In the middle of difficulty lies opportunity
-- Albert Einstein

alrite well i got in probably like 10 minutes ago.. mayn today was a pretty fantastic day.. at this rate my summer will be a blast! hehe.. today all i had really planned was to go to the mall buy a present for my friend,since it was his birthday.. by the way.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR. HENRISON VILLERTA SENO, hoped you liked the present.. i know it'll be of good use to you.. but anyways.. so after the mall i walked around and guess what i found..A SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS inflatable doll! how freakin' awesome is that.. i'm giving it to my girl bubbles.. cuz i think she would like it =).. but anyhOo so yeah afterwards we go to islands to meet up with everyone who was doing this surprise birthday bash thing for henri.. and hMm.. yeah everybody was late.. filipino time, ofcourse everybody be laggin'.. and hMm mr. celebrant tried to be really cute and was late an hour.. hehe we couldn't wait any longer so we ordered and ate without him.. dang dude i ain't trippin.. JAN you better still have my rubberband you b0oger! but anyways.. afterwards me, joyce, and robert "rolled out" early cuz yeah we were going to go "bowling" we picked up bert's friend oliver to go bowling, but we weren't vibin' that place so we wound up feelin the urge to visit one of our long lost friend's, kate! up in chino hills.. so we call freda.. and ask her if she wanted to come with to mosey on over there.. so yeah she's "down" hehe.. sorry i dunno what's up with the lingo righ tnow.. maybe cuz it's 3 in the morning.. haha the trip there was uMm pretty interesting.. since we were on our way there.. and all of a sudden robert had the sudden urge to pee, and since he's our driver we HAD to stop.. hehe so we go stop by santa anita mall and yeah... he pisses.. hehe but anyways so yeah we go over tehre and we decide to go SWIMMINGcuz ya know we thought we were cute like this was the freakin' blackdified crew right here.. it was me, kate, freda, joyce, charles m., and robert.. hMm.. excluding charles really we were all like black people.. but whatever.. so we swam and swam.. hehe note chicken fights are the best things to do in water! wOOoOOOOOooOOoOooooooooOooOOoohOoOooOooOoOoooOOOO, YYYYYYYYAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!.. hehe.. dude me and kate we're the freakin xena warrior princesses! hehe.. freda girl you need to stop freakin' screaming! haha dude this chick.. i was trying to carry her right.. and how come she kept screaming as i was going up.. she couldn't handle the uMm "height" hahaha.. so she kept screaming and falling off people! hehe.. dude freakin' hilarious.. and we were playing marco polo with a bunch of little kids before that.. dang how come all the little kids were better swimmers than me.. they be jumping off the side of the deep end and doing back flips and what not.. and i'm sitting there holding on to dear life onto the wall of the deep end.. and then after all that stuff we decide to have a contest of "who can hold their breath the longest..." hMm.. i kept losing.. cuz i kept cracking up.. cuz mayn it's so funny cuz we would count right.. and right before we got to three you can hear everybody gasp getting ready to go under water.. and i dunno that freakin' made me laugh.. and then dude.. ROBERT! looked so freakin' hilarious under water.. his eyes were all shut tight.. and he was hanging on to this hand rail.. he looked as if he was all concentrated.. hehe yeah it was a pretty funny sight.. sorry you shoulda been there.. hehe but so afterwards.. freda, joyce, kate, and i decide to do a little synchronize swimming.. haha we were trying to build a star.. but how come umm.. we couldnt' stay afloat long enough.. hehehe.. and our arms were to short and not together for some odd reason.. hehe