People need loving the most when they deserve it the least.
-- anonymous


well hMm.. today was a pretty good day. woke up early for practice.. tried to get my ass to practice on time for once.. and i did that, too bad the coach didn't come on time. haha. but anyhoot. so yeah we chilled it for awhile practiced our hearts out cuz tomorrow is the "big day" hopefully we do alrite.. and then after that i picked up justin and took him to my humble abode. so we chilled it, went to a sushi place in valencia.. the boy was complaining about the cost of food... STOP COMPARiNG VALENiCA TO GLENDALE gosh darn it. he was quite upset cuz he had to fork over $20 to pay for half the meal. haha well it was a bit over priced though... but it was good. after that we hung out at my house and we played some smash bros. and super monkey ball. how come the boy sucked?! haha poor thing.. kicked his poor little butt at smash bros. and then i showered up and got ready to take my senior portraits. gracious.. seriously i had no idea what to wear. i'm not good at these things.. and i thought i was cute enough to like wait till last minute, but yeah negative on that.. so i just picked my godson's favorite shirt that i wear and some other random blue halter top shirt. and while i was trying on clothes i realized. i have the worse tan right now! i was wearing a wife beater during practice, and mayn staying out in the sun.. wowza! bad tan! uhh yeah, so let's airbrush that please, while you're at it, can you airbrush my face and replace it with someone else's?! gosh i think my pictures are going to come out so ugly, cuz i wasn't comfortable at all.. the guy was saying some weird ass crap such as, "okay smile a dreamy smile, start thinking, think about your ex-BF." okay so does this guy want me to look like i'm smiling?! or does he want an angry face?! so you know what i gave him?! a confused face. cuz gosh darn it my ass was confused. i mean does he think i have had the best experiences with these ex-BFs like i'm supposed to have a nice nostalgic looking smile or something.. uhh yeah no. but seriously i felt so uncomfy... it was weird. gracious... i knew i should have just settled on not taking those daym pictures. but nooo.. i had to go and take them. freakin' crap for $33 something better come out right! haha! so hmmm i'm gonna head out. play some more video games, actually better yet gonna go eat. seeyalaterrr!

Bruce Nolan: How do you make someone love you without changing free will?
God: Welcome to my world.
-- Bruce Almighty quote


Gosh, that has got to be my favorite quote ever! so i watched that movie a couple days ago on DVD, cuz a friend lent it to me. =) thanks FRiEND! haha, but yeah how come i cried during the movie?! seriously, and i told wesley snipes i cried, and he's all, "but that's not a crying movie." haha gosh i know. i seriously cry at the most randomest movies, and laugh at the most randomest times during a movie. i'm weird. but anyways.... so yeah BRUCE ALMiGHTY is such a good movie! okay yeah it was funny, ofcourse i did laugh, but the concept of it all was just B-E-A-utiful! =D hahaha! i mean that quote in itself was just like WOWZERS! this movie makes you realize that GOD has a lot to put up with, He took on a lot of responsibility when He decided to save us... but He doesn't really ask us of much... and so the concept of the movie is basically Bruce has all of God's powers... and there's this one time where his GF, Jennifer Aniston, decides to leave him, and Bruce was trying to make her love him. he was holding out his hand and stuff, and saying, "love me! love me!" and jennifer aniston just looked at him, and said, "i did." i looked at it as, WOW! God has all the power in the world, yet He doesn't allow Himself to have control over what we feel about Him. He can control practically EVERYTHiNG, but when it comes to us loving Him, that has to be done by us. He allows us to do that ourselves... gosh and i just found that AMAZiNG! i think maybe that's why i cried during the movie.. but anyhoot... on to other pressing matters...


AHHH! school starts in 8 days! holy mother of geebus! the summer went by so fast. but i am really excited about school for some reason. i don't know, i always get really excited when school starts, and the excitement lasts for about uhh 4 days, and i'm like crap school again! wow, i'm a senior. i can hardly believe it. what sucks is i don't even have my schedule cuz i owe a whopping $200 to the book room cuz i lost books... yeah i know genius me. i have all intentions of paying it, but what i found ridiculous was the fact taht i go to school to get all my crap did and what not, and then when i go talk to them about the obligations, they're like, you hvae to pay 50%.. uhh yeah folks everyone watch the amazing katrina pull $100 out of her ass crack! uhhh yeah that's not happening. so i had to make do with no schedule and no iD picture. GAYYYY nuts! it's okay i'll walk into the first day of school blindly. sounds exciting huh? yeah no. but anyhoot, hMm cheer has been practicing for the freshman orientation. i feel like this is the first time we're doing this "on our own." i mean jacqui took care of so many things.. and now it's like AHHH! HELP! WHERE ARE YOU?! WE NEED YOU! i miss her so much. she was my momma... but ugh.. enough thinking... so yeah freshman performance.. how exciting! i hope things go well.. i mean this our first official performance.. so i just hope that we do okay... and aww the guys are gonna be with us! =) HOORAY!


my debut practices are coming up soon. gracious, i don't know about this whole debut business.. but one main thing about it is.. i HOPE iT'S FUN! i honestly don't care about presentation or anything of that nonsense and looking "good" and "professional" hahaha! i don't! as long as we have fun with it, and as long as my cotillion members have fun with it, then it's cool. to those participating in my cotillion, thank you guys so much for being a part of this thing.. i know it's a hard commitment, and i know that at times it might be a drag, but thank you guys anyway for agreeing to do it. laters guys. gonna eat.