuz i'm what people would call, "skinny", cuz first of all i don't consider myself "skinny". i'm saying that cuz it's the daym truth. i mean seriously.. the phrase, "guns don't kill people. people kill people." basically applies to this situation as well.. not just to guns. obviously they are 2 very different things, but the analogies are basically the same. oh yeah this resulted from me hearing the news that mcdonalds is taking away their super size option from their menu due to large complaints about how they are promoting obesity. =/ that disturbs me.. because for one obesity is a disease, and people can't help it if they are.. but people are not completely helpless when they do have this disease. it's a little thing called diet and exercise, and just cuz people are too daym lazy to do any of these things they decide to sit there and point their greasy cheese stained fingers at mcdonalds. fact is you can't just take away the "super sized" option and expect to be skinny. so you take away that option.. but you still have the option of ordering multiple amounts and not to mention large amounts with the "large" option. what's next? you're going to tell us we should only be allowed to eat 2 orders of a meal? that's crazy! this is completely absurd! fat people are just looking for someone to blame for their fatness, because blaming themselves would just be a completely insane idea. cuz you know it was mcdonalds that shoved food down their throats. the option is there for you to eat a "super size" meal, but mcdonalds isn't sitting there saying you MUST eat a super sized meal.. it's not mcdonalds fault if your fat ass can't seem to practice enough self control to turn away from this option. fact is it's an OPTiON! there's also the SMALL option. so i sound harsh with calling fat people, "fat". what else am i supposed to call them, "over weight", "big boned" every way you turn it.. it's fat, and no matter how "polite" you try to be with that word you can't really be. people will always be insulted. as if the word "skinny" isn't supposed to be somewhat of an insult to people who are skinny. i don't understand since when did the term "fat"have to be something that is taken negatively. it's just an adjective.. and since when was the word, "skinny" a compliment. do people ever stop to think that maybe, "skinny" people fell insulted with that phrase as well? but i think i'm digressing from my original thought here.. so i think i'll just stop before i write a whole thesis explaining my thoughts on this matter... and maybe karma will bite me in the ass in about 5 years when i sit here and become the goodyear blimp.. but hey i'll fully acknowledge that it was MY doing that got me to the goodyear blimp that i am.. and i've got no one to blame but me. so with that. laters.

oh yeah i should talk about my day huh... it went like this: school, work on cheer tryout routine, gym. home. that is all. goodbye folks.

i wasnt looking
for the right things
a week straight playing phone tag
how could we ever last
i like the problems
tell me about your psychiatrist
tell me whats wrong
please make mistakes

oh what a day
oh oh what a day
i cant stop thinking of you
i like whats wrong with you
-- rooney; "oh what a day"


i still get them just by thinking of you.
there hasn't been a day where i haven't thought of you.
my darling, i miss you.

I don't want to be second best.
I've waited too long.
I just want a second chance to be your first again.
-- Homegrown; "second best"

okay so how about i'm getting sick. my throat feels like there's a big lump stuck in it.. gayy! i hate that. i'm having a tough time swallowing.. well anyways let's see the weekend went by too freakin' fast! where the heck did my weekend go?! hmm.. so let's see GHS winterformal was a trip. it was pretty fun.. got introduced to some kick ass girls! =D! usually girls don't take too well to me ( i don't know why ), but these girls were really very nice and made me feel really welcome. =) so yeah it was cool.. danced for a bit, then after when it got a bit on the boring end of things we rolled out to the after party at the holiday inn. yes holiday inn once again.. i was just there a mere 2 weeks ago. so it was yelena, me, karl, franco, and roxy in my car and when we got there they weren't even there yet. so we just chilled in the hallway.. so guy named hayward started talking to us... *ahem* r. kelly molster status that guy! HORRiBLE! he was trying to get all up on roxy! poor girl. well after awhile people started coming and showing up. best life i didn't have to pay to be in there! =) freakin' charging $10 a person! youuu swear i'm going to pay that much! well it was pretty chill.. hahaha bit of drama, but then again when you put drunkeness in such an enclosed area how can there not be any drama?? handled some business.. dranksat. made sure everyone was straight.. then after awhile slept on the sofa bed. i didn't get the bed this time, sad trip. so i had to settle for the sofa bed. WOW! that room was so messed up! it was horrible! i thought our holiday inn room was bad. this was 8391827391723 times worse! there was throw up everywhere and the toilet seat thing broke. sad trip for them. there was a whole mess of people in that small ass room! well anyways so slept.. woke up karl, me, franco, and yelena went to eat breakfast.. they wanted burger king, but since i gave up fast food for lent i could not have any burger king. i was so hungry too! =/ but i resisted temptation and i just sat there and watched the other guys pig out on burger king breakfast. after that dropped people off at home chilled at karl's house.. then went to daddy's house ate food there and took a nap there. then drove home. that was my weekend folks. good times!! no EXCELLENT times!

convo with my gurfren:
me: nash do you think i'm one of those girls thats actually worth any effort?
nash: if you show appreciation for it, yes
me: hmm.. i guess i'm not then.
me: hahaha
nash: hahaha
nash: that was quick
me: hahaha oh well..

that is all folks. you all have a good monday.