he sees me, the REAL me.
-- payton; one tree hill

wow i'm tired! for some reason i was EXTRA tired today. i've been staying up later than my usual nights reading. =/ i know how dorkalicious of me huh? well talking on the phone then hopping into bed and reading. so i go to sleep at like 2am or 3am cuz i read. =/ how disturbing is that?! well anyways.. so i went to one period today! yeah yeah i know bad huh? well guess what.. i've gone to all my classes for 3 weeks straight! i need a freakin' break!! so i got one today! =) but i still got to go to my ceramics class and work on my yoshi mask.. it's so fun looking! =) so i'm basically done with the whole structure of the mask.. the eyes, cheeks, nose, and mouth.. now i just have to add the detailing portion of it which are the eyelids eyeballs and umm i think that's about it.. and clean it up and make it more yoshi like. so after ceramics class i went to snack and chilled.. varty, junior, and i were talking and it was funny cuz i guess varty was talking and i mean junior and i basically zoned out, and then junior goes, "hey look a man on the roof." and i'm like omgosh! that shows you were paying attention to what he was saying! hahhaa! we were cracking up.. haha i guess it's one of those things when you had to be there. ahh! i have to pay for my graduation gown. wow graduation already. =/ how odd the feeling.. hmm, i wonder if i can just use my sister's graduation gown? i mean why the hell not?! it's basically the same thing and i save $32.75.. or is it $41.40? hmmm all i know is i save money. so we'll see.. probably buy my own anyway.. well hmm, during snack corey and steven asked me to leave with them.. and ofcourse me and my inability to resist temptation i go.. i take yelena along with me so i'm not so lonely with the boys.. so we head on over to corey's house. it was mighty easy to ditch this time cuz of slick ass corey. good job buddy! so we left and yelena and i got some taco bell, and then we just chilled the rest of the day at corey's house. we shot his little BB gun. i think i shot a bird... but we couldn't find the bird. Corey wound up shooting 2 birds down. crazy corey! it was a pretty nasty sight.. we didn't see one bird, but the other one we buried, and we shall call the bird, "*beep* face" i forgot the name.. haha oh well.. i chased yelena around with the bird, she was having a crap attack! that's what you get for chasing me around with that clown stuffed animal! *shivers* WOW STEVEN iS STRANGE! hahaha don't you agree yelena?! haha it's all good though, he's cool in a mighty strange way. ADD times 98172918273918723! hahaha! hmm so after chilln there for awhile, yelena and i left and went to go eat some rite aid ice cream.. while we were there we checked out the new sports illustrated swimsuit issue, and it wasn't as hot as i expected. =/ i was sorta disappointed this year.. oh well. there was still hotness ofcourse.. just not as hot.. then we went to the gym and i worked my ass out, LiTERALLY! haha nah.. but yeah did the usual work out. i'm getting frustrated cuz i see no results.. i think i should also control the diet as well.. hahaha i mean what's the point of working out and burning carbs and what not if i'm putting it back on if not 89129813 times more back on... so yeahh salads it is for awhile.. hmm... and to something else..

We'll make the same mistakes
I'll take the fall for you
I hope you need this now
Cause I know I still do
-- story of the year; "until the day i die"

hmm.. so how was my weekend? fun? interesting? gross? let's say out of the three.. i will go with ALL OF THE ABOVE! haha! yeah well, xuan's bday was a good time well spent. a lot of interesting events, things that went down that shouldn't have gone down, but all in all GREAT FUN! won't get into the details of the whole thing, but it was fun! most importantly ofcourse i'm glad xuan! had a good time! as long as she had a good time that's all that matters! it was all for her anyways.. oh and i'm also proud of my lesbo! wow i thought it would take me longer to break you, but it only took me a day! =) welcome to living the motto of KGH! hahaha! good stuff! you're growing up so fast first the you know what now this! *tear* hahaha! well the day after i didn't do much but drive back home and sleep in. yelena and i went to iHOP before i came home to eat cuz we were starved, and we just chilled and talked and again tried to recall the night. and then i came home and i just slept the rest of the day. today i woke up late for school. my aunt usually calls to wake me up for school, but since my phone is dead she can't really call me. so i was relying on the sun rising to wake me up, cuz that's what has been happening last week. i leave all the shutters in my room open and the sunlight wakes me up, but i guess due to my weekends lack of sleep my body decided to stay in. so i woke up at freakin' 9:15am. horrible! so i was like crap! i woke up got ready for school and got to school late to my 3rd period, but that's okay cuz i called the school in advance. well the rest of the school day went by like normal. nothing interesting happened.. and ofcourse everyone was just talking about what it was they did over the weekend. during cheer today we didn't even change.. after cassandra's incident, which by the way she's okay! =) she's a trooper! they basically won't let us move a muscle. so we're stuck where were at, and my senior year on cheer is basically over. no competition.. no nothing. =/ but i don't want to get into that cuz it just gets me all depressed and pissed off.. make me all un-katrina like. well anyways, after practice yelena and i well we weren't really being good with our diet thing.. first yelena had 2 ice creams! and i had one! and then before we worked out we went to in-n-out and ate! =/ haha i know.. but then we worked out afterwards and did the usual stuff.. hahaha! funny though cuz it's like we ate freakin' soooo many calories before we went to go work out.. we ate wayy more than we burned off.. OH WELL! i'm not flying anymore.. so i can be a fat ass now! one of the reasons why i was keeping myself in shape was so i won't be too heavy on my bases.. so crap on that! wow i can't believe i'm not flying anymore. =/ gahhh! stop talking about it katrina! well after that i just took yelena home and i came home and now i'm here.. umm about to eat dinner. okay that is all.

to people signing my tag-board and leaving not so nice messages just to let you guys know.. you guys don't even phase me anymore. i'm so used to your crap and the nonsense you guys say that you guys have no affect on me. okay maybe you guys do a tiny bit.. yeah more towards making me laugh. honestly though if you guys don't like me so much why do you even pay attention to me?! why does it matter to you what car i drive or any other thing. i'm not here to defend myself and say i'm not the things you say i am.. cuz in your eyes i could be and that's fine with me i can care less what you think of me, cuz i know you don't matter.. but if you don't like me so much, why do the things i say and the things i do matter so much to you that you feel compelled to comment on it?! if you don't like me so much don't pay attention to me.. don't even bother with me. leave me alone. but HEY! deal with it how you want to deal with it.. just thought i would keep you from wasting your time...