so we did this little nifty routine thing.. hehe a "ripple" like thing.. hehe.. so yah.. dang we did a lot of weirdo stuff up in that pool. uMm we did some "surfing usa" stuff.. haha.. but yeah that's another story.. let's move on already.. so we all get out of the pool and we're all hungry and stuff.. and kate's mom got us some yummy costco pizza.. yay! it was yummy.. especially after swimming and you're all hungry! that's the best! after eating we decide to play some cards.. we played "spoons" that's an action packed game i tell ya.. the person that lost had to do a dare.. so i lost and i had to take two drops off tabasco sauce.. "el tapatio" or something of that nature.. so i did.. and dude it was burning my lips.. but i took it.. hehe.. cuz i'm strong.. cuz ya know. .i'm buttercup! hehe.. but anyways.. how come after that noboyd did another dare? =/ hehe it's all good though.. after we decide to do this murder game thing. but it ended up not working out since there was too little of us.. and then..we all just chit chatted.. we had a pretty intelligent convo.. talking about people changing, and how like the whole "bros before hoes" concept doesn't really exist.. since your girlfriend is supposed to be like your bestfriend.. so i mean it's like that whole thing is supposed to say like you're dissing your friends for your girlfriend.. when like you're girlfriend is like the same category as your friends.. ya get it?! (thanks ms. blossom for that wonderful insight) but yeah.. and saying how like if you made a commitment to like your girl friends, but your guy friends wanted to make plans, and i mean if you just ditch your girl friend for your guy friends then i mean wouldn't taht be flaking out on your girl friend then? so either way you lose in the situation.. somebody is going to get dissed.. hmm. anyways.. moving on and then we talked about the digestive system and how some people die cuz of "bangongot" hehe.. i love that word! hehe.. but yeah i dont' even wanna begin to get into that subject.. if you wanna ask me what it is.. i won't mind talking to you about it.. but i already think i'm writing a novel.. so let's not go there.. after all that we all decide it's about time to get home since it's already late.. and bert was already getting tired.. and you know it's not good to have your driver tired and stuff.. so we go home.. and you know like ms. blossom said.. car rides are nice.. cuz it helps you think.. =).. and today you know i had pretty good thoughts in the car.. like i didn't think of boys as such grrs anymore.. believe it or not.. i thought nice about boys! yep you heard right.. i was smiling listening to the song "color everywhere" by youth asylum.. cuz like dang that's a nice song.. by the way that's mine and nash's song.. hehe.. but yah i mean i was smiling cuz i was thinkin' of the nice things guys have done for me.. and i mean whether or not they had alterior motives for doing it for me, i mean the fact is they still did it, and it still made me feel good inside.. whether or not they did it for the right reasons.. =) so thanks boys, whoever you guys are.. hehe.. hMm.. well i mean there are lot of other stuff we talked about in that car.. too much to write.. and too personnal to share in a way also.. hehe but i mean i had an awesome day.. it was a good day.. spontanaiety rocks mayn! hehe..alrite well i'm off to bed now.. cuz i ain't trying to be cute sitting here when i know i have gymnastics practice at like 7 in the morning and i'm going to the filipino convention thing tomorrow.. plus there's this person sleeping in the living room.. and he grinds his teeth when he's sleep! AAH! it's the weirdest noise.. and it's giving me the goosebumps! alrite.... well i'm off to bed.. nitey nite.. sweet dreams.. or i mean goodmorning.. whatever.. GOD bless guys.. and hope you guys have a wonderful day..

