and i'm leaving on a jet plane..

well i'm not really leaving on a jet plane.. but i am leaving.. in a bus.. with a bunch of cheerleaders.. hehe.. well yeah so i'm off to cheer camp tomorrow.. actually in a couple of hours.. and mayn i was looking forward to having breakfast with my girl blossom, but being hoover someone in our team injured themselves before our performance at camp.. and we have to change some stuff.. gosh leave it to hoover to always do this.. this happend to us also the day before regionals.. gracoius.. but anyways.. so hMm weird i won't be online for 4 days.. and wont be blogging.. are you guys gonna miss me? ofcoures huh?! well anwyays hmm so today was another busy day in the neighborhood.. hehe.. mr. rogers.. okay but anyways yah was real busy today doing some last minute preparations.. and how come i still dont' ahve all my stuff ready and packe.d. cuz i'm a lagger like that.. mayn but i'm mad.. no breakfast.. i wont' get to see my awesome two-some hehe.. freda.. hehe.. well this it for me.. i want the lagging to stop.. so you all be good while i'm away.. and take cares.. and GOD bless! T.T.F.N [ ask nash what the means] heheh off to getting darker i go.. and people who wanna hang out after i come back.. we won't be able to go out in the evening.. cuz you might not see me.. so give that some though.. ehhee bye !

the truth can hurt sometimes, but there is a difference between telling the TRUTH and just being outright mean.. think about what you're about to say before you tell the "truth" to someone..
-- me

you know what.. gosh i don't know.. i've never been so mad before.. it's like.. WOWi'EEz! so hmm.. well first let me talk about my day.. cuz the following part will wind up being a novel.. so i go to school with a kind of pissed off attitude the whole EFFing day.. trying to just brush it off for the day so it doesn't affect me so much.. and then i go to cheer practice.. people were supposed to give me 5 bucks to pay for some stuff that i'm going to be purchasing for cheer.. so like not all the people paid me.. so that sucked.. and then i came home from practice.. and i watched over eric for awhile.. and then singie POOP and yelena came to my house and we left to go get the stuff we needed.. yup.. WE WALKED ALL OVER GLENDALE! sheesh.. sucks to not be able to drive and stuff so we go to micheals and jo-anns.. with MY great navigational skills.. hahha.. not really.. i would have gotten us lost if they had followed what i was saying.. good thing they knew where to go.. or else i would LITERALLY be lost without them.. well so we walked and walked and walked.. dude our feet was all tired by the time we got to my house.. and from there we did the cutting of the ribbons.. and then we traced letters onto fabric.. and singie with her asian skills traced the letters and stuff.. gosh.. the things we do for cheer but yeah.. so hMm.. we did a bunch of cheer stuff.. so they better EFFing appreciate all we did today ! gosh DERN it ! hehe.. but it was all good.. well after a couple hours of working and stuff.. yelena and singie poop leave my house.. and i'm on my own.. and just lay down on my bed. not doing a thing.. just relaxing.. something i didn't do at all today.. well anyways on to my quote above..

someone tell me waht does FRIENDSHIP or best friends mean.. cuz apparently it's defined VERY differently by so many people.. this is my definition and tell me if this is somewhat close to what you think it SHOULD be.. okay so hMm.. my definition of a best friend is that you accept your friend for EVERYTHING that they are.. you take them in with the good and the bad, but you only concentrate on the good that they are.. so if that is true.. how come i feel that i am being prosecuted for ALL of my bad points, and yet not being acknowledged for all of my good points [[ whatever they may be.. ]] but i mean.. IT'S NOT FAIR! i wish i had some snide remarks and say things for all those times someone made me feel like crap, but i CHOSE not to remember them.. cuz i concentrate on the good stuff.. and therefore i don't remember the bad things. i'm so tired of trying not to step on someone's toes.. just so that she doesnt' snap.. gosh darn it.. i can't even be myself anymore, cuz i'm afraid it doesn't live up to your standards anymore.. WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME?! and why do i ALWAYS have to adjust myself to fit your standards, when i have never asked you to adjust yourself for mine? you know why.. CUZ I DIDN'T CREATE STANDARDS FOR YOU TO LIVE BY! you are what you are, good or bad, and i have learned to accept it and deal.. but yet, you have forever asked me to change.. and i have, but yet, you are still left un-satisfied.. i'm in the state of anger, anger that you would have the AUDACITY to say the things you said, and also hurt that you did say it. i guess i'm just shocked by your words, and i'm going to have to learn to deal with it, like i have had to do sooo many times when it came to you.. but you know.. i'm really tired of doing that.. i'm really tired of having to not be myself so that this friendship can strive through anything.. this is going ONE way.. and you know.. i'm just starting to realize.. IT'S NOT FAIR!! it's not fair that you have asked me to change, and i have, and i have yet to ask you to change, it's not fair that you can say all that you want to me, and i have sat there taking it all in.. it's not fair that you use me as your punching bag, and i sit there just trying to take it all in.. i have my faults that i acknowledge, i know i have REALLY BAD ONES, i see them already.. you don't need to tell me them.. i know you see yours, and you don't need someone reminding you of them. i don't need a reminder.. I KNOW! that letter, wow.. for someone that has known me forever, you talked as if you didn't know me at all.....

