whatever you are doing, LOVE YOURSELF FOR DOiNG iT.
whatever you are feeling, LOVE YOURSELF FOR FEELiNG iT.
-- Thadeus Golas

so i'm awake pretty early on a saturday. mommy took the car to work today, but she'll be home pretty early i'm assuming so it's not like i can't go out tonight. supposed to visit harouty at work today, cuz he works at saugus. figured i would be a nice little lady and visit him at this dog grooming place. when i told him i was going to visit him he was all, "do you have a dog?" haha.. i'm like, "no i don't." so did that mean he was gonna hook it up with a free washing of a dog if i had one? if that's the case then that would be freakin' cool! we're supposed to booze together today. we shall see about that. well i'm sure that doesn't interest any of you guys so i will stop talking about that. hmm.. i'm supposed to go down to Gdale today too to spend some with charles. he's leaving for boot camp on Monday and i have neglected to spend time with him due to the fact that my ass has been having to go home straight from school since mommy can't be by herself at home. sadFREAKiN'trip. oh well today will be the day i hope. i woke up today and cleaned the bathroom and the kitchen. i'm being the best worker bee i can be. i think i become more active when i wake up early instead of waking up extremely late. then i get lazy the whole day. that doesn't make sense when you think about it? i mean shouldn't you be more lazy if you wake up early rather then you wake up late? cuz i mean when you wake up late you get more rest? hmm.. well anyways.

yesterday didn't party. it was chill though. hung out with a grip of friends that i haven't really had the pleasure of hanging out with. so i still FULLY enjoyed my time. i gave blood yesterday at school. they messed up. well maybe my blood flow messed up. my blood clotted so they can't moving the freakin' needle in me and everytime they moved it was over come with a very discomforting feeling.. and after they move the needle about 12073912873 times they give up and say, "your blood has clotted. we have to stop." yeah thanks. couldn't you figure that out 12791273918273 years ago? apparently not. i didn't fill up my pint of blood. =( so maybe i didn't save 3 lives, maybe i only saved 2 1/2 lives. hmm.. i almost filled it up. it was a fun experience though.. all the friends were in the gym where the blood donating thing was taking place.. and it was fun times all around! me: "you can't copy my information you loser."/ ramoun: "i'm not. i'm copying your Xs."/ me: "freakin idiot. you can't do that either!" haha gosh smart smart armenian boy. they had random ass questions on the questionaire.. "have you had sexual intercourse with anyone from the year 1977?" uhhh.. ok. and there was "have you ever had sex for drugs?" uhhh.. how does that have anything to do with the donation of blood? i suppose if you do those things then you are at higher risk for HIV/AIDS but still.. i find it odd to ask such specific questions. but then again it does have to deal with blood transfusions which are highly critical, and if you EFF up then a person's life is in your hands. so now i don't find it so odd. a blood transfusion saved my mommy's life when she had me. well anyhow... i felt woozy for awhile after they took blood from me. i think it's cuz i MAY not be exactly 110lbs. i'm a solid 108lbs, but i'm an iffy 110lbs. oh well.. i saved lives! hahaha! yeah and also my mom informed me that i'm a bit of an anemic, so i shouldn't give blood. so i tell my mom, "hey mom! i gave blood today!"/ mom goes, "you did? how can you give blood if you dont' even have enough blood for yourself?!"/ me: "oh crap. i don't?!" haha yeah. but the lady said it was alll good so i trust the lady. maybe i have good blood now. it's been awhile since i had a check up. well anyways.. felt dizzy and had a mean ass headache practically the whole day, and my arm is bruising cuz of the moving of the needle. but again i say, it's okay i saved lives! hmm.. i love my buddies! =D this would have to be the end for me.

by the way.. when i sneeze on you that means i love you dearly! i've only sneezed on a couple people in my lifetime cuz not everyone deserves to be sneezed on. only those who are truly loved and who are truly special to me are sneezed on. hugs and kisses don't cut it for me. SNEEZES ARE MEANT TO BE SHARED! yesiree bob. now i'm done. =) sneeze away folks!

