The things you refuse to meet today always come back at you later on, usually under circumstances which make the decision twice as difficult as it originally was.
-- Eleanor Roosevelt

my goodness.. last night i had such a high fever.. i don't know what the heck happened.. when i tookmy bath i already felt sick.. and then after i got out of the shower it was all down hill from there.. and i still needed to head to office depot to get some school stuff, ooh office depot only charged me a penny for my index cards.. pretty good huh? hehe yeah i don't know why, but when i checked the receipt it read only, ".01" so i was like oh okay cool! =D yeah so after my office depot and boba trip alongside the BF i slept a bit.. and i woke up at some time and i was BURNiNG! like every part of my body extracted heat from it.. and i have no idea but i know i was talking to some folks online and i couldn't even type.. so if you guys were one of the people i was talking to.. pardon me if i said anything peculiar.. i didn't know what i was typing.. but yeah after feeling like poop and almost feeling like i was gonna faint i just went back to my bedroom and crawled up into a little ball and had the blankets over me, and i woke up still in that position.. i wasn't gonna go to school today as my mommy said not to... but i knew i had to.. with the cheer performance tomorrow i had to be at school, and there was no way my mom was gonna let me go to practice and not cheer.. so i just rested and didn't go to my first two periods, then i went off to class.. still feeling a little tired and my body felt so sore! =/ and the day went on as usual.. pretty tired though.. oh yeah i GOT A MOTHER FREAKiN' TiCKET! darn it! my car was parked on street cleaning day i didn't even know that my cousin parked it there.. grr.. what a bust! but yeah so i went to my classes, and cheer came around and we just practiced, practiced, practiced! and aww cassandra sorry about not catching you high enough! i'll work on it, and TRUST by the time the assembly comes you'll be caught very highly! =D but YESS! we got this huh herm? hehe.. after practicing an extra half hour i came home.. and i find my cousin lying on my bed, and he's also sick with a fever.. aww.. poor guy.. ooh i need to get my henrison's boutinier.. so yeah i think i'm gonna go do that now.. and i was gonna get my nails done.. but ehh.. EFF that.. not enough time.. yet again i lag! gracious.. yay no 1st period tomorrow, but YiKES! wearing our cheer uniforms tomorrow.. ooh i gotta get my spirit buddy some krispy kreme donuts! what a gay! JUNiOR YOU NEED TO GET MY ASS A PRESENT! usually at the end of my entries i go and do my homework, but this time around i did it BEFORE i wrote this.. pretty nifty huh? yeah i know.. so now i'm just gonna go to the flower shop and get henrison's corsage.. so PEACE AND WE OOOUTT! hahaha to my "dancers gone retarded" you know where that came from.. and to those that don't.. that's the ending of the song on our routine.. so with that GOOD BYE!

and to mattchoo! awww why must you be so mean to me all the time?! aww.. hehe it's okay cuz i know it's all from the love that you have for me.. =D you're one cool cat! and yeah i'm not going to the valyermo retreat.. i have winterformal the night you guys are leaving! but hey i'll be there in spirit! and i'll be routing you guys on you know that! you just take good care of yourself up there k? and take advantage of the relaxing atmosphere.. it's really nice up there! i'm so jealous you're going and i'm not! hehe.. but yeah i'm praying for all of you guys, and give everyone on MnM a big hug and a kiss for me.. oh wait bevieeee might mad! hehe JK! but yeah.. give them some lovin' for me, ESPECiALLY! bevieeee! =D byeee hun.

Not everything that can be counted counts, and not everything that counts can be counted.
-- Albert Einstein

