it's finally over

so wow 2 major events are finally over for me. BGD and my DEBUT.. holy mother both were just tremendously great... so let's start off with BGD

BGD...
wow it was my last BGD. not even last BGD, but my last football game. it was a pretty emotional experience. i mean i remember seeing the seniors from last year get all emotional and i mean now i understand why. especially since i've been in this thing for 4 years, and all of a sudden it's like your LAST time. and the last 3 minutes of the game i just sat back and completely took in the feeling of whatever it was.. i breathed every last minute of those 3 minutes in. and then me, xuan, yelena, and nicole all went up the mic to call a last cheer and ofcourse it had to be "hey hey here we go." cuz we made a tradition this year of starting EVERY football game with that cheer.. so we ended the football game with that cheer. oh my it was so emotional when it came to the last minute.. and yelena started crying like a maniac, and everyone was so nice and sweet and giving hugs... don't worry guys we'll see each other monday. i really can't believe that was it.. no more football games. fudge it like strikes a nerve in me everytime i think about it. i mean i think i just came a long way from when i started this cheer thing to now. i mean before nobody could picture me being a cheerleader, and now it's like how can you NOT think of me as a cheerleader. gosh i feel like i've come so far in this thing.. and now it's OVER! freakin' over. ugh.. it's okay it's not really over yet.... there's more to come!

DEBUTday
wow what a busy day so let me just run it down since i think paragraph form might be a tad too long.
- woke up at 8:30 am to clean my room and other what not activities
- went to the salon at 10am and got my hair did and make upd one. i liked my make up cuz it was natural looking which is fun! not so much gunk on my face.
- took some pictures and waited around for my cotillion members to come to my house.
- got ready put on the dress and what not, and headed out to the odyssey in a hummer limo! it was freakin' awesome! the hummer limo was so pimped out it was the best! and i use the term "pimped out" like literally.. there was like leopard print and crap inside.. it was the best..
- got to the odyssey and took a bunch of pictures around the limo and everyone was watching us.. it was cool!
- robert came up to my table and asked me to dance when i was making him dance, and instead he went up and asked me to dance, and then wesley cut in. aww you guys are really the greatest people! i love you guys!
- went inside and practiced our dance.. the room looked so beautiful! =) the centerpieces were gorgeous, and gosh the whole room was just so beautiful!
- people started coming in and dinner and all the nonsense things started.
- some of my friends didn't show up which was a bummer, so you folks that didn't show up you guys owe my mom $100! hahaha not really, but yeah that sucks cuz you guys missed out on a great party!
- the cotillion members did their dance and you guys it went so well. i'm so proud of all of you guys and i thank you guys so much! you guys are the best ,and omgosh did i fail to mention how gorgeous everyone looked! the girls looked so very gorgeous. i think i had the best looking cotillion member group ever!

thanks to everyone that came to my party... you guys really made my night and it was a really special night. all the trouble that you go through is all worth it.

Were my arms to short to ransom you from broken skin and black and blue
Stitch your eyes so you could read this forever
Dead and broken and I'm backwards turned to love
My heart in a box I send you
for a sky held up by stars
-- further seems forever; "insincerity as an artform"

