Sometimes you're at your best, when you feel the worst.
-- green day - "nice guys finish last"

so i haven't blogged in a total of 4 days.. what's been going on you ask? DEBUT DEBUT DEBUT! seriously this thing is starting to get on my last nerves.. and people always ask me, "are you excited your debut is coming up?" and i'm just like uhhh i guess.. i have to be right? i dont know.. and honestly i don't even know what's going on.. i don't know what my cake looks like.. i don't know what my center pieces look like.. haha nice huh? and it's my party? i mean i appreciate everything that's going on it's just i don't know.. it feels like it's more of a hassle then i ever wanted it to be. oh well.. what are you gonna do? it's a little over a week away and i'm just like uhhh.. =/ haha.. so anyways, things have been pretty cool.. cheer has been busy working on competition stuff and ofcourse BGD stuff. i can't believe this is my last year! it's so hard to believe! AHH last BGD.. sucks big whale balls. so that's all we've been doing, and things don't look too shabby. guys i really really miss my car! holy cow! it's been so long! hahaha.. i'm such a loser.. but hmm.. did i tell you guys SENiOR year is a freakin' blast! omgosh i'm having such a great time my senior year! =) i really hope all this fun isn't only in the beginning part.. cuz then i'm gonna be mad if it starts sucking.. i have all the necessities to make senior year the best ever.. some CHiLL ASS classes, ability to drive, and most importantly THE BEST GROUP OF FRiENDS A GiRL CAN ASK FOR! i have such a wide variety of friends, and they're all so different.. and that's one of the things that makes it so much fun! =D so yeahh.. i don't know what to write.. oh yeah lately during cheer practice we've been working on twist cradles and i had a really big fear of that stunt cuz the last time i did that i elbowed lesbo in the mouth and she freakin' bit a chunk of my skin off and her mouth started bleeding. =/ so yeah not a happy story huh? so i was afraid to hurt anyone else again. i wasn't really scared for me, but rather i was scared of hurting my bases. but i did it! =D hooray! i'm excited.. and good news cuz cassandra got it too.. so now we have two of those darn things! =) yay to that! alritee well i'm gonna end this now. so till next time.. stay tuned.

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K You like to try new things.
A You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind.
T You have an attitude, a big one.
R You are a social butterfly.
I You are always smiling & making others smile.
N You like to work, but you always want a break.
A You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind.

so is it true? hmmm...

in the long run, the sharpest weapon of all is a kind and gentle spirit.
-- Ina Hughs

i have a lot on my mind at the moment, so i felt the need to blog just to blog and to maybe just talk... so let me just ramble on endlessly until my mind feels at ease.. this might take awhile or it might take a couple of lines.. i don't know.. let's start by rambling about my halloween..

halloween day
it sucked big monkey balls cuz we had a game on halloween so i couldn't do some trick or treating or any such enjoyable thing that a normal 17 year old person would do on halloween.. i cheered. i went to the JV game and the JV gals were so cute! =) they did the cheer i made up for competition tryouts! =) and they said it was for me! what sweetie pies! i thought the cheer i made up sucked so much, but they made the best of it! that really put a tremendously big smile on my face.. it's nice to feel appreciated. and then later the JV members scream out loud, "WE LOVE YOU KATRiNA!" and i'm like awww! it's that appreciated feeling once again. thanks guys! make a girl feel loved. so after that varsity starts warming up and it starts pouring down like a mother.. i decide that everyone should still cheer, cuz i mean if cheerleaders constantly complain about us not being considered a sport and stuff.. then i mean we should be out there in the rain just liek sports would be. cheerleaders whine and cry about us not being labeled as a sport, but then the mere sight of rain makes us want to run and hide.. uhh the football players keep going guys.. and if they can do it and they're doing all those things on the field.. why the heck can't we sit there and cheer them on?! but anyways so we cheered and were ground dead! =/ gayyness.. but it was understandable.. and there was a bit of drama.. when is there no drama?! and then the game ended.. by the way thanks shaft for the shout out over the speaker. after the game we were about to head out to do our usual after friday rituals, when john's car, which xuan borrowed, would not start.. cuz she left the headlights on.. oh by the way, i got a rent a car.. it's a pontiac sunfire.. quite the ugly car.. but it's cool gets me places.. and dude i just realized how much my car spoiled the crap out of me.. like seroiusly that car did everythign for me. it locked my cars for me and it turned off and on my headlights for me so i never had tow orry about that.. now it's like wow i gotta remember so many thigns! hahaha but anyways so we waited for Coach Bob to get the cord thing so xuan's batteries can get recharged.. so yeah we wait, and wait, and wait.. until finally they get it done.. we were afraid somethign was going to blow up so a lot of us moved away a couple of feet, since these folks didn't know how to use it. good thing mina did. so after that we all went to in n out.. and we ate food and talked and hung out.. thanks shaft for buying me dinner! but anyways.. after that we all went bowling, and i played the most horrific game of my life!! while yelena of all people got a score of 118! i'm ashamed.. haha then i spent the night at my dad's house so i can rest and don't have to worry about driving to my SATs the following morning. that was my halloween. not very halloweeny but what are you gonna do?!

saturday
i woke up early and took my SATs.. i sooo was not prepared.. no extra pencil.. and no calculator. good thing my juicy saved my life and brought me a calculator. gosh all the people in that room seemed so prepared with their equipment.. the chick next to me had an EXTRA calculator.. i bet you she came from clark! hahaha jk! after that i just stayed at my dad's house some more and got some much needed rest, and afterwards went to "debut" practice. i put that in quotes since it wasn't really debut practice since no body showed up.. it's understandable since there was a last minute change of the time.. so it's all good guys. i just felt bad cuz my aunts were cooking up a storm and nobody wound up showing up. =/ that was the NOT SO COOL part of people not showing up. but it's okay thank you to robert and nash for being there even though you guys weren't going to come anymore.. and all those people who were in Henri's car and what not that came later.. so after that i just came home.. had all intentions to just chill at home.. until shaft called. we made plans to go watch scary movie 3. so he came here to valencia! YAY TO HiM! but yeah he came here and he picked me up and we watched a movie at the Valencia Town Center. We wound up watching Kill Bill since Scary Movie 3 was sold out. so we watched it and mayn Lucy Liu is hot sauce! but anyways.. after that he just dropped me off and i just sat around for a bit, and i fell asleep by 11. crazy early bed time for a saturday.


where are you?! seriously.. i'm worried cuz i don't know where you are. i would expect that if you're in any sort of trouble or anything that my phone would ring and it would be you on the other line. now i'm sitting here worried not knowing where you are and how you're doing. i want to know. if you're trying to save me the trouble of being involved, well it's too late for that cuz i was involved the minute that we met each other. don't try and un-involve me now.. cuz it's too late for that. ugh.. i hope you're okayy... i'm praying that you're okay.

by the way.. happy WOULD BE 11 months. glad we're still friends.