omgosh.. i'm really tired! DUDE! my feet hurt and my legs are aching.. omgracious.. but anyways today was a pretty good day.. went to my classes.. ahh i still have to get my books! gracious.. dude i'm so good with the whole school thing right now.. i don't know why but things are feeling quite easy.. i think it's cuz the classes that i would stress about have been taken away from me.. so yeah anyways.. school moved along as usual... then cheer practice.. we're practicing for our performance on friday.. my stunts are going up.. =D the stunts i'm FLYiNG in and the stunts i'm BASiNG in.. cool huh? from flying to the one carrying! (( flexing )) YOU CAN'T HANDLE THiS! hehe.. but anyways.. yeah and that dance we're doing is extremely tiring to do! =/ gracious.. i'm all out of breath when we do it.. and i'm sooo pooped after it all.. but anyways.. after that i just dropped off yelena, and i was on my way home.. did my awesome parallel parking skills! gosh daym i was good! hahaha.. but anyways and then i just came home.. called henri on the phone.. and he was umm "somewhere" hehe.. and then after awhile he called me and he's all, "is there something outside your door?" (( opening door )) "nope. don't see anything." then i look to the side.. and i'm like OH! and there low and behold i see a bouquet of roses.. =D aww.. don't i have the bestest BF ever?! hehe yesiree bob i do! and i was like.. aww what is this for? and i open the card.. and it says he got me roses cuz it's wednesday.. =D awww.. hehehe.. gosh what a sweetie pie! =D gosh how i love that boy! okay well i'm gonna go rest and what not cuz my feet hurt and my legs hurt.. so i'm gonna take a bath! so good day folks and GOD bless!

You can run from the disappointments in your life. But, it's only when you embrace your past that you truly move forward.
-- Now and Then

well today was the first day back.. and mayn i was soo very lazy! goodness.. but it's okay school is only for 4 days this week.. and for 2 more weeks afterwards! i love february! no classes on monday until the last monday.. but yeah anyways.. i'm pretty happy about my schedule.. things look optimistic for me..=D so yeah i walk into my first period.. and low and behold.. NORBiE! and then MONSTER! and then FRANNY! and MELiSSA! yay good stuff.. gosh how come i'm gonna have so many distractions in that class! hehe.. but yeah no.. i'M gonna concentrate! chemistry! right on! hehe but anyways.. after that it was like ehh whatever.. and dude i got in trouble in my english class.. freakin' corey mayn! darn it! but anyways.. after that it was like a usual school day.. i walked into "class" and i saw LESBO! there.. ooh i got so excited! hehehe.. omgosh.. but i feel soo stupid for being in that class! hahaha LESBO knows why.. hehe.. and then it was the usual goings ons again.. and then it was practice.. goodness gracious.. we have to perform this friday, and we're not even concentrating! geez.. i mean HELLO GUYS! i'm not trying to look stupid in front of everyone.. but yeah it was a pretty frustrating practice.. and then after all the frustrations some of us head to baskin robbins! =D yay! gosh jamoca almond fudge, and chocolate chip sundae! gosh dang it tasted sooo good! so it was me, herma, melissa, and neha that went to baskin robbins.. and herma got this little dinky single scoop ice cream while the three of us got sundaes! and she made a bet saying that we don't finish ours.. and if we did she buys us baskin robbins next time we go there.. hahaha i finished mine! oh how you doubt my appetite.. too bad for you herm! haha.. and so did neha.. i dont' remember if melissa finished hers.. but yeah.. ooh someone owes me baskin robbins! hehe.. and then after that i just headed home and now i'm here.. i only have to do my french homework.. so yay to that.. i have to turn in so many books.. and get other books.. omgosh i have so many book fines! argh! this sucks! i'm gonna try the work thing! yeah i actually am gonna try working! =/ with the whole buying a house thing i don't wnana ask my parents for anymore money.. so hMm.. i don't knwo where to work.. i'm looking at retail.. hMm.. i don't know.. alrite with that.. i'm gonna end my blog.. i need to hop in the shower.. care to join me? HAH! jk! byeee!