why is it that the people most dear to my heart, are the ones that wind up breaking it?!
answer [[given by blossom]]: Xx o Gracious xX: becaue those are the only ppl that are capable of doing it
-- me: gosh that sucks how that is SOOO true..

GOD bless guys

[ no highlights and ish.. not feelin it ]

i thought this was so funny!! i saw it like a couple years back.. and i freakin' cracked up for hours.. hehe.. and i still crack up now that i see this.. isn't this little man a crack up?!

alrite well anyways.. hehehe birthday wishes goes out to kristine..
HAPPY BDAY KRISTINE! congratulations on turning 16! woO hOo big ONE SIX! you're growing up! hehe.. alrite.. well hopefully you're having the bestest birthday.. and this is YOUR day! NO ONE ELSES! so enjoy it to the fullest.. and hey chick i got your boys II men CD ready and waiting.. hehe i'll give to somebody to give to you sometime.. alritee.. well hopefully GOD has blessed you with all that you have wished for today, and other days as well.. GOD bless!!

hMm.. so on to my day.. well i woke up went to to snack.. enjoyed my time with friends.. then i continued on to my trig class.. and then i enjoyed my time there with the "debster" ofcourse.. hehe.. gosh we really make the most out of that class.. hehe..but we are still able to listen and pay attention to waht she says and what not.. hehe yesss.. i have my "M" on my folder now.. hehe [note: the "M" is rusty's varsity letter.. hehe from Monrovia High.. and he gave it to me] well anyways.. so yeah i have my "M' on my folder now.. hehe.. and yess.. and debbie will be giving me her track picture.. hehe yeah sorry it's cuz she has a varsity letter.. "H" [ which i also have.. woo hoo gettin gmy jacket this year!] and my cheer pic.. hehe so i'm gonna have an M and her track pic.. hahaha.. yeah we're a bunch of nerds i know.. well anyways so we were doing our work.. and the math ish we learned today was some alrite stuff.. it was complicated.. and long.. but it wasn't that hard once you got the hang of what was going on.. and then afterwards debbie and i took a cute little izone camera pic.. but since the one film that she took got exposed.. it didn't come out right.. BOOOO!! but it said our fortunes on the little like film thing when it developed.. and it said.. "friends 4 EVA" haha.. yess! and TRUST, that is a direct quote.. it is not "ever" it is "eva" hehehe.. yess! aww.. but too bad our "rad" picture isn't going to show up.. bOoOo dude.. that sucks big nuts.. oh well next time next time.. i'll go get us one.. and buy film.. and waste it all on our crazy antics.. hehe.. alrite.. well afterwards it was practice.. and grr.. i dunno why our coach persists on practicing this cheer we're doing.. "for camp" when we dont' even do a cheer for camp.. we're just doing a dance.. so i mean the whole practicing this cheer thing is pretty gosh darn pointless.. i don't like exerting so much energy on something that i'm not even gonna use.. grr.. sometimes our coaches don't have their head on straight i think... hehe but they're still cool boys! well anyways.. after all that ish.. i decide to be a good friend and wait with singie P0Op to wait with her boyfriend.. johnny balls.. yup.. gosh i'm such a nice friend sometimes.. hehe.. but yeah so we waited.. and we just practiced round offs and ish.. hehe yeah.. mine are all right and stuff.. not too shabby.. then afterwards i took the beeline home.. cuz dude it was too hot to walk home and stuff.. and then i came home.. and i babysitted my godson.. ofcourse.. but before everything.. i dropped all my stuff and hopped in the shower.. it was a much needed shower.. dude i was all nastay and dirtay and stuff.. it was gross..so that was pretty gosh darn refreshing and then i continued on to babysitting my godson.. that was my day in a nutshell.. so hope you enjoyed reading all that ish.. hmm i someone remind me tha ti have to blog about bro. ray's talk that he gave in HOJ.. it was good stuff! well alrite.. this is it for now.. i might blog some more later..

highlight of the day:
- FRIENDS 4 EVA! hahahah gracious.. the things they write to amuse the youth these days.. hehe

NOT so highlight of the day:
- aww boo.. debster our picture didn't show up.. gosh..

person who made me smile:
- eric.. cuz he was being so huggey today.. hehehe yay for my GODson!

