I remember you and me when we used to
Laugh all night until we fell asleep, oh
And i know we're through
But i've still got thoughts of you left inside my head

So stop me now
Stop my thoughts cause you're killin me
But you don't know
Even though we've grown apart
I'll still be there for you
Cause I don't wanna be just a memory to you
Cause I don't wanna be just a memory to you

-- rufio-"just a memory"

alrite well courntey slept over last night.. and we had a movie night.. we worked on BGD stuff.. you know the usual nonsense and what not.. and people came over my house.. some threw themselves more than others! hahaha.. but yeah it was a fun night.. so frist me and courtney were watching the flinstones movie, and then henri and charles came over and they brought over JOHN Q for us to watch, and joyce came up to watch it with us, and then max and ceej came over my house, but they left abruptly after they came.. but wow, that movie was pretty good! it's such a representation of Jesus Christ, and what he did for us! it was a beautiful movie! yeah well after the movie courtney and i just stayed up for a little while.. and talked.. and then after it was going to sleep time.. and i had to wake up early the next morning cuz i was driving bright and early in the morning.. so i woke up at like 7:36.. and then me and my dropped off courtney at her house, and then we went to my uncle's house/driving instructor so yeah we drove around for a LOOONNNGGG while.. gracious.. forever.. i was a little ehh at first, but after awhile i got the hang of it, and i'm pretty good right now.. i'm going driving again tomorrow.. i'll be ready for that test soon enough, you guys just wait and see! well i stopped by Holy Family to check out the bball tournament there.. and i saw some like people there i didn't expect to see.. i didn't stay for long, i just stopped by and stuff.. and then i drove off and went back to where my mom was to pick her up and eat lunch with her.. omg! my mom is soooo bad to have in the car with! she makes me nervous, and all like AHH!! that was the first time i ever experience road rage, and i was just like ahh! omg.. she's making me so mad.. cuz it's like she shows complete lack of trust in me.. and so i would do stupid ish on the road.. and she's like yelping in the backseat of the car! dude! i was sooo annoyed! gracious.. but after awhile.. she trusted me enough and junk.. so it was cool.. dude some old ass armenian guy flipped me off today.. gosh dude freakin' chunt! i wanted to freakin' sock him! it was like yeah good job buddy, flick off someone that looks like she's 12, and you're like 80! you swear dude! grr.. old people suck sometimes! well after lunch i just drove back home, and i couldn't find parking anywhere on my street.. cuz i have to park my car on the street and what not.. and you guys know who have visited my house there is no parking around my neighborhood, so i had to park at the street across from mine.. it was cool though cuz my driving was completely spontaneous.. it was cool! hehe yeah and my parking wasn't too shabby either. yep! i'm mighty proud of my driving skills at the moment.. it was funny cuz at lunch i said a lot of things to my mom that i did not expect to say.. like when she talked about my dad and her, she was like, "you notice, we don't even yell and argue anymore, cuz we're just tired of it, we give up on each other." and i reply with, "but you know what honestly, i don't care what you guys do anymore. i know that's really sad, but i honestly am sooo over it. you guys can throw things at each other, yell and scream if you want to, and i'll just be sitting in my room reading or doing homework. i'm done with it, and i'm over it." she was just quiet.. cuz i guess she didn't expect me to say that.. and i was like, "dude, you, ate, and papa could be fighting.. and you know what, i WiLL NOT CARE ANYMORE!" cuz i mean honestly.. i'm so over it.. i've dealt with it, and now i give it to GOD, and that's it.. there is no situation for me.. it's such a beautiful thing! =D.. alritee i'm gonna get to moving.. i'm gonna rest easy.. and shower.. and look all spiffy.. OR NOT! hehe.. that's it for this blog.. GOD bless!!

my mind is always working nowadays.. never gets a break.. hMm.. (( thinking ))
wouldn't you like to know what i'm thinking about?