higlight of the day:
- the whole day was all around pretty great...

NOT so highlight of the day:
- did i get blacker? hMm.. hehe

person who made me smile:
- all the people that i hung out with today..

"Color Everywhere"
- Youth asylum

Use to seen black and white
never any in between
waiting all the love of my life
to come into my dreams
everything is shades of gray
never any blues or green
needing someone else to turn to
someone who could help me learn and see
all the beauty that was waiting for me

You,you put the blue back in the sky
you put the rainbow in my eyes
a silver lining in my prayer
and now theres color everywhere
you put the red back in the rose
just when i needed it the most
you came along to show you care
and theres color everywhere, everwhere

My life is so predictable
never any mystery
but ever since you shine the light
all of that history and now I have a hand to hold
all the reasons to believe,Yes.
If someone in my life was worth living for
I was hangin' around just wishing all is done
To put the happiness back in my heart

And you,you put the blue back in the sky
you put the rainbow in my eyes

- freda girl, you feelin' this song huh?! hmMm.. this song reminds me of hMmMM.. hehe -

Regret for the things we did can be tempered by time; it is regret for the things we did not do that is inconsolable
.--Sydney J. Harris

hmm. well today was officially the first day of my summer vacation.. hMm.. wanna know what i did? come close i'll tell ya.. i CLEANED MY ROOM! yep about time.. my room was a mess..i coudln't even walk on the floor.. you had to evade all the clothes and what not on the floor.. so i decided to clean it.. and EVEN vacuum! yep.. you heard right.. i vacuumed! i didn't have the best experience last time i vacuumed..i think i blogged this experience..but yes.. last time i waged a war against the vacuum.. mayn but today i figured everything out! i knew where the holes went and which thing went inside which hole and everything.. and the vacuum didn't fall apart on me as i was vacuuming and i didn't get the cords all stuck together.. so YAY for me! i figured out how to use this vacuum of ours.. hMm.. and now i'm doing my loads and loads of laundry.. i decided it's about time i do my laundry since i ran out of underwear.. hMm.. i'm going commando at the moment.. haha yah right.. grossy.. but i'm wearing boy's briefs.. hehe i usually wear them to sleep.. but i have teo make do with them on at the moment.. no but boys are lucky cuz these things are comfortable.. Oookay i'm sounding really weird here huh?! hehehe.. yah anyways.. sorry bout that.. but anyways so wow today was a really productive day for me.. and i'm gonna attempt to run and play basketball later on tonight.. when it isn't so hot out.. hMm.. wow what's wrong with me?! whatever.. it's summer.. it's making me do strange things.. i have to buy a bday present for someone.. i have no idea what to boy.. =/ hMm.. ehh.. and it's gonna be kinda hard since hMm.. the whole no money thing and stuff.. hMm.. i'll figure out something i guess.. but anyways.. me and my bummish ways.. mayn seriously.. i dunno what to write in this present blog.. mayn see i have nothing to write since i don't go to school and stuff.. hMm..

can you guys do me a favor.. and uMm pray for my mom.. cuz she's currently undergoing some medical stuff.. and she's not feeling all too well.. =/ i dunno it's so hard to make light of any situation.. and when my mom talks about herself being sick i always find myself detaching myself from the conversation.. maybe cuz i don't really wanna face reality about what's going on with her.. and how sick she is.. reality is really hard to deal with sometimes.. my mom is all i've really got in this world.. you know some people have pieces of your heart and stuff.. well my mom has my whole heart.. without her..i don't think i'd be able to go on.. she's my everything and with out her i am nothing.. sorry i don't mean to be a downer.. but my mom just came in from the hospital and my whole attitude just changed.. you notice how the tone of my writing changed as you read this.. i am the one that always believed in smiling through your problems.. smiling through the pain.. but sometimes.. it's so hard to smile, when all you can do is frown GOD has his reasons right? i don't doubt that.. hMm.. but it doens't help me from being sad and worried about the situation.. if GOD were to take my mom away from me.. HE might as well take me too.. cuz without her i'd be dead in this world.. people who don't really know me and just read this.. please don't IM me or try and call me and try and "console" me if you dont' really know me.. don't pretend like you do through my blogs.. i appreciate you guys caring.. but honestly the best way for you guys to help me out is pray for her.. i'm not the one that needs help.. my mom does..

where's waldo? LOOK HARD! this is a toughie! [ winks, nash.]

current feeling:
oh mayn.. my heart is broken.. how come my GURFREN, nash forgot my birthday.. let's recap the convo:

oO Litter BuG Oo: i'm turning 17 this year..
oO Litter BuG Oo: fudge.. i'm OLD !
x S t r o B e 44: oh yeah
x S t r o B e 44: November 23
x S t r o B e 44: your debut is next year then
oO Litter BuG Oo: MP!
oO Litter BuG Oo: *NO!
oO Litter BuG Oo: omg.. i can't freakin' believe you freakin' forgot my freakin' birthday !
oO Litter BuG Oo: omfreakin'goodness
x S t r o B e 44: it's the 23
oO Litter BuG Oo: nov. 23?!?!?!?!?! waht the freak are you smoking ?!
x S t r o B e 44: oh 21
x S t r o B e 44: hahahahaha
x S t r o B e 44: OOOOOPS!
oO Litter BuG Oo: OMG!
oO Litter BuG Oo: dude..
oO Litter BuG Oo: i'm sad..
oO Litter BuG Oo: i can't believe you !

mayn what's a boifren to do now?! gosh.. thanks alot gurfren! going on 8 months and you forget my birthday! you definitely did not score points there buddy.. your gurfren points definitely went down.. hMm.. to you guys reading this entry if you see nash.. THROW SOMETHING AT HIM!! hahaha.. that dfeintely goes under my NOT so highlight category.. first you made me smile this week.. and then you bring me down.. good one buddy! dang.. i'm good huh?! feeling guilty much nash?!