CAMP IS THIS FRIDAY! W0WWI`EEZ!!

HIGHLY RECOMMENDED BY ME..
well i just recommend this link to all of you people who have lost faith in GOD, or ever think that GOD isn't there.. or just for your personnal viewing.. this helped me about my "question" hopefully it does to you guys also.. -GOD bless ALWAYS- [ clickity click] i loved it... hope you guys do too

Love cannot make you strong until it has made you weak."
-- unknown

well well well.. what a day..hMm so i began by waking up at the usual hour.. hMm 1ish or so.. and then i just went online.. and that blowed.. so i just did quizzes and a survey.. hehe yeah.. the great exciting life i lead.. but ooh i forgot to say.. i got woken up by a certain phone call.. hMm.. yeah so the dude i'm gonna marry when i'm 30 calls me.. hehe rusty, yeah.. and he says joyce is coming to my house, come too.. i'm like hMm.. yes hi to you too.. so whatever i get up.. and after awhile of lounging around i get a hold of joyce and ask her if i can come with to visit rusty in butt EFFing egypt known as monrovia.. well anyways so hMm she tells me to be ready by 2 or whatever.. but how come i thought i was sexy, yet again.. and i got in the shower at like 1:50 and stuff.. yeah, knowing that there is no way in heck i will be ready by 2.. hMm.. i really think i'm sexy like that that's why.. well anyways.. so when i get out of the shower joyce is like waiting in my room.. i'm like WHOA buddy! sorry as you can see i am not ready.. she said just go down to her house when she is ready.. [ hmm.. i'm being very elaborate in this blog, aren't i ?] well anyways yeah, so i go and get ready.. and hMm yeah i do my usual stuff.. getting ready activities.. then i go down to joyce's house.. and ta da we're on the move.. so with the help of her sister, ate irish, we are on our way to egypt.. yup.. and then when we get there it was nice.. aww.. it was nice seeing my rusty again.. gosh.. hello shane west?! hehehe.. yeah.. well anyways.. hehe.. so i go and he has a pretty nice house.. yup. nice indeed.. and so we hang out for awhile with joyce and her sister are out in the den, while rusty and i are in his bedroom playing some stuff.. i was trying to get him to play guitar for me but he was being a wuss.. and he taught me a couple notes to play.. hehe yeah.. i was getting the hang of it.. OR NOT.. hehe.. yeah but i didn't realize it took so much effort and strength to play the guitar.. you gotta press the strings all hard and ish.. but anyways yeah so hMm.. and we played a pretty cool game of tic toe.. huh rusty [winks] well yeah so we play and the thing is we didn't have paper right.. so we decided to use something else.. haha i'll leave it at that.. haha but anyways.. so hMm.. and rusty drew on my "africa tatoo" haha.. yeah he drew a "scary" monster guy.. or not.. hehe yeah and i drew our a walk to remember on his arm.. yes it was niice.. hehehe but anyways.. after all that drawing nonsense we decide to walk on over down to their uMm "hang out place" and buy some coldstone.. which is good cuz i've been craving some forever.. hMm.. was i more of a pig today than usual or what? so we were walking and we decide to go to wendy's.. hMm and rusty suggested i order a jr. bacon cheeseburger.. which ended up tasting pretty gosh darn yummay.. so thank you rusty for suggesting that.. and it was only 99cents! hello! how sexy was that? but anyways.. after tha twe start walking while eating.. and it's funny how food quiets me down.. cuz i was walking to wendy's i was complaining about how far it was.. gosh people think it's so close.. when it's hecka far.. but anyways.. so right when i start eating.. i'm like whoa.. i'm not complaining.. but as i was finishing my burger.. and i was about to open my mouth to complain about how far coldstone is.. i see coldstone right there! hehehe.. yep.. wow food really has an affect on me.. well anyways.. so we go to coldstone and i'm done with my burger.. and i order my usual sweet cream with strawberries.. which was pretty yummy.. so we're walking back to rusty's house.. and everything seemed that it was so much farther away and what not.. when it probably wasn't at all very far.. but ehh.. it felt far.. and plus the weight from my burger and ice cream was weighing me down.. so i'm all walking with my ice cream.. and rusty decides that he doesn't like his so called "yummy" ice cream he created.. which i thought looked absolutely disgusting. but anyways so he drops it off his friend's house.. and he thinks he's hot sauce so he goes inside his friends house.. while joyce and i are waiting outside.. but i didn't really care cuz i had my ice cream with me.. so i just leaned against their fence and ate.. so umm like 5 mins of waiting we leave.. and start the walk again.. and all of a sudden the next thing you know.. i freakin' finished my ice cream.. WHERE THE HECK DID IT ALL GO?! dude i swear i had no idea that i would finish it so fast like that.. yeah joyce and rusty were making fun of me for the fact that one i ate a burger earlier, and two i finished my ice cream really quick.. hMm yeah so we're walking up hill to rusty's house.. and the ice cream and burger that was in my stomach was turning me into such a lagger that rusty had to give me a piggy back ride.. for awhile.. and get this i'm wearing skirt.. i thought i would moon all of monrovia.. but it didnt' show.. hehe but anyways.. yeah so after awhile.. i decide i'll walk part of the way.. and then rusty decides HE's the want that' wants the piggy back ride.. so i offer to give him a piggy back ride.. but this guy like VIGOROUSLY hops on my back.. so i fall forward.. hahaha.. yeah it was a very nice view.. haha.. but yeah so we try again.. and this time it was SUCCESS! gosh i knew i wasn't a wuss dude! well after the end of the first block rusty gets me on his back again.. and he gives me a whole piggy ride all the way up to his house.. which isn't that far from where the block ended.. so hMm.. after that i just enjoy the rest of my time chit chatting with rusty and stuff.. catching up.. talking.. and rusty sorry but, NO YOU CANNOT PICK MY NOSE!! hehehe.. yeah sorry.. only if you promise to dance with me at joyce's debut.. but other than that.. NOOO! you still have to take me square dancing buddy bear! don't you forget it! and we're gonna get married when we're 30, if you and i aren't involved during that time.. and oh yeah i'm gonna make a list of.. "things to do before i die.." i'll show you mine when i'm done.. and yes.. write rusty a letter. will be on it.. =) alrite.. well today was a good day.. so i think i'm gonna leave this blog now.. i've blabbed enough on this thing.. like i usually do.. i'm in the process of changing my template yet again.. i'm not feelin the pink vibe anymore.. alrite that's it.. laters..