If you're not ready to die for it, put the word 'freedom' out of your vocabulary.
-- Malcolm X

alrite well i stayed in today.. wasn't feeling so swell.. i think it was cuz of sam leaving the windows open to his car last night after the game.. oh which by the way.. HOOVER WON! yeah who would have figured i'd be saying that.. yeah well we played mark keppel high school.. both our JV and VARSiTY beat them.. our jv beat them i think 28-0, and our varsity beat them 48-21. Something of that nature.. yeah well so we did pretty good.. the first time cheering, and we had to run to the endzone so many times.. cuz the cheerleaders run to the endzone everytime our football players make a touch down.. yeah it was a pretty cool experience.. anyways.. after the game me, sam, sinqie, and yelena just went to in-n-out in burbank and ate! yummay! i love that.. and i think sinqie was feeling sick cuz she did not even finish her food! can you believe that?! well believe it! well right now i'm the one feeling a bit queasy.. my head feels all light headed and stuff.. =/ darn it.. i don't like being sick and stuff.. it sucks to be me right now.. anyways today there's gonna be HOJ dance practice.. i'm supposed to go, but i don't know if i'm in the right conditions to really go.. i didn't even go to school and stuff, so how am i supposed to be dancing around and what not.. so hMm i'll see about that one.. and to add to everything i can't even take a shower right now cuz our bathtub was fixed, and we can't shower yet until it's all dried and stuff.. grr.. darn the timing of everything.. all right well i'm just gonna leave this here..c uz i'm gonna go clean up some stuff, and i don't know do something else besides this.. laters..

omgracious.. i just realized this.. and felt the need to blog.. you know musiq's old CD title.. "Aijuswanaseing " you know it actually is.. "i just wanna sing!" omg! how freakin' amazing huh?! dude i was like amazed!! cuz when i read his album title, i was like umm does this guy think he's japanese?! hahaha wowie! yes, and get this..i figured that one out all on my own! yay for me! ahh freakin' musiq.. first it's his "don't change" words all cancelling out each other.. umm unconditional yeah, okay.. sorry NO! don't even get me started on that one.. but yeah.. "i just wanna sing." hahaha what a slick slick boy!

I can't wait for this to end
And leave tonight behind us
I'm unsettle letting go of you
And sleeping the night in silence
-- the starting line - "decisions, decisions"

alritee.. well i just got fnished with doing some homework.. and i'm about to go do some more of it.. yay! but i just thought i would take the time out in my day to blog about it.. cuz ya know.. i know some people are just plain borified and need something to do.. so here i go.. well anyways today wasn't much of anything we had minimum day.. but ehh it doens't really matter for me, cuz i had practice from 1-3 anyways.. so i didn't get to come home at 12:15.. booo!! sucks to be me, and dude my freakin' elbow was killing me in some classes. i couldn't rest it down so i always had to keep it straight.. and the minute my elbow like hits something solid i have to yell out in pain.. and i mean YELL OUT!! like i would say "ouch!" all of a sudden in class out loud.. and dude some people would bump into my elbow in the hall way i felt like freakin' "regulating" hahaha.. okay sorry.. well anyways.. after 6th period rolled around me, mel, sinqie, yelena, and franny went over to the burbank mall to get some food to eat.. and we were supposed to be back by like 1. but it didn't happent hat way.. we got back at like 1:15 and stuff and mayn we were like stuffing food in our faces HARDCORE! and then all of a sudden bob was all.. "hey, we gotta run!" cuz people were being butt holes and not paying attention.. and the only reason i wasn't running and i was just walking was cuz okay i literally just stuffed my face like not even 2.5 seconds ago, but like 1.2 seconds earlier before we started and running i'm not even trippin and letting all the food i ate come to waste and have me throw it up.. so i was like wahtever.. i'll just walk it and stuff.. but i mean it's not that i didn't want to run it.. cuz i honestly didn't mind.. and i would have ran it, no complaints whatsoever.. but dang dude people were complaining to BOB left and right.. it was like dude.. suck it up, and JUST RUN!! gracious.. and like everyone was arguing with BOB, and he's supposed to be the "nice one" and what not.. but it's like dude... treat him with respect!!! ugh! i was really pissed off about it, and i just apologized to BOB and said dude sorry about that.. you didn't need to put up with that ish.. well anyways the girl that was supposed to try out for cheer was supposed to come in today.. she comes from out of state and she just moved to Hoover, she's a sophie.. so we're gonna go check out how she does.. but she never showed up.. so hMm.. i don't know what's going on with that one.. cheer pratice wasn't all that difficult today.. everyone was umm too sore whatever.. apparently that's excusable nowadays.. but goo freshman and JV!!! they worked it today.. cuz tomorrow is the first game they're gonna be cheering for, so they had to go over cheers and what not.. yeah so basically that's all that we were doing teaching them cheers, and helping them out when it's necessary and stuff.. but THEY GOT iT! yeah so tomorrow is our game against MARK KEPPEL HiGH SCHOOL.. i find it so weird cuz like i went to MARK KEPPEL elementary school.. hMm so everytime i hear that it's like it reminds me of an elementary school.. hehe whatever.. i'm a weirdo sometimes.. so i'm gonna be going to glendale high for the game.. our first home game! wowie.. i'm so excited! hehe.. alritee.. this is it for this blog.. i need to hop in the shower.. cuz dude.. i STANK! not just stink, but STANK alritee.. this is it for this fatty.. laters!