SCHOOL'S



OUT!!

dude, i'm so happy right now.. schOol is freakin' over! mayn.. well other than summer schOol.. but summer school is okay, it isn't as bad as regular schOol.. but mayn i have practice over the summer that starts at freakin' 5:45 in the freakin' morning! yeah isn't that sweet?! gosh no..dang i can barely wake myself up for school at 8 in the morning.. 5:45 in the morning?! i can do it! so today my finals algebra 2 and world history.. world history wasn't so bad.. but how come i know i'mgoing to be taking algebra 2 again.. ehh it's okay whatever.. i only have one more year of math anyways and i don't have to take another math.. so whatever.. i started drawing things on my test... since i didn't wanna just leave it blank.. thought i would entertain my teacher for awhile.. so i drew cartoons.. mayn i can't believe school is FINALLY out.. i've been waiting for this day! summer fun in the sun! yay.. hehe.. i'm a happy camper since schOol is out.. i've got a lot planned for myself this summer.. yep sure do.. hMm sit at home, do nothing, summer school, come home, do nothing, cheer practice.. hMm that's my summer.. now aren't you guys jealous?! okay but seriously i'm pretty excited.. Ooh seniors are graduating today.. hMm.. in an hour.. i wanted to go to the graduation but hMm.. summer laziness is coming over me.. and it requires to me look all prettified and i'm not feelin that.. i have to go and take a shower.. i mean come on now.. i don't wanna do that.. hehe hMm.. dude these past three days i've been freakin' bummy going to school.. cuz i'm not trying to look cute going to school and being there for only two classes and only 4 hours.. no it's okay.. but hMm now i feel like looking nice.. nice as in.. shower..blow drying my hair.. wearing jeans and a nice shirt nice.. but not nicer than that.. but hMm.. anyways.. this blog isn't realy making sense.. but i just want to point out that SOPHOMORE YEAR IS OVER!! slacking off is done for me! i closed the door on that chapter.. now it's back to the "overachieving katrina" i've been the over achiever since elementary school till freshman year.. and sophomore year was my break.. i know it's bad.. but i took one.. and now.. grrr.. im' out for blood! hehe.. okay sorry sounding like the bigget nerd.. oh i just wanna holler at my kuya hovsepit's me your ading katrina hahah eewie! yah okay let's not.. but anyways i'm going to go take a shower.. cuz i'm smelling like a bicycle seat after biking 5 miles.. so i'm gonna get going tata.. and don't forget.. I'M A JUNIOR NOW! daym i feel old.. =/

I don't think of all the misery, but of all the beauty that still remains.
--Anne Frank

today was an easy day.. i just had my english final/project everyone presented.. and our went pretty well.i just have to put my portfolio together for that class.. and then it was just cheer practice for 2 hours.. dang it lasted FOREVER but anyways i'm kinda on stress mode cuz of finals tomorrow.. they're gonna be pretty hard [ world history and algebra 2] gosh dang LORD, i will do my best, and you do the rest!.. and i should be studying but how come i'm not?! and i ahve to clean my room first and set my right environment.. hehe.. but i'm gonna eat first.. FEED THE BRAIN.. but yah after schOol my friend carlo saw me crossing the street and he asked me to hang out with him.. so i figured might as well to get away from the "stresses" for awhile but yah so i hung out with some friends and we went to my friend zach's house and we went SWIMMING! woO hOo.. i needed that refreshingness. cuz mayn it was so freakin' hot today.. "it's getting hot in hur" hehehe but yah it was nice.. hehe they were teaching me how to swim and tread water! hehehe.. i know how to swim, but not treading water.. so yah i swam back and forth the pOol yay! hehehe.. good for me! shOot.. but yah how come i tried to be cute cuz i wanted to take off my tan lines so i laid on my back for awhile.. but uMm smarty pants me i did not take of the strings of my top and stuff.. hMm.. so i still had tan lines.. PLUS i got even blacker! zach straight asked me, "do you have any like black in your genes?" hehe bOOoo! GOSH NO! i'm just naturally black and stuff.. mayn but yah so at around 4ish carlo dropped me off.. dang dude i'm really proud of my two buddies carlo and arbi.. first of all arbi got into UCLA! mayn hot sauce! and carlo is going to UCSB! gosh dude those are both really good colleges! dang.. CONGRATULATIONS GUYS! although i dunno if you'll ever come across this page.. but hMm.. hOover's graduation tomorrow..i might go.. if i'm not too worn out from my two finals that day... no more seniors at schOol =( it's gonna be so weird.. =/ i'm gonna miss them especially since i was just starting to get to know them and everything.. =/ oh well they'll still call me up and visit me RIGHT?! hehe alrite.. but CONGRATULATIONS GUYS! hMm.. alrite i think that's all for this blog.. i gotta eat.. then tidy up my room.. then STUDY STUDY STUDY! pray for me guys.. thanks.. baboo

