okay so i know i had something interesting to write and stuff.. but i have no idea what i was gonna write.... well i am currently in a state of confusion.. things that i thought i wanted i'm not so sure anymore.. don't get me wrong i am a pretty healthy person and stuff.. just ugh.. my mind is a jumble.. i can't really explain in detail what's going on.. but let's just say.. it's umm.. i've gotta make a decision and i don't even know what to say or how to approach it or AAH i just don't know anything! seriously i think i should just join a convent! but anyways.. today is my buddy melissa's bday.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY! but anyways.. yah i dunno i'm lagging so much in schOol! i should so get my mind on set.. (( saying to self )) "stop slacking off.. stop slacking off.. stop slacking off!" okay but anyways.. i was watching the coby show just now and stuff... and i just realized how funny this show is ! bill cosby is sooo funny mayn! haha.. and this little asian girl was in the show.. and she was playign the symbols.. i don' tknow how to spell it.. but those things that like you clap together and it makes that loud "BANNGGG" sound! hehehe.. whatever.. but i just found it so ridiculously funny that i kept laughing.. and still giggling about it right now as i'm writing this.. but anyways.. my mom went to san diego for a conference.. so my pappi is gonna be home this whole time just me.. him.. and my sis.. so weird.. but he isn't home yet and stuff.. he went to drop my mom off at san diego somewhere.. but anyways.. i don't really know what to write at the present moment.. but wOO hOo.. today is the last day of the schOol week for me.. (( singing )) there's no schOol on friday.. oh yah oh ya-ah! hehe.. oh yess.. can you picture me doing that ?! ofcourse.. okay well anyways.. no new thoughts today.. i dunno i don't feel being tOo open with this thing.. knowing that there are people who know i'm talking about.. to those of you guys who know the confusion that i'm currently going through.. hush hush alrite.. i dunno it's weird.. this confusing thing hasn't happened to me in like 7th grade.. it's so new to me.. and ugh.. i dunno.. it's weird.. just plain weird! okay that's all for now i think.. oh today something really awesome my friend did for me.. so i'm walking to my locker after second period and stuff.. and i open my locker and there's this note.. and my friend sam wrote this cute little letter to me saying.. " i love you hwang and chicote!" (sidenote: hwang is the last name of the girl i share my locker with ) but anyways.. yah.. it was the cutest thing ever in the entire world.. i kept smiling all through out my 2nd period! i mean that was so thoughtful of him.. but at the same time..how the heck did he get my locker combination ? hmM.. i know he didn't slip it into my locker.. cuz ya know.. there's not a big enough hole to put it through.. but yah.. so hmm.. interesting.. i think half the schOol knows my locker combination. hehe whatever though.. aah.. okay me go to beddy bye now.. aah my pappi's not here.. who's dropping me off tomorrow for schOol?! aah freakin' chunti! whatever.. that's all..

okay so let me just relax now cuz i'm pretty good.. (( exhaling )) so lately i've been going to the hospital and doctor's offices for some tests and stuff.. cuz remember my whole "ovary situation" well apparently it wasn't an ovary that popped it was a cist.. and it popped.. so i've been having to take tests and stuff to see what's up with me and stuff.. and they haven't found anything bad in me! yay.. PRAISE GOD! hehe.. today i didn't go to school and they did an ultra sound on my tummy.. hehe it was pretty cOol getting to see the inside of your stomach.. hehe.. but i had to drink like a whole ish load of water until i had to go pee.. and then they did the ultrasound.. so i'm laying down there and i'm in desperate need to go pee.. and here's this guy pressing on my stomach! AAHHH!! but i contained myself.. but anyways so i'm a pretty healthy person i think.. except for this throbbing headache i have right now ! hehe.. but it's cOol headaches are better than tummy aches..

well anyways.. yesterday i was at the cancer center of the hospital.. cuz that's where they're doing my tests and stuff.. and well i dunno you just get this weird feeling when you're there.. and i saw some kids and they were all pale and bald.. ugh.. it was so heart breaking.. and i mean it's funny cuz yesterday i wasn't feeling at all well.. i was really feeling very blah about myself.. notice the "BLAH..." i wrote for my entry yesterday.. but it makes you realize that HELLO katrina! (( slaps myself on the head )) there are so many people out there who are going through so much more thanyou.. and you're sitting here worrying about petty problems.. GOD has given me a gift of my life.. and i should cherish what i have.. and run with it.. hehe.. cuz i mean this gift is temporary.. and i should do all i can with it.. =) like my epiphany huh ?! yes yes.. very good for katrin (( patting myself on the back )) but seriously to all of you guys reading this.. *ahem* hovsep *ahem* hehe.. umm i just wanna say thanks for taking the time out of your lives to read about mines.. =) you guys are awesome! you guys have a blessed one!

BLAH . . .

cinderella rocks! mayn that has got to be one of the bestest cutest disney movies imaginable! it makes you feel all lovey dovey and what not inside.. gosh.. (( sighs )) haha no not really.. hehe.. but seriously cinderella is such a cute movie.. but in a way it's bad cuz it teaches kids that you gotta be all prettiful and stuff for someone to notice you.. cuz ya know since the story emphasized that the two step sisters were "ugly" and stuff.. i dunno.. wahtever.. who really cares.. it's disney.. with disney nothing can go wrong.. right ?!

okay you know what.. i just posted that there are some talented people.. i'm still watching showtime at the apollo ((y'all ready for some more yell.. "oh yah.. "OH YAH!!")) hehe.. and umm there's this weirdo guy wearing a riddler outfit from batman and robin.. and he's dancing to "smooth criminal" by micheal jackson! what a weirdo mayn! i'm sure he has talent.. but apparently this isn't one of them.. yeesh.. and now there's a white guy singing a song he wrote and produced himself.. give up it for the white guy on the APOLLO! oOh.. he's not half bad !he's actually pretty good! whoa.. (( giving white guy props!!! )) whoa buddy this guy is really awesome ! thsi guy was last weeks champion.. hehehe.. pretty cOol pretty cOol.. the song isn't bad at all. and he wrote it and stuff himself.. wow this guy really deserves some major props! hehehe.. THE WHITE GUY WON AGAIN!!!! whoa! hehe.. he deserved it.. okay that's it.. hehe.. yah i'm a weirdo..

okay random thought.. but felt the need to write it.. i'm watching showtime at the apollo.. and there are some real talented people in this world! more people need to acknowledge these people.. hehe okay random thought comes to an end..

okay so i just got back from my weekly prayer meetings and stuff.. my most favoritest time of the week are my prayer meetings! but anyways.. whoa there was a mighty large turn out today! a total of like 45 people! whoa buddy! hehe.. our rOom was so packed! hehe.. PRAISE GOD! hehe.. but i came in all late cuz of the BOOOOORRRRING celebrity basketball game.. literally i was rubbing myself that thing was so boring.. mayn! i felt bad the for the celebrities though cuz there wasn't much of a turn out for it and stuff.. so their self-esteem must have really been brought down and stuff..oh well that's life for ya.. but yah it was sooo very boring.. mayn we weren't cheering.. cuz i mean how exactly do you cheer for two teams that are umm.. i dunno whatever.. i wasn't in the mOod to cheer for any of those guys.. i wasn't star struck.. it was just umm.. okay so he's the guy in that huh.. that's nice.. but seriously i was rubbing my balls like the whole time at the game.. the only time i did cheer was when the buzzer went off saying the game was over.. and i did a little tiger wOods action with my hands.. hehe.. (( you guys know what i'm talking about ?! )) hehe.. alritee.. that's all for today or should i say last night.. since this is gonna be posted up on sunday..