know your worth, and find a guy who knows it too.
-- somewhere

and this was today:
- had to wake up at 5am to drop off my mommy at aunt's house.
- went to dad's and knocked out.
- went to school. blah blah.
- we voted for prom court. *crosses fingers* although i'm not even sure if i'm up for the whole court thingy anymore, but can't hurt i suppose.
- left during lunch cuz i wasn't feeling school anymore.
- gymed it with yellie
- came home.
- washed my car, cuz it wasn't looking cute anymore.
- cooked dinner for the fam. =) i cooked sinigang, some filipino dish.
- i stink, and i have car grease on me so i shall hop into the shower now.

i think i got a lot accomplished today. YAY TO TODAY! and yay to tomorrow since it's Friday. that is all.

what waste of space.

i laugh because i just wrote a short little entry earlier, and the irony of it all is how i wrote the entry as a reminder to myself to get my act together. then, next thing you know my internet drops its connection. should i take it as a sign to just remain stagnant cuz apparently i'm not meant to get my freakin' crap straight? hahaha. oh bloody hell.

so let's try this again.

you guys ever feel like you havent' done anything for yourself? as if your life is just stuck in one spot and not heading any direction? i think i'm at that point in my life. it's weird really, becuase i mean i could feel the situations coming from all sides of me, and i know the ways to fix it but for some odd reason i don't. i have no clue why. it's like i'm always telling myself i will, but then next thing you know i don't do a daym thing. even the simple act of cleaning my room hasn't even been done and i've been saying i'm going to clean my room practically everyday for the past umm let's see 2 months maybe? i think that has got to be my absolute WORSE quality. i sit there and tell myself i will do something, and next thing you know i don't do it. for no good freakin' reason i dont' do it. it's not like i dont' know the consequences of my lack of action, cuz i know daym well what it could do. i'm not just talking about cleaning my room here. hmm.. people reading this entry probably have no idea what i am talking about, but that's okay cuz this little entry is for me i guess. it's like my little post-it note to myself to get my daym act together. i think i've become accustomed to taking the easy way out on situations that i feel like i shall do it for EVERY situation that i am faced with. as if every situation that i come across has an easy alternative, but fact is sometimes there really is no easy way out. sometimes you gotta go through all the garbage to get to the solution. NO MORE TAKiNG iT EASY KATRiNA! i know my problems, and i also know the solutions to it. it's about time i stop stalling and just freakin' do what i tell myself i'm going to do! first thing on the list: CLEAN MY ROOM! it's almost 1 in the morning and i'm gonig to stay up to clean my room.. yes i am. i figure if i finally get myself to do one thing that i've been meaning to do maybe there will be a domino efect and other things i've been meaning to do will follow as well.

hmm just gave a friend of mine some advice that i believe i will follow as well:
you have the power to change what ever you don't like your in life.

so with that i go clean.

little boy: WHAT iS YOUR PROBLEM?
me: i don't know what is my problem?
little boy: ANNOYANCY! that is your problem
-- inside the moon bounce today

so this was my sunday:
- woke up for church
- attended mass
- went to my godson's 7th bday party
- grubbed nasty style! geez fatty!
- comments on my weight again from the fam once again.
- aunt: "i like your shep like dat. u luk more like a wooman."
me: uhh thanks i suppose. so does that mean i looked like a man before?!
- aunt: u know u are bury byutipul now katRRina eeben wid your pat you are still byutipul, but do not eat anymore dat is enap.
me: uhh rrright. thanks.
- watched debut tapes my cousin and mines.
- bounced in the moon bounce.
- beat up little annoying bratty children. haha i kid only.
- waited for a phone call.. didn't come. so i went home.
- went home early. i still wanted to play boo on the aunt!
- attempted to clean room, lied on bed instead.
- watched movies with the momster.
- ate some more.
- now i'm here being bored.
- toodles