highlight of the day:
- SWIMMING!

NOT so highlight of the day:
- getting darker, YET AGAIN!

person who made me smile:
- carlo, cuz he's a cOol guy!

to the graduating seniors

When The Last Tear Drop Falls

It's so hard to lose the one you love
To finally have to say goodbye
You try to be strong but the pain keeps holdin' on
And all that you can do is cry
Deep within your heart you know it's time to move on
When the fairy tale that you once knew is gone

1 - When the last tear drop falls
I'll still be holdin' on to all of our memories
And all of what used to be

When the last tear drop falls
I will stand tall
And know that you're here with me in my heart
When the last tear drop falls

So now I'm alone and life keeps movin' on
But my destination still unknown, oh yeah
Will there be a time when I'll fall in love again?
When I was meant to walk these streets alone
If there was just one wish I could be granted here tonight
It would be to have you right back by my side

Repeat 1

Now it's time for me to find my happiness again
And the emptiness from missin' you
Will never ever end, baby

Repeat 1

"We choose to be afraid of things. We can also choose not to be."
-- anonymous

alritee.. so today was the first day of finals and countdown two only 2 more days of schOol left! today my finals were french and chemistry. Chemistry was just another test.. and french was a project that i had already done, and a reading test.. i didn't do too badly i think.. chemistry wasn't easy but yet it wasn't as hard as i was stressing myself over for.. dude i was studying all the wrong things! =/ i studied the lewis structure and what not.. and there were only like 3 questions out of freakin' 85 on it! gracious.. but anyways.. so yeah french final was easy sauce.. dude i slept for like an hour.. cuz we weren't doing anything after you went up to her and read the thing you're supposed to.. you were basically free to do whatever the heck you pleased and stuff... so mayn i can't believe those two classes are finally over! thank goodness gracious! well afterwards i came home and thank goodness we had minimum day cuz i only got 2 and half hours of sleep last night from studying for chemistry finals, and i wasn't even studying enough of the right material, but anyways so then i got home laid down i was drfiting off to sleep but hten all of a sudden i started having short of breath.. i dunno why this happens to me a lot.. and i couldnt' sleep cuz i kept having to breathe very deeply, otherwise it feels like i'm not breathing =/ but anyways so yeah i decided i'd just wake up and get a drink of water and stuff.. and then my sis, my cousin, and i went to eat at this japanese restaurant.. and yummy..spider roll.. don't think it's a spider it's like this crab thing inside a sushi roll.. whatever let's just say it was delicious! but yah and then afterwards we all went to the mall cuz my sis had to look for sandals for her dress and stuff.. and i bought slippies for myself.. yeah i'm in need of some.. but yeah and then afterwards just went home.. so that was pretty much my day in a nutshell.. hMm.. tomorrow finals for english and cheer.. yay easy kickback finals.. cuz first of all i don't have to study anything for english.. they're all projects.. which i should start on.. and cheer.. uMm okay no.. it's just a 2 hour practice.. so yay.. okay well i'm off to my english projects.. you guys have a good one!

highlight of the day:
- french and chemistry is FINALLY over!

