"I WILL NOT FALL FOR YOUR SHIT. DO I LOOK LIKE SOME OTHER GUY YOU TERRORIZED?! NO! WHATEVERS.
"you know what nick, you're the first guy to see through her and the games she plays with guys"
-someone
HELL YEAH I"M THE FIRST ONE. I got to give her, her dues, she is hella good at this. But I'm as good or better cause i've been through shit also. And i'm smart enough to watch my ass. "

congratulations on making me feel like the most special person in this world! i apologize for making you think you were any less than what i thought of you, i'm sorry for the "games i played" but congratulations on being "the first one" to see through my "games", games that i didn't even know i played.. thank you for making me feel oh so special, and i'm sorry that you were the "victim" in all of this, although the feeling i'm getting through all this sure does make me feel like crap, but no worries YOU'RE THE ViCTiM i know i'm not. cuz apparently you're the only one hurting. i'm sorry that everything that happened categorizes under "shit" to you.. i really am. i wish i can say the same for you, but darn i can't. so you have fun wear that "jersey" of yours, cuz i know how long you've been wanting to.

to all you guys out there.. i PLAY GAMES! and apparently i play them really well. so steer clear of me okay?

-- the "phase" is done for one. who's next?

believe what you want.

a lot of people talk huh? yeah a lot of people talk, and a lot of people usually talk about the things they know the least about.. only I know what i'm truly feeling inside, and what i'm thinking inside and only I know what's really up inside my head, and no one else can define what is in my head, and i can't even begin to articulate the thoughts into my head for others to be able to understand. so i don't even feel like talking anymore and trying to put into words what i think anymore.. cuz in the end you won't understand or you'll just misinterpret what i meant to say.. and you know what i'm not gonna front, same goes for you, you'll try and tell me something and i know i'll probably wind up misinterpreting it.. the difference between you and me i guess in my eyes is that [ notice i said iN MY EYES i never said things are this way or that ] but anyways, the difference is you will always be someone to me i'm not gonna say what i am to you, or what i think i am to you, cuz i don't know what you're feeling, as you don't know what i'm feeling.. i'm not gonna sit here and assume what you're thinking and what you're thoughts are, cuz i don't want you doing the same for me. but like i've said to you before, i stand by my words that they were the truth. and hey, if you don't wanna believe that it's okay. cuz i know i was being truthful, and that's all that really matters. through everything my perspective of you won't ever change.. hard to admit but you're not just any other guy in this world.. and i never said you weren't enough.. i'm not one to flatter myself and think that someone isn't enough for me, if you think that that's why i made the decision i did make, then you don't know me at all.. i would expect you to know me better than that..i don't know anymore.. WHATEVERS is what you say, so i guess that reflects what you feel about someone "special" to you.. okay, don't talk to me about "showing" how you care, cuz if you're saying "wahtevers" to me.. then how much do you really care?? ehh, you know what. i don't know anymore. you do what you want, and you think what you wanna think. i'm not trying to make myself look like the victim, but also who you are to say you're the ONLY victim in this?? i don't think you are.

you know i'm always gonna feel like a phase in a guy's life.. there's no way i'm ever gonna shake that feeling off.. i came to the realization that i will never be "THE girl" i will ALWAYS be "A girl" that's that i guess.

gosh.. boys, first they treat you all special, and just when things don't go their way how do you get treated like?? T R A S H! that's what! sucks, i guess i wasn't as "special" to you as you made it seem.. oh well it's not like i'm not used to boys doing this to me, didn't expect it to come from you though, but hey go figure?! i guess you just never know anymore.

QUiZ TiME!! haven't had one of these in awhile huh? hehe well there you go.. =D

--You are full of zest! You are
adventurous, humorous, and live each day to its fullest! You live on the edge,
you can get hyper, but there is still that calm side of you. Watch out, don't
get in trouble!

-- who me?! get in trouble?! come on now!