Love is a perky elf dancing a merry little jig and then suddenly he turns on you with a miniature machine-gun.
--Matt Groening

alrite.. well what a day, what a day.. so i wake up.. get to school ON TiME! well barely.. hehe but yeah it doesn't matter.. on time.. and then i do the usual school stuff.. then it's snack.. then blah.. then yadayadayada.. you know the usual stuff.. but oh mayn today during french class rouhi walked me to my class.. and then low and behold i see MRS. i !! omg.. this woman caused the death of me.. she would always stereotype kids.. like she would always say.. "asians are not supposed to be bad students." she'd always say that to me.. what kinda?! i was like what the heck?! hMm.. weirdo.. but anyways.. today at french class we watched the little mermaid and yes, i saw sebastian THE CRAB and to confirm it's crabbiness.. the little shrimp dude that introduced him in the very beginning said so!! SO THERE! dude, i just realized i watched liked 3 movies today in my classes.. hMm interesting.. movies galore.. anyways.. and then it was the highlight of the day.. CHEER PRACTiCE!!

so coco and alexa from UCA come and help us out today.. so it was like cheer camp all over again.. but this time it was just for one day, and cheer camp came to us.. i didn't really know what to expect.. coco/akmir is super cool! hehe.. yeah well anyways that was on a sidenote.. but yeah so we get ready.. and we just basically stunted the whole day.. and mayn stunting for me has been kind of difficult for the fact that i haven't been doing that in awhile.. or like i'm not permanently set onto doing something, like a specific thing.. but anyways.. so we started with the regular like elevators, extensions, cradles.. [hehe, sorry if you don't get my cheer language] but anyways.. so afterwards we decided to do TWiST CRADLES! ahh!! dude i used to do those back in like my freshman year.. but i haven't really been able to do it in awhile.. so yeah.. my group was the first group to try it and stuff.. and mayn the first time i did it i just twisted, and landed on people that weren't even my bases in the first place.. but it helped me like get the feel of turning in mid air and stuff.. but the second time.. oh mayn and leslie says to me before i go up, "i'm okay with you hitting me, just as long as you don't knock a tooth out." so i'm like alrite.. next thing you know.. i go in the air.. and i bailed like in mid air and stuff.. and then i look and my elbow hit something REAL HARD!! like REAL hard.. and i see leslie covering her mouth! i was like ahh!! no way, no please let her tooth still be in tact! please oh please! and then everyone was trying to make sure i was okay.. and our coach took leslie aside.. and then eveyrone was like katrina your elbow is bleeding, or is that leslie's blood.. i was like omg.. please let it be my blood, please let it be my blood.. so i look and i'm like hMm.. and PRAiSE GOD it was MY blood! yeah i mean i guess the whole like me worrying about leslie thing i didn't realize how bad my bleeding and my cut was on my elbow.. cuz dude, it's a pretty deep cut.. i guess leslie kind of bit into my skin hardcore.. and yeah let's just say a little chunk of my skin is umm no longer there! hahaha.. but yeah i was pretty numb to the pain cuz of the adrenaline and everything.. but it still looks gross.. and i know it's gonna be a bruise also cuz it was like a hard impact.. aww but i still feel bad for leslie. i'M SORRY LESLiE! shoot, we all paid $20 for this, and she couldn't even participate anymore after the first time and stuff.. aww.. chuntified.. sorry.. but yeah after taht i was a little shaken up but i knew i still had to keep going so after that we just placed sinqie in leslie's place for the lib.. dude, ahh my libs were ehh.. and i'm still getting used to it and stuff.. but shoot as long as i'm not injuring anyone.. after the libs.. it was BASKET TOSS TiME!! omg.. i love basket tosses! those things are sooo much fun to fly! hahaha sorry again if you have no idea what i'm talking about.. but anyways.. wow those are so much fun! and afterwards i did a toe touch in mid air.. AHH!!! i can't believe i actually did that.. after being out of the loop for awhile! mayn oh mayn! woo hoo! FEELS GOOD!!!! and we're learning this transition thing.. hopefully it works so that we look extra cool next time.. hehe can't wait!! it's unbelievable how far ahead we've moved up stunting wise.. it's been a long while.. wowie.. alrite.. well that's all for my blabbing about cheer stuff.. sorry if this blog bored you guys and stuff.. but ehh.. today was like one of the first like bloody injury i had in cheer! i'M SO EXCiTED! hahaha.. alrite well i got some homework to do.. so i'm gonna get to that.. ahh my elbow hurts! hehe.. today was a very good day!! YAY CHEER! i'm so darn proud of us guys!!