oh yeah well last night i had a very hardcore argument with the BF.. dude honestly guys have screwed me over.. up to this day.. although i have a great and wonderful BF i still don't have a belief in guys.. i can't shake that feeling off.. and i'm so sick of the feeling that i can't believe what a boy says.. i guess it's cuz i've been said so much crap and so many lies that i've learned to put up a defense mechanism.. i don't wanna expect anything from boys anymore.. cuz the minute i do.. the minute i start believing.. the minute i think.. "well maybe he's telling the truth that time.." the minute i let my gaurd down.. my ass gets screwed.. and i'm tired of that feeling, but at the same time i'm so tired of feeling the disbelief.. i honestly don't know how to shake it off.. =/ i'm stuck. it just seems like i've been said the most nicest things to.. and in the end of everything i'm talked crap about.. i mean i didn't expect the feeling to last.. but why would bad words be shed about someone that was once someone really special.. when i say you're special to me, you are.. and i have never once bad mouthed anyone's worth to me.. well maybe that's just me.. but yeah.. i guess it's a hurdle i have to over come.. not all boys are liars? could it be true.. i guess i'm gonna try walking on this foreign territory.. cuz henri i find you worth the risk. i find you worth all the pain that trust and belief might inflict on me... cuz you are someone special to me.. and that's not gonna change.. i'm sorry i ever doubted you, you don't deserve that.. thank you so much for putting up with me honey.. i don't know how you do it. i love you.

i'm a magnet for unavaliable guys, i'm so sick of it.
-- j.Lo from "the wedding planner"

well today was a pretty okay day.. had to run some errands.. went to the dentist in the morning.. i get to get my braces off in 2 to 3 months! how exciting is that?! yeah so imagine this smile =D without braces.. interesting concept huh? yeah i know.. after that i went to the doctor too to take care of some of my allergies.. and keep in mind that in the doctor's office i'm "19 years old" and the nurse goes to the receptionist as i was walking away.."can you guess how old this girl is?" and she's all, "umm well i was gonna say 16 or 17, but since she doesn't have a gaurdian with her.. i'm guessing she's not." and he's all, "SHE'S 19! isn't that crazy! she looks so young!" and i'm sitting there smiling.. and thinking to myself... oh mayn! gosh! and after that i came home.. called up my awesum2sum cuz joyce and i were going to her house to watch some flicks.. so i went to her house and then watched the wedding planner that movie is so cute.. =D and mayn matthew mccoughnahey (sp?) is soooo HOT STUFF! yowza! but yeah anyways.. after that hung out and what not then drove back home.. visited my henrison for a little bit.. came home.. mom was cool.. ate some fried chicken.. and that was that... today was a fun chill day! =D that's it.. school tomorrow yeah new semester.. so hMm.. yay.. NO MORE MATH FOR ME! yay! and yeah that's all i'm gonna say now..i'm currently taking care of some business.. so BYE!

HAPPY ANNiVERSARY
MY RiSO!!
i love you.

well that's the way to begin my day.. it's mine and henri's 2month anniversary.. wowzers.. 2months already! crazy stuff huh?! yeah that's my longest in awhile.. not counting the whole "seeing/talking" things that happen.. well i had great intentions to clean my room today, becuase it quite messy.. but yeah i'll do that later.. hMm let's talk about yesterday first..

well YESTERDAY was really cool.. stayed home and then henri came over and went with joyce and i to the mall to look for a winterformal dress.. i couldn't find a darn thing! my goodness.. hMm and it's THiS friday and i'm sitting here without a freakin' dress to wear.. i'm such a genius.. well anyways.. after that i went to HOJ.. PRAiSE&WORSHiP rocks my socks hardcore!yeah well it does! =D and after that it was youth.. and aww carlos! you did a really great job with the talk on "GOD's perfect timing" considering you had an hour to prepare for it.. good stuff mayn! and then after that guess who led action songs! ME! haha it was a very enlightening experience actually.. hehe.. i made a couple of mistakes but hey it's my first time so what are ya gonna do.. i was gonna go with youth music ministry to the valyermo retreat, and i got really really excited about it and then i just realized uMm hello i can't.. MY WiNTERFORMAL iS ON THE 7TH! and they're leaving on the 7th at 2:30.. duh! omgosh i'm such a doofus sometimes.. oh but i so wanted to go.. it's so nice up there.. and you just feel so alone there.. well not alone, but it just feels like it's you&GOD up there.. and that's it.. so nice.. but awww i'm gonna have to miss out.. =( well anyways..

i just wanna say.. JOHN! is the greatest, most coolest, most raddest cat there is! john made my day yesterday! he's my extra ray of sunshine =D thanks for being so great and so special! you are my most favoritest CLARK person ever in the world! =D i love you buddy! and thanks for everything you've done.. from the little things, and for the talks.. it's greatly appreciated..thanks for sticking by me... and understanding my point of view..