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Whose Sense Of Humor Do YOU Share?
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I’m feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you’re worth it
-- avril lavigne,"things i'll never say"

alritee well to start things off WOO freakin' HOO! the last week of school! actually there is approximately 3 days of school left till vacation! YESSS!! score!! and then it's time to celebrate JESUS' bday! =D HOORAY! aww but you guy know what's sad.. my mommy is going to the philippines for 5 days! and guess when she's leaving?!?! CHRiSTMAS DAY! ugh.. sad trip huh?! gosh.. but it's okay i made plans with my buddy carlos to sit at my house, drinking some hot chocolate and watch THE KiNGS kick some sorry laker butts! yess!! woO hOo excitement galore! well the past days have been pretty chill for me. but right now i'm REAL hungry, but too lazy to get up and realy get anything.... AHH! my secret santa for filipino club is tomorrow, and i haven't even gotten their present! AHH! omgosh.. i'm such a big fat ass lagger! like seriously! sometimes i think i'm too freakin' sexy with these things.. but ehh i'll work something out.. i mean what time does the mall close on weekdays anyways? not too soon right?? yeah i'll think up something.. and then there's the pressing matter of what to get my henrison.. hMm actually i already know.. hehe, and to those that i told.. SHH! don't tell him! and then i got my awesum2sum's present already! yay! so that's atleast one person i can cross of my christmas list! =D so YAY! ooh i have to TWO tests i should be studying for.. actually THREE test in math and french tomorrow and then physiology on thursdasy AND friday! darn that teacher! HE SUCKS! ahh! gosh i can't get the fact that i need to get my secret santa's present outta my head!! i'm doomed!!! doomed i tell ya!! geez louise (( banging head on computer )) WHY DO i LAG?!?!?! argh! hMm well let's see today was an average school day, but GOSH DAYM! it was freakin' cold! my butt cheeks were about ready to fall off! hahaha.. but no seriously it was REAL cold! gracious.. and i was already wearing my big ol' jacket! geez, there's no way to hide away from this coldness mayn! for cheer we just chill in the SAC for those with the perverted minds it stands for Student Activity Center! for shame on you nasty minded! hehe.. but yeah so we chilled there, and we just played on some cell phones! mayn if i had my car at school i wouldn't even be going to that class anymore! SCREW THAT! i would leave and go get some food! speaking of food, i'm REAL hungry! but yeah anyways.. when am i not huh? ooh yesterday someone in my histor class sang.. hehe yeah jason sabora! aww.. his voice wasn't bad either! but dang even if it was horrible props for him for having big enough balls to sing out loud to the class.. so let's all applaud jason for haing really big balls! wait, that doesn't sound right huh? aww well.. alrite this blog is long enough for my readers, and sorry for the useless content that i have typed on this blog.. but WOW! good job for reading this useless blog, now you have wasted your time, when you could have been doing something real productive! =D thanks though! i appreciate people reading my life, and to those people who say i have an interesting life.. haha i don't really.. hehe i just try and make it as interesting as i can make it! =D hehe Hi NiCOLE!!

* B U R P *
-- me

hehe yeah i'm real full at the moment my family and i just went to newtown buffet for some new eating.. yes NEWTOWN not to be mistaken by HOMETOWN apparently they're two different things, i had no idea i was sitting there correcting my mom in my head.. but yeah they're two differentthings.. newtown is a chinese food buffet.. but yeah we went.. i didn't eat much, i don't know why.. it was ghetto style buffet.. okay all the toppings they had for ice cream was sprinkles and peanuts! hello, WHERE iS THE CHOCOLATE SYRUP?! weak sauce mayn! and my mom and these dang-fangled filipinos come and bring sukah [vinegar] with onion dipping sauce, when they know perfectly well you're not allowed to bring that stuff in.. but what do they do.. put it in a tupperware and stick it inside my aunt's purse..omgracious.. these filipinos.. and you swear they can tell a filipino they can't bring home food from the buffet, how come they be taking some peanuts and stuff, wrapping it in a napkin and stuffing it in their purses! omgracious.. (( shaking head )) but anyways.. it was good family times..

well winterfomal was a lot of fun. =D good times with my henrison! and mayn how come when we were taking pictures this chinese guy was all positioning us, and then he's like, "they're very nice." and i feel REAL uncomfortable in the position he put us in! =/ grr.. i know i turned out bad in that picture! and not to mention hovsep was making us laugh for some odd reason, i don't even know what he was doing, but henri and i started laughing when he took the picture the second time.. darn it! there's another picture i look crazy ugly ass in! haha oh well, not like i'm not used to it aye?! hehe after the dancing and what not we just decided to go to denny's, and we ate some food.. although we supposedly didn't even feel hungry, but when we got there our appetites suddenly came! gracious.. we're such fronters. and then after that the night was over.. grr how come it took forever for me to fix my hair! =/ gracious... ehh i don't even really know how it turned out.. whatever mayn.. we'll see.. alrite i'm gonna go now.. it's sunday so what's on my agenda.. 1. church, 2. homework... alrite.. REST EASY!