AHH!!!! I'M FREAKiN' LATE AGAiN!! FREAKiN' DUMB ASS!!!!!!!! grrr....

i just felt like sharing this little comic strip.. i got it from this website i usually go on that just to check out this comic.. and since i'm already butt late for school i figure i'd do somethign while i'm at home before i leave.. well anyways.. so yeah i don't know i found the comic strip interesting ".... protect me from the truth." hmM.. ain't that the truth.. don't you just wish sometimes someone did protect you from the truth.. hMm.. pretty interesting stuff i think.. well whatever.. just made me think about stuff that has been plaguing my mind lately.. and darn it i'm really pissed off i was late for class again this is not getting cute at all! alrite i'm gonna leave this thought now.. maybe i'll blog later when i get back.. seeyalaterr

Lately I got watch what I say
Cause you take things personal now a days.
You use to laugh, now you get mad
Damn I just want my friend back.
-- musiq - "half crazy"

alrite wow, lack of blogging action on my part huh? yeah i know.. oh well.. hMm well lately i've had a lot of stuff in my mind.. but first let me get to how my past 3 non-blogging days have been..

friday: the usual school activities.. but today we had the welcome back assembly and we had to perform this dance and we had to do this cheer.. yeah i wasn't that nervous about it.. i'm getting more and more used to being on stage nowadays.. before i would pee on my pants hardcore before going on stage, even for the little things.. but now i'm pretty used to it.. oh but ofcourse first, me, sinqie, and yelena had to make a fool of ourselves in front of the whole school.. cuz the junior class thought they were sexy! gracious!! hahaha.. it's okay.. i'm straight! hahaha anyways.. after that we did the cheer with our stunt.. yay! it was leslie and amira basing with yelena backing, and me flying.. the first time we did it at the assembly it didn't go up so smoothly, but the second time! woo hoo! yeah! good times! hehehe.. and the dancing part wasn't bad.. i was really feeling the dance more at the second assembly though.. that was cool.. hehe.. yeah me and my facials.. hehehe.. fun times! anyways.. afterwards it was off to my classes.. and i had to miss my first period class, Trigonometry.. so i was all upset about it cuz i had a test in that class.. so i go before 6th period to see if i can take the test afterschool that day.. and she's like well we didn't take it so don't worry.. hehe wOo hOo! score points for me! hehe.. after that me, melissa, sinqie, yelena, and neha hung out before the game.. gosh neha YOU LiGHTWEiGHT! gracious.. she gets all stuffed already from eating just one meal.. you can't hang with us 4 if you're gonna eat like that! you're hanging with the HEAVYWEiGHTS NOW!! hehe.. afterwards it was the game.. and yeah we lost this time.. bOoo! but it's okay they played a hardgame.. and they were doing pretty good for awhile.. vanessa, charles, and henri came to my game.. to pick me up and go hang out or whatever.. so afterwards they met up my bus at Hoover and we went to this party.. yeah umm that's all i gotta say about that one.. no comment on the partying action! let's just say darn it does everyone in this world freakin' drink and smoke nowadays?!?!?! geez louise, i mean really.. DOES EVERYONE? cuz i mean giash.. it's starting to get really irritating to me how nobody realizes nowadays that your body is your temple.. hello?!?!?! mayn.. i don't know about that one.. cuz like one of my friends who like never used to smoke and stuff.. all of a sudden when i was standing next to him and i was talking to him he was just like.. "yeah i'm tired, all i wanna do is get faded." i mean whoa! to me that was like.. what the heck?! i used to give this guy like mad props cuz he never smoked and all his friends did.. now there you go.. nevermind i guess.. hMm.. so that kinda got me thinking the whole day.. and giash.. the above quote relates to the rest of the day.. ahh I JUST WANT MY FRiEND BACK!!! =\ moving on to..