NOT so highlight of the day:
- bye bye seniors!
- chemistry final was not easy, but not as hard.. but still hard.. hehe

person who made me smile:
- nash cuz i had his CD player.. and it entertained me during french class... it kept me from picking my nose the whole day.. hehe thanks gurfren!

more tests.. bored outta my ass that's why.. =/

what adjective are you?

quiz by maikamariel

aww.. "nice" what a "nice" word.. hehe


Are you a ho? Find out @ She's Crafty

aww darn.. i'm NOT a ho.. i sure would like to be! hahaha.. too bad i'm not.. hehe


Who's Your Movie Sidekick? Find out @ She's Crafty

aww.. i love this movie! pretty in pink! and.. aww duckie was the sweetest! cool he's my sidekick!


Which Buff Girl Are You? Find out @ She's Crafty

hMm.. alrite.. *wapow* hehehe

that's all for this round... stay tuned.. there are lot more tests for me to take...

okay honestly.. this is the third freakin' time i'm blogging cuz i'm just a dumb ass sometimes and it just wouldn't work right.. =/ grr daym blogger dude.. but anyways yah tomorrow/today is father's day.. i hate father's day! dude.. ever since 2nd grade.. my teachers would make us make presents for our dads and that was the time my dad didn't live with us.. and i'd make mine all nice.. like one time we made a tie holder, but how come i never had anyone to give it to ?! and when my dad did come how come he was a butt brain, and so father's day was still a bust ! mayn i havent' had a good father's day.. hMm so therefore in my book, father's day sucks! but hey happy father's day to all those daddy's out there! hehe.. but yah so umM.. at HOJ we talked about father's and stuff.. and what a father is supposed to be.. how come i have no freakin' clue how a dad's supposed to be..or atleast how a GOOD dad is supposed to be.. i know how a BAD dad is.. i've seen GOOD dad's with my friends.. but hMm i wonder how it is to have that GOOD dad?! hmm.. and then we had to write letters to our dad or to someone who uMm.. somewhat gave that idea as a father to us.. or we can write a letter to GOD if we didn't know what it was.. hMm i wrote a letter to GOD.. and then after writing for awhile i decided to write a letter to my dad, but how come it was turning out to be something mean.. so i stopped.. and i figured i just wouldn't even try.. but anyways afterwards.. hMm i "blabbed" with my girl fredalynn.. new realizations dude... so lemme just jot down some of my realizations.. i'm kinda bothred by them.. =/

for one thing.. how come i feel like someone would have been better off if i hadn't entered their life.. like there's so much drama still occuring between people, although i am not involved anymore, how come i feel like i am so the one to blame, and if i hadn't entered this person's life, then everything would be alrite between them.. i feel so responsible for all this drama, and it's like i could have prevented it by not occupying his time.. i mean i love this person so much.. but i mean would he have been better off without me? would things be alrite for him if i wasn't in his life in the first place?! instead of making it easier for him, how come i feel i made it harder in the end?! i feel so guilty, and i just wanna apologize for the outcome of all the drama.. =/ i mean i probably brought more bad things in his life then i did good.. next thought....

how come i suddenly feel selfish.. i mean was i so blind with anger and frustrations that i failed to see the good things in him.. that i failed to acknowledge the good he brought into my life,until it was too late i mean i will always love this guy so much.. and there's no doubt in my mind that i always will.. and if anything were to happen to him i know i will be the first person there by his side.. and if he were miles away and i didn't have a ride to him.. how come i know i would take the bus.. run.. or walk just to be able to get to where he is.. =/ i was so spoiled by him.. that could it be possible that i took him for granted?! did i take advantage of him? i mean did i give up too soon? how come i always said that.. "GOD doesn't give us anything we can't handle." but how come i felt like i couldn't handle this, and i chose to get away from it, but at the same time.. why did i.. if i couldn't handle it, why did GOD give it to me? why was it my place to say I couldn't handle it.. when GOD thought i could?

it's not like i'm all depressed and sad and stuff.. but someitmes you just think of things.. and i did.. and there ya go.. but i'm not sad.. i'm just not as happy.. but it's not like i'm all grr and sad about things.. i'm neutral i guess... so here i go.. going away now.. goodbye and good night!

highlight of the day:
- gymnastics class

NOT so highlight of the day:
- sometimes i think i should stop thinking.. okay there i go thinking again.. hehe..
- i hate father's day

person who made me smile:
- mayn i dunno..