so my day went by pretty splendidly... or well as usual anyway.. day 2 of the one of the busiest weeks i've ever had.. and can i just say, why is it my moms favorite thing to inform me of events COMPLETELY last minute, and then she gets all upset when things don't happen, when she just informs me of it literally like 2 seconds earlier?! uhh go figure. but yeah i think that's my mom's favorite thing to do. AND, why does she get all pissy when i don't answer my phone?! uhh SCHOOL! i can't answer my phone in the middle of class?! erfz on that. but anyways.. so yeah we voted on campus characters today for the yearbook, and can i just say that thing was really random, and really funny at the same time. so i was nominated for "nicest smile" and uhhh "most attractive" uhh or not. i don't think i'd win for either one, cuz i mean i'm sure neither of those describe me at all.. you'd figure my name would be under "most spirited" cuz ya know cheer captain and all. but NO! it was not.. and i mean i think that would suit me more, and i would have a better chance of being voted for that then either of those two.... and then hahha xuan was nominated for MOST flirtatious! hahaha freakin' hilarious.. weird thing, the girl that has been with her BF for more than a year is nominated most flirtatious... hMmm john should be concerned! hahah jk! but yeah... that somewhat suits her.. hahaha aww poor yelena wanted shyest.. hahaha apparently you're not that shy cuz yeah... people know you... haha.. but yeah some random ass things on that ballot though.. uhh most spirited? joyce? uhh honey, how can you be spirited in school if you're hardly there?! hahahha jk juicy! but yeah cheer practice was fine.. getting a lot of stuff done, but putting it together will be the hard part... oh my will it be hard.. but yes we can do it!!! ofcourse mayn! we're Hoover! uhhh hahaha.. but anyways, after that some of us left to get fitted and stuff for our dresses and what not, and i got my favorite most pretty orange dress! =) i'm wearing that to homecoming and it's one of my debut dresses.. i love that dress! it's like my favorite dress ever! sooo pretty! =) hmm after that me, xuan, and yelena went to red robin and ate some yummy food.. and then we went to debut practice.. a lot of people didn't come due to the rain and such so they couldn't go.. and so the other dance was finished which is good.. robert and i make a great team! =) fun times! and then we just did the dance, and it actually looked pretty good when we did it, even with all the missing people.. hahaha.. alritee well i'm gonna go.. BUSY BUSY BUSY this week.. well hope everyone is having a good one.. see ya!

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just got back from spending some time with my dad cuz it's his bday, and spending some boring time with friends.. well it was interesting.. just sitting inside a car outside a friend's house... talking and getting beat up by dumb ass rouhi.. "i own your life." uhh yeah okay sure if you say so.. gay ass folks couldn't go egging, and i was sad. i was looking forward to it! all good, we've got all week. but anyways, i didn't do much today went to class, did the usual nonsense stuff that is school.. then cheer practice.. can we say, CRUNCH TiME! yeah we're putting our stunts together and what not and BGD is only a few days away now.. and not to mention i think we had an injury today.. lucy, don't trip mayn.. we'll figure something out. your dedication and perseverence is appreciated though. but just get well, and make sure that wrist heals by competition season. but anyways, after that we checked the other stunts that wil be going up and things seem to be going pretty well. 3 twist cradles in one day! freakin' awesome guys! but anyways, after that i just went to my dad's house and i spent some time with him. ate a crap load of food at some sushi place we went to for dinner... it was nice. my dad is so sweet. =) but anyways, after that shaft comes down to gdale and he picks me up and we do absolutely nothing but drive around. it was a good time spent with the homecoming date.. stop in front of romik's house.. romik and rouhi take a break from playing madden. *gasp* can you guys believe it?! they actually took a break from playing madden! holy mother of crap.. go freakin' figure?! but yeah.. and we just hung out outside of his house cuz those two had their asses on check and couldn't go out.. gay asses! but yeah so we just chilled there, and then after awhile of talking fooling around blasting some gay ass music they were listening to watching rouhi's gay ass dances, and getting my ass beat up by rouhi's gay ass.. shaft drove me to my car and i went home. and that was my day folks and now i'm here. and now my freakin' stomach hurts cuz of rouhi.. freakin' gay! but anyways.. hMmm debut practice tomorrow 10am-12pm. it's winding down.. gosh i hope everything goes well..

hmm i want to disappear. i want to magically just be gone for awhile and just not be where i'm at.. hMmm i can't do that physically but hmm mentally.. that's a possibility, thanks to ALCOHOL! hahaha freakin' crap! i seriously need one of those days right now just to get my mind out of the gutter and just let my mind go at ease from everything going around me. a time to just not be where i'm at... there hasn't been a time where i can sit here and just not stop thinking.. my mind constantly being forced to think about the world in front of me.. just even for a night i want to be a complete idiot and just not have to think about what's in front of me.. i need one of those days. yes i do! who wants to give me that day?! ; )