saturday: well i didn't do much that day but sleep.. i slept until freakin' 5:30 in the afternoon.. and i woke up talked ont he phone i bit.. hung up.. got ready for HOJ.. and went to HOJ.. yeah it was a good talk by ate julie.. and then afterwards i got to do action songs once again! cuz i'm an addict.. but this days action songs were extra cool cuz i got to do it with my umm new boyfriend Lorenzo! hahaha.. yeah he's this 5 year old boy.. and he's the cutest thing in the world!! he's gonna be such a hottie when he grows up! shoot.. when i'm 50 i'm gonna holler! hahaha gross.. jk! and i got to talking to Kim gracious.. but too bad all the boys kept bugging our butts.. they wouldn't freakin' let us talk if our life depended on it dude! always buggin' the two of us, even through all the people bugging us we still got a good talk in there.. i got a little slice of kim, and she got a little slice of katrina.. hehe after that a lot of us went to freda's house warming thing.. yeah it was cool.. gosh ceej was acting like a complete pussay, just cuz there were black people at the party.. freakin' racist! hahaha.. jk.. but yeah there was some karaoke action going on.. omg.. freda.. shoot me yeah? hahahahahahaha omgosh.. what a hogger! hahahahahaha dang dude.. mayn oh mayn these pinyo singers really.. (( shaking head )) hahaha.. alrite afterwards freda and i decided to get out of the karaoke action cuz people were just hurting themselves up in there.. so we talked outside.. oh mayn! once all the debris dies down you start to really see more clearly huh? yeah.. mayn the hoes before bros action was clear this time around huh? gosh dang when will this abuse end?? is there still hope for these boys?? AHHH!!!!! dang dude... hopefully freda "those boys" are our hope.. if not.. i just don't know anymore.. hMm...

sunday: today is homework day.. i have two projects to do.. and i think i'm sexy sometimes by lagging it and not doing it all weekend.. but hey i can do it! i got this sucker! hehehe but yeah basically the stuff that was on my mind was just stuff.. hehe.. i don't know makes me think sometimes.. you know it's like how come when a boy likes you it's like you're the world to them.. but the moment they don't like you anymore it's like you suddenly becoming nothing to them?? why is that? i mean i realize now i've never felt like special to the point that i'm being treated special because he values me as a person or values me as a friend.. it's always been like let me treat her like this.. let me do things for her cuz i want her to get with mer.. are boys only nice to me when they want something?? i mean come on now forreals.. i don't know sometimes.. and i mean if a person don't want things to change between you guys.. then why do YOU change them? like the quote above says.. i try to act normal.. and you used to laugh at the things i said.. now it's like everything is personal.. everything relates to the "issue" nowadays.. it can't just be, because THAT iS ME!! no right? can never be because of that.. gosh i just don't know where to balance myself out anymore.. honestly.. it's like i'm being pulled into all these different directions.. and i'm not even sure anymore which direction i wanna go.. but you know what it's like i'm being "pulled" i don't really wanna go to the directions i'm being pulled at.. but it's like.. AHHH!! nowadays i just wanna get away.. but i did the whole getting away thing before... and in the end it didn't really help anyone.. so no i won't do that again.. i'm gonna weigh this one out..

this is it for me i guess.. sorry for the long blogging action.. but i had to catch my readers up on the goings on of my life.. you guys have a good one and GOD bless!!