highlight of the day:
- a SPECIAL kind of tic tac toe with rusty! ; )

NOT so highlight of the day:
- the hard realization that I EAT WAYYYYY TOO MUCH! i'm representing the whole F.A.T grlz too much.. hehe

person who made me smile:
- aww.. ROY, i'm so happy for you.. you and your girlfriend, 7 months now! *high five* hehe

hotboy of the day:
- rusty, my shane west.. gosh who needs shane west, with you around.. hahaha uMm.. suuuure hehe

[ i have an issue to address about myself, but will get to that when i'm in that zone.. ]

QUIZZES continued..... hehe HAVE FUN GUYS!

Which Peanuts Character Are You Quiz


aww SNOOPY!!


i'm a rabbit.what kinda pet are you?
quiz made by muna.

aww.. RABBIT!!! hehehe...





What's Your Love Style?


Ooh.. i'm the "the perfect style" sheesh.. i REALLY do have hope.. hehe





Which 'Get Fuzzy' Character Are You?


hMm.. how nice.. what the heck is "get fuzzy" i thought i was gonna wind up being some fuzzy looking character.. heheeh aww well..

i decided to be a "cool cat" and take this survey.. hMm.. maybe cuz i'm bored and stuff.. and it's early hours time for me right now.. haha it's already like 1, but hey.. yeah.. so here i go.. have fun reading this ish.. and if you don't wanna read the MOY INTERESSANTO! hahaha i didnt' take spanish okay! but yeah if you dont' wanna read my ish.. then scroll down past it.. or just press the little [x] in the corner of the screen.. hehe.. alrite here we go..

What's on your bedside table?
hMm.. which side.. well on the table to the right of my bed i have a lamp, my alarm clock, and like this little precious moments chest thing.. and on the left side of my bed i have a lamp again, and i have a picture of myself and my cheer team! THAT'S A MUST! hehe and another little precious moments chest thing my friend gave me for my 16th bday... hehe you know who you are.. and uMm my phone.. and my BiBLE, ofcourse!

What's the geekiest part of your music collection?
let me see.. i haven't bought any CDs in awhile... and OoH! well i don't think it's the "geekiest" i actually think it's the COOLEST part of my music collection.. it's the a chimpmunks christmas YESSS! hehe.. dude i'm their biggest fan! ALVIN is a hottie!

What do you eat when you raid the fridge at night?
anything that i find that is EDIBLE! so umm.. everything and anything i find.. DUH! cuz i'm a FATTY!


What is your secret guaranteed weeping movie?
omg.. i cry in the most randomest of all movies.. you know how people cry in movies like "a walk to remember" how come i like pointed and laughed at that movie? [ it's the whole cold hearted thing i think.. hehe] but no honestly i cry in the weirdest movies that people probably wouldn't cry in.. like i freakin' cried a river with CASPER and THE RUGRATS MOVIE the first one.. dude.. sad sad movies.. and also POCAHONTAS! *tear* why couldn't she just go with john smith?! *sniffle* but the hoe did in the second movie.. and she wasn't even with john smith the second movie.. what a skanky! gracious.. hehe.. okay next question

If you could have plastic surgery, what would you have done?
hMm.. well i would probably get something ENHANCED! if you catch my drift.. haha.. but i wouldn't... for the fact that i have seen first hand how people go through that ish.. and it HURTS! and also.. GOD made me what i am, and to me that's PERFECT! =)

Do you have a completely irrational fear?
okay.. i have a really large fear of CLOWNS! what the heck.. those things are supposed to "entertain" or waht not.. or make kids laugh.. but why do they have to make them FREAKISHLY SCARY! dude i freakin' cry if i'm near one.. no honestly.. i'm being serious.. CLOWNS * shivers* i do not think that's a "irrational" fear.. it's completely rational, have you seen those things?!

Do you ever have to beg?
depends on what it is i'm trying to beg for... so i dunno.. you should have made this question more specific.. but uMm.. yeah i think i have to i guess, generally.. hMm.. whatever.. hehe

Do you have too many love interests?
okay, i am going to answer this question with a HAHAHAHAHA! i think i have a LACK of love interests.

Do you know anyone famous?
umm.. i don't think i do..

Describe your bed:
LARGE AND COMFORTABLE! to all of you guys that have experienced the wrath of my bed, you guys know that once you lay down on my bed you will NOT want to get up! but yeah.. it's a queen size bed, it's pretty tall, has 4 pillows with little throw pillows on it, and a big patrick the puppy, not the small dinky one, but the MUCHO GRANDE one! and ofcourse my love, OSCY! hehe.. my bear


Spontaneous or plan?
spontaneous! cuz i realize with my friends if you plan.. it goes down the drain.. but f you plan nothing, things will ALWAYS manage to work itself out.. *ahem* ice skating *ahem* how many times has that trip been planned?!..


Who should play you in a movie about your life?
hMm.. i think BRITNEY SPEARS! should play me, cuz i wanna be a hottie, since i can't be a hottie in real life, might as well be in a movie.. hehe..

Do you know how to play poker?
yeah.. but i prefer not to play that SORRY ASS game.. IT'S BORING!

What do you carry with you at all times?
my wallet and keys.. hMm.. i should put it in a purse.. huh FREDA?! but actually i have ESpecial people carry my wallet and keys for me.. hehe


How do you drive?
I DRIVE GREAT! as long as no fast moving poles get in the way of my driving.. DUDE, i'm great! hehe.. yess! i'm taking permit test on AUG. 5!

What do you miss most about being little?
nap times during class.. those were soooo coool! but i still bring a nap time to my classes though.. hehe

Are you happy with your given name?
hMm.. katrina.. uMm not bad not bad.. it's better than being named pachuka or something.. and TRUST i know someone named pachuka

How much money would it take to get you to give up the Internet for a year?
hMm... A LOT! hehehe.. gosh you might as well take away OXYGEN! hahaha.. it's a sad sad thing.. but that's what happens to you when you don't have a life.. hehe

What color is your bedroom?
white walls.. hMm but i wanna paint it like a lavendarish color.. but that requires effort.. so hMm i dunno about that one..


What was the last song you were listening to?
ashanti - happy

Have you ever been in a school play?
haha yeah.. in 6th grade.. i played the french maid in this mystery thing.. hehehe.. yeah I WAS BAD! hehe.. i forgot all my cues.. someone always had to tap me for me to remember.. hehehe NIIIICE!

Have you ever been in love?
ummm.... what the heck is that?!?! heheh no.

Do you like yourself and believe in yourself?
uMm... i think i should, as everyone should, but you can't help not at times..

Have you ever done any illegal drugs?
no.. i may do some dumb ass things.. but i'm a dumb ass NATURALLY..

Do you consider yourself to be a nice person?
uMm... i would like to think so.. hehe.. i hope i am.. hMm.. aren